Hate myself today

Well remember those 8 doughnuts I scarfed...yeah I'm still off plan since then. I'm back up to 300 pounds and I know my body can't handle eating ****ty. I know stress can't be my outlet everytime but my dear God I've got a load on my plate. Not only am I trying to help my mom stay away and stay strong from her previous ass of a husband, my son has colic now and I do not sleep which then makes me eat and the real kicker...the cherry on top...my husband lost his job friday! I haven't binged since the doughnuts (THANK GOD) but I have had chiense and Taco bell and tons of summer sauage with ritz. I've also had nutty bars pretty much everyday. I'm hoping tomorrow I can get back on track....eating like this is KILLING me...literally. So come on OH family...I need some motivation from you.

Stac

Stac-
Well I am sorry to hear that you have so much on your plate and that you are back up to 300.  This time of the season is suppose to be so great..you know..the most wonderful time of the year..but yet it seems as though everyone gets all stressed out!  We all get off of track you know what you have to do so now you just have to get back ON track and you can do this. Look how far you have come you dont want to give all that up now..and yeah after eating so good and then taking in all this crap..i am sure you pretty much feel like crap..the only thing i know to tell you is to keep all the junk out of the house so you don even have the temptation..keep apples or something around..better to grab that then to grab the other junk food. I know how the colic thing goes..my son had that and that can get stressful..i hope that things get better for you..and remember if you start eating better again you will probably have a lot more energy to get you through the colic stage..so hang in there!!

Don't hate yourself.  I know how hard it is not to; I think we've all been there many times.  You certainly do sound like you have a ton of stress, but now more than ever is the time to take good care of yourself and properly nourish yourself during this physically and emotionally demanding time.  Do you plan your meals?  How about planning them and building in a small daily treat to look forward to?  I can more easily bypass poor food choices if I know I'll be having a treat in the evening.

Go read what I just wrote to Chris...we can re-route this..it takes planning and believing in ourselves!!!!

you can dew this, Stace!!!!!

Okay Stac - so you hate yourself; now what are you going to do about it?

You've got two options.  You could: 
A) Eat what you want using "Stress" as your excuse and fly under the radar until you get motivated to work on your weight again or...
B) Take action today and stop this now.

This is your life - these are your choices and you MUST do what's BEST FOR YOU!  I want you healthy.  I want to see you happy with yourself.  I want the next post you make to have the title "LOVE myself today!!" 

Stop the snacking, stop the fast food choices - you are worth the effort you must put into making healthy meals for yourself.   Don't ever forget that!

Janina has said it all (wow, you sound just like Neecee)...lol!

Our only choice here (and I say our, cause I'm in the same boat) is to take charge and putting yourself first.  You can't be there for everyone else if you don't love yourself.  And let's face it, the stress is gonna be there no matter what you do....you can just choose to have all that stress and feel ****ty about yourself on top of it, OR have all that stress and feel good that you're doing something positive for yourself and your family.

I know you can do this Stacey and turn it around again.  By the way....your little one can be picking up on you stressing out over all of this too (won't help the colic situation).  So having a happy, healthy Mama is the best answer for him too!

will be praying for you!!

Thank you guys so much!! Janina, your such a sweet person and I had to read your reply to my husband since he's always asking what I'm doing on here. I'll post my food intake tomorrow and fingers crossed it'll be a good one!

Stac

I don't have any words of advice for you, but I can offer you some companionship. We're two peas sharing the same pod I think. I've nutty barred myself back up to 300 lbs too. You're not in it alone, but you know that.  We can hate ourselves together for a while if you like, but we gotta hang in there. It's gonna change sooner or later. We've got no choice but to beat this. :)

Chris I totally agree! I'm really hating being back to the 300 point!!! So we can hate ourselves now but sooner or later we'll be loving ourselves!!

Oh Stacy, I'm sorry to hear about your problems.  I'm a little late coming in this thread, but just wanted to give you hugs since you already got lots of good advice and words of wisdom.  Keep your chin up and don't look down!  That's when those darn donuts appear! :) 

I actually did want to say one thing (of course I have to open my big mouth).  While I think it's great that you are there for your mother, you have a load on your plate.  Make sure your thinking of Stacy first!  One thing I didn't realize at your age is that no one else can take care of me.  You are on your own.   Here you are taking care of your mother, worrying about your husband, and of course caring and loving your new little one.  DON'T forget about yourself.  Feeding your sadness, your fears, your frustration will only bring you more misery....being fatter.  This new little bundle is yours and  who's going to take care of him if your not around?  You need to get healthy Stacy, you NEED too.  At your age I was so busy taking care of others I forgot to take care of myself.  I am double that weight now at age 40, so be careful.  I'm not trying to scare you, I"m just trying to make a point because no one else can feed you, but you!    Plus I would hate to see you fall into the same trap I did. :)  We luvs ya on here and we want to see you have a healthy, long, and active life!

Plus this is the PERFECT time to start eating the way you want your little guy to eat!   He can grow up eating healthy instead of Taco Bell!