I went to the party.......

So I went..

Was wearing a size 14.  I did my hair.. put on my makeup.. nails were done.. skin tanned.............  I thought I looked ok.. certainly better than I did at over 300 lbs.

Then I get an e-mail with copies of what people said about me..

about how fat I am and how I look like a bad transvestite.

AND PEOPLE WONDER WHY I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE THE EFFIN' HOUSE!

Who ARE these dreadful people???? Why aren't you thousands of miles from them????

They suck. You do not. It's that simple.

OMG, they have to go to sleep with themselves every night, so let that be their punishment!

Um, what kind of party was it??  A "come over so I can make you feel like ****" party?  WTF?!!!  That is just cruel.  Why would someone collect "comments" and email them?  Surely this person is not a friend? 
I'm simply amazed at the cruelty of some people....and the need for them to put others down to make themselves feel better.  It's sickening.  
I'm sure you looked fabulous!  You are rockin' your weight loss and are an inspiration to all of us.  I know it's difficult but do NOT let others determine your self-worth.
We love ya  Lori.
Kim

You thought you looked ok...I am sure you looked awesome!!! LIke Kim said..what kind of person would gather up what people said and then send it to you in a email??? For one..they have no guts to confront you to your face..they ahve to do it by email..not that their opinion even matters..to me..it sounds like you had some very jealous people!!! Don't let it get to you..People make rude..hateful comments to you..to bring you down..and its like it makes themselves feel better..you were over 300 lbs..and you are a 14 now! WOW!!! Some of us would be loving it to be in a 14..i dont have to see you to tell you that you looked good..thats just unreal..makes you wonder waht kind of people are out there..and what is going on in their sick heads..seems to be harder to make a good comment to someone..sounds like they know what they are doing to you and they are enjoying it..sick freaking people!!

I gotta be honest.. I'm pretty sick about it.  It took me a LOT of guts to finally go out.  I was dressed casually, but tastefully.. not like a hoochie (like other women were).. no push up bras, cleavage or bare skin................  I just wanted to go unnoticed.. yanno what I mean?

At over 300 lbs.. people noticed.. and they stared..
if I had a great body, people would notice

I JUST wanted to be invisible.. and I thought at a size 14, I'd get away with it.

Why do people even want to talk about people like this?  The woman who told me said she was being my "friend" by letting me know what was being said about me.

Anyway..............  through the outburst of tears I said to this woman that I've been through hell in the last year fighting to dump 120 lbs I've lost, and I'm still fighting it, and I don't need this chit... I don't need her, her friends, their judgements, attitudes pffffffffffffft.  I have done NOTHING to hurt anyone.. by action or through gossip, and I resent being the target.

And .. like all of us... I resent being judged by the way I look.  I'm clean, well coiffed and meticulous about every detail......... and I didn't deserve these comments coming from folks who should learn the benefits of soap and water.  grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr      I didn't say anything specific... didn't try to hurt anyone in response - but I'll tell ya.. it got to me.

Oh   my    god...

Okay I'm pissed.

Number 1: The ***** that gathered up the comments is NOT your friend.  If she WERE your friend she would have protected your feelings by keeping those hateful comments to HERSELF!  Sharing those comments did nothing but hurt you.  It wasn't to your benefit; it didn't help you in anyway.  That's ******g ridiculous.  She was probably just jealous because someone HAD to have said a compliment about you, and she focused on the negatives to rid her jealousy.  I wish I could smack her.  UGH!

Girlie girl, you look awesome.  You're a size 14!!!!  That's fantastic!!! 

Fuck 'em.  **** your friend **** the ******** at the party who said one syllable about you **** 'em.

I love you and you're my major inspiration.

Thanks woobie...

Well.. I learned a lesson. 

I've thought about it all day.  There's not a dayemed thing I can do about it.  That woman took a very unflattering picture of me without my knowledge or consent and sent it to everyone who didn't show up - just to humiliate me.  I'll not be going out again.. that's for sure. 

I can't lose another ounce..and I refuse to go backwards....................  

I'm gonna try a liquid fast for a week and see if that jogs something...........  I'd love to hit another one of those parties if I could dump  another 40 lbs and say "SEE THIS FAT ASS... KISS IT..  SSSSSSSSSSSMMMMMMMMMOOCH IT...... THE ONE KNEE APPROACH IS FINE!" 

that woman taking a pic and sending it to everyone that wasnt there is just ridiculous..does people ever grow up ?? What kind of party was it that you went to anyways??

i went to your profile and looked at the 2 pictures of you..and you look great!! Gosh you have lost 120lbs..i so totoally think that people are just jealous of you..and instead of saying something nice..they have to do this negative crap..but you have learned a lesson..u know these people arent your friends..all you can do now is go forward..cause by no means..are they perfect in any way..who is? I'd like to smack the crap out of some people..sit back and watch..this will come back and bite them in the butt..

Aww Lori,

First thing I thought of is on how much you hate going out as it is.  I'm gonna try not to repeat what every one said.  I'm writing this a little late.  Just wanted to let you know that you look fabulous.  You are beautiful inside and out, and don't ever forget it! :)

Thanks Holly.. that's my thing exactly..  I HATE leaving the confines of my little world here......and after much coaxing, I went.. and I should have gone with my instinct and just stayed home and minded my own business.