What did you eat today? 12/01

B: Coffee w/cream
S: Atkin's shake (1 carb)
L: Trader Joe's Crustless Quiche (8 carbs)
D: Beef of some sort w/small serving of a veggie (4 carbs)

Carbs: 13

So... Holly gave her confession and I should give mine:

I started "cheating" on my diet on Wednesday.  I was planning on getting back on track on Friday, after Thanksgiving.  I woke up Friday morning and literally forgot, and ate a bagel.  Smart, Janina... Moving on, Saturday's a new day.  I went and got my hair cut (I'll post a picture tonight) and I was really upset about it (because I've never had short hair in my life) and I decided to feed my sadness with carbs.  Sunday's a new day, right?  Well... I decided I'd eat whatever I wanted on Sunday and restart on Monday... So 2 days of cheating turned into 5.  I gained 5 pounds, and rightfully so.  I'm upset with myself because I give in to my cravings too easily.  I'm a complete push-over for food.  I literally feed my cravings, I feed my emotions and it's doing me no good, and what's worse is that I KNOW this and I continue to do it. 

I'm not going off my diet for Christmas - I'm going to low-carb the holiday because getting off my diet pushes me to a place I just can't handle properly.  I need boundries. I need "No no" foods.  And I let myself loose when I cheated.  It's going to be really hard for me to get off Atkin's when the time is right.  I'm going to need some major support when that time comes.  In the mean time, I'm going to stick to guns, and keep up my boundries.  I just don't comprehend what "moderation" is when it comes to eating.  The band has helped me a lot (for example, I can only stomach 1/2 a bagel rather than the whole thing) but when my tummy is looser (in the evening) I can down a really big piece of pie with ice cream on top and not think twice about it.  I need a brain transplant or something. 

Anyway, that's my story/confession.

It feels like OA stories in here.hehe  Maybe we should start having weekly confessions.lol 

It's hard isn't it!  Once you conquered restricting bad foods from your diet it's like you can't touch them or else you totally cave.  I sooo understand where you're coming from.  Moderation is key here and I for one am trying so hard to conquer this problem.  I give it to you on sticking on Atkins, because it is doing wonders for you.  But for me I know I"ve restricted myself before from some foods and it causes destruction, destruction I really don't want to see again.  Maybe I (we) just need to get tough?  Maybe we need to keep away from these foods?  But then I think how much destructiion it can cause and then I bow down to "moderation is key", and "only once in a while".  I mean, that' what the rest of the world does isn't it?  It's one I'm still trying to figure out which way is the best way for msyelf.  

Thiis morning I was thinking about all of this and it dawned on me that I try to restrict my calorie intake so low, or I complain about too many points in WW.  Lol, I'm never happy!  Guess I'm scared to eat that many calories ...LEGALLY..in case it causes failure?  If I eat low cal and it doesn't work I only have myself to blame for it. But then when I cave in I even eat more.  Wierd eh?

When I lost a hundred pounds I steered TOTALLY away from so many things.  If I didn't eat those foods again I probably would still be at that weight.  But then I think what kind of reality is that?  I'm sure some people do it, but I'm really wondering how many succeed that way?  So I'm definitely here for hand holding when you decide it's time for maintenance.  Your a strong woman though, more than you give yourself credit for.  I think you can conquer it! :)  

 

B:  egg beaters, with little bit of ground beef,and two buttered toast...5.5 points

Janina....I feel (and share in) your pain!!  I don't have any answers or I wouldn't still be fighting this battle at age 62.  Sounds like Thanksgiving did show you what you don't want to be doing again for Christmas....nothing wrong with a lesson learned.  I still can't get on the wagon with both feet, but won't give up the fight.

B:  EZ muffin with natural PB and SF jelly
      2 slices turkey bacon
S:  handful almonds
L:  3 slices LF provolone
      3oz. LF turkey breast
      Light N Fit yogurt
S:  1/3 bag butterscotch chips....
D:  turkey kielbasa
      German style braised red cabbage
      cranberry salad

Hey Sherrie, I've ridden that wagon with only one leg on it, but that's OK, the most important thing is to just hold on with all of your might!  Glad to see you're still in the fight.  

Mary

Awwe Neen, I know it's hard, but try to focus on what you were doing 'right' before Thanksgiving and get your head back in that place.  I have faith in you that you'll get yasself back in the ring and fight the good fight.

Mary

S: Atkins shake (1 carb)
B: Breakfast bar (2 carbs)
S: sf jello w/whip cream
L: Breakfast bar (2 carbs)
S: Enduldge bar (2 carbs)
D: Cream of spinich soup (6.5 carbs)
     Salad w/ bacon and ceasar dressing (1.5 carbs)
S: tea w/whip cream & sweetener (4 carbs)

Carbs: 19

BTW, the cream of spinich soup is really good! I didn't think spinich could taste good! :-)  It makes 8 cups, so I have lots leftover (one serving is 1 cup) My 5 year old liked it too!

This is now Tuesday, but I'm posting my Monday eating.
B- fried egg with 1 oz cheese
S- coffee with cream and Splenda
    small handful peanuts
L - 2 oz roast beef and 2 spears of asparagus (left over from dinner)
S- Starbucks triple-tall-brevie-latte-2 Splendas
D- 1 boneless chicken breast with a little left-over turkey gravy
S-Atkins bar

Geez- I think I need some veggies!