PROUD...Christmas Edition
Merry Christmas Everybody! How's everyone doing dealing with the stress of the holidays? By the Grace of God, I am doing pretty good. However, I must say that I have relieved some of the stress by cutting back on some projects that were on the list to be done before the Christmas party. So what if the new marble isn't on the hearth before Santa sees it, he saw the old hearth last year and it was all good. So what if I don't have molding in my kitchen and hallway, it's not THAT noticable. I'm trying to tell myself that no posts on the island aren't noticable, but it's not working for me! But who cares? Now these are huge leaps in progress for me because I am a perfectionist and it's not hard to let these things go. In the past, I would have pushed myself to get them done, but I would also have eaten my way through the stress, so to recognize this for me is monumental!
My prayer for you this Christmas is that you find what your stressors are for what makes you stress eat and then find the strength to work through the process of fixing you. What a wonderful Christmas present to yourself that would be!
Loves you everyone, Merry Christmas!
Mary
PS...this will be the last PROUD post til after Christmas Day, see you then.
I'm not sure what my proud is for the day...I havn't done much but try and stay warm inside, away from the snow outside.
Yanno, EVERYONE has to deal with the stress of family cuz we were born into them, we didn't hatch. But the way I've come to accept my dysfunctional family is to learn to see them as the truly remarkable and unique people that they are. They're not the people I would have picked for my friends, but they are the people that God put in my life to share my life. So I've learned to cherish my relationships with them because they are totally unique. Not putting too much emphasis on the importance of what they say helps, too!
Mary
Couldn't have said it on a better day Mary. I went to the doc this morning for my stomach pains I've been having. Not only did I discuss that with her, but she nit picked my health and found other things wrong just while talking to her. She put me on some heart burn kind of meds, and have to go in for an ultrasound on Monday. She thinks it's either time to get my baby maker taken out (gynecologist thinks I have adenomyosis), or I have gallstones. So they are checking on both in the ultrasound.
Then she said my blood pressure was very high. She didn't have my chart with her so she just asked me how it was in the past. I told her the other doc said he wanted to keep an eye on it. So I have to get tests done on Wednesday and start doing some bp checks.
Talk about stressors. Makes me just wanna sit and cry and punish myself some how for what I've done to my body. On cholestrol meds already, have to take an inhaler daily for breathing problems, an asprin daily, etc., and I'm 40 years old and it looks like I'm about ready to add more. Just feels like I'm getting old way beyond my years. So I agree, it is time to figure out what our stressors are, and start working on "me". Hear I told Stacy the other day to think of herself, guess I need to stop preachin' and do the do! Becaause I will tell ya, I feel low, very, verrrry low today. I feel inbetween fighting for my life or picking out my own tombstone. Almost feels like a dead end but I keep seeing that little curb out there..if you know what I mean. I"m praying all of us has a wonderful next year. We all really deserve it, and deserve a chance to be happy, we just have to make ourself and fight for it! Lol, after I mope today.ha
Awwe Holly, you really did have a bad news day. But the first thing that I thought of when I read this was that maybe now that you get your stomach fixed, you will be able to find a plan and stay with it instead of them making you nausous all the time. And once you can tolerate a plan, then you will be able to get this weight off of you and regain your health.
And what good is punishing yourself going to do you? Good Lawd, you are trying harder than anyone else I know to get this right, and there are a lot of special cir****tances in your case that make it even harder for you. I didn't know you had female issues. Female problems can sometimes make weight loss harder. But believe me, they CAN be overcome. It just takes time, and you are young enough to get r done! But getting the right diagnosis is the beginning of finding out the right plan for you. So, in a way, it's good to know what's wrong so you can fix it...and then fix you!
We all love you Girlee and this will get better, now.
Mary
My Christmas prayers for you all:
May you expereince joy sharing time with friends and loved ones
Let there be times of relaxation and peace when you can just 'be'
Plenty of tasty Christmas goodies eaten with savour and restraint
Loving and caring thoughts and deeds directed towards you all.
Inner strength to strive to be the best YOU you can be
Em
As far as past years, this is a piece of cake this year. I am very blessed and for the most part stay present and be thankful when I cannot be peaceful.
Loves you too...we'll see you around I hope!!!!
"The only way to keep your health is to eat what you don't want, drink what you don't like, and do what you'd rather not." ~Mark Twain