This time next year...
LONG...stop now, before there's no going back....
You know, I think the idea of liking exercise is a mistaken thought construct. Like, do I like it? Really like it, like when I'm in the middle of it? Not exactly. Especially when my trainer is telling me to push harder and I'm giving everything I've got and it's still not enough! Like today, I was doing stability ball walkouts then pikes (http://www.trainwithmeonline.com/exercise_143_Pike_Ups_on_th e_Stability_Ball.html) and in the second set I couldn't get my dang fat ass in the air more than 2 or 3 times without collapsing. Or was I loving it when we were doing cable pulls while in a low squat and my quads were begging for mercy and I was shaking like an autumn leaf? Hellz no!
But I did it. Even when the pike ups were getting impossible, I kept trying (I think 4x before I finally called it). And though my trainer was encouraging me, I think she saw the tenacity it took to try so many times (which is after all what she was after). So the high then is pride.
And sometimes the high is exhaustion. And sometimes it's very real (I hear).
But what keeps me going? The endorphin kick I get is suble but enough that I haven't been depressed in over a year. Even recently with the second lay off in 2 years, which is enough to throw anyone into a depression. And it's how exercise and the gym environment has been teaching me to think and be more positive (believe positive and good things come, believe negative and bad things come)....
So, what makes the difference between someone like me who has only missed maybe 2 weeks in a year and a hafl for snow or sickness versus the women in that challenge group I was in who haven't stepped in the gym for 2-5 months? Commitment.
I keep going, keep working, keep doing...because even when results are slow I get that out of the blue compliment on my results from other members who see the big picture....I keep going because who wants to live depressed?...I keep going because this size is more pleasing to me than my previous size...I keep going cuz I just feel better about myself because of it all.
But what about those moments where I wanted to say screw it? EVERY person has them, even trainers I know. Maybe they slid before and know it's not worth it, or maybe they know enough to not slide because it's not worth it....
So, I guess it's the lessons along the way about what works for you. Like Chris, is the "just doing what you like when the spirit hits" working for you? You may determine it's not and you have to get harder with yourself. Or those who try a diet but don't follow it and start creating their own path. SOmetimes that individual path works, sometimes you see it's pitfalls.
Shrug. Sometimes you just have to be tenacious and keep fighting.
You know, I think the idea of liking exercise is a mistaken thought construct. Like, do I like it? Really like it, like when I'm in the middle of it? Not exactly. Especially when my trainer is telling me to push harder and I'm giving everything I've got and it's still not enough! Like today, I was doing stability ball walkouts then pikes (http://www.trainwithmeonline.com/exercise_143_Pike_Ups_on_th e_Stability_Ball.html) and in the second set I couldn't get my dang fat ass in the air more than 2 or 3 times without collapsing. Or was I loving it when we were doing cable pulls while in a low squat and my quads were begging for mercy and I was shaking like an autumn leaf? Hellz no!
But I did it. Even when the pike ups were getting impossible, I kept trying (I think 4x before I finally called it). And though my trainer was encouraging me, I think she saw the tenacity it took to try so many times (which is after all what she was after). So the high then is pride.
And sometimes the high is exhaustion. And sometimes it's very real (I hear).
But what keeps me going? The endorphin kick I get is suble but enough that I haven't been depressed in over a year. Even recently with the second lay off in 2 years, which is enough to throw anyone into a depression. And it's how exercise and the gym environment has been teaching me to think and be more positive (believe positive and good things come, believe negative and bad things come)....
So, what makes the difference between someone like me who has only missed maybe 2 weeks in a year and a hafl for snow or sickness versus the women in that challenge group I was in who haven't stepped in the gym for 2-5 months? Commitment.
I keep going, keep working, keep doing...because even when results are slow I get that out of the blue compliment on my results from other members who see the big picture....I keep going because who wants to live depressed?...I keep going because this size is more pleasing to me than my previous size...I keep going cuz I just feel better about myself because of it all.
But what about those moments where I wanted to say screw it? EVERY person has them, even trainers I know. Maybe they slid before and know it's not worth it, or maybe they know enough to not slide because it's not worth it....
So, I guess it's the lessons along the way about what works for you. Like Chris, is the "just doing what you like when the spirit hits" working for you? You may determine it's not and you have to get harder with yourself. Or those who try a diet but don't follow it and start creating their own path. SOmetimes that individual path works, sometimes you see it's pitfalls.
Shrug. Sometimes you just have to be tenacious and keep fighting.
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