off topic?? Train Anxiety
Ok, here's the thing. I'm supposed to take train 8 hours to my parents house for Christmas this year. It'll be just me and my 5 year old daughter traveling. I havn't ridden on a train for at least 3 years, and I remember it being a tight fit then (I think I was a size 24/26 then). Now I'm a 30/32 and am having serious anxiety over whether or not I will fit on the train? In the small seats? up the tiny stairway? through the crowded aisles? I have the option of sitting in the downstairs seats which are bigger (by a whole 2 inches, whoo hoo) but the down stairs usually has elderly and disabled passengers, and my 5 year old is high energy and may be difficult to keep quiet to their liking.
It would be better upstairs where we could move through the train cars (assuming I can fit up the stairs and down the aisles) but I just don't know what to do. I told myself I would try to loose a pant size by Christmas for several reasons, but what if I can't? I've been trying to loose a pant size for the past year, and the only thing I've managed to do is not go up a size!! How embaressing it will be if I actually get STUCK in the stairwell or something like that!!! Does anyone have any ideas??
I've been so stressed out about this I can't sleep at night....(I know Christmas isn't for awhile, but Mom and Dad are bugging me to solidify plans, so I've been overthinking it)
Anyway, thanks for everything....it feels a little better to vent.
-Heather S.
All i can say is things are usually worse when we anticipate them than when the thing actually takes place.
You will handle whatever comes your way with grace and dignity, trust that. Ask your higher power to grant you the words if anyone should try to humiliate you.
And in the meantime, get a plan to change behaviors - is your issue fast food? Is it snack items? Rid your house and routine of that type of thing. If you are doing all the right things, just keep it up, and let your higher power carry your worry for you.
Somebody painted a rock for me that says "Let Go and Let God". That is a very symbolic thing to do - go out in nature, find a large rock, take it home and paint those words. Place it in a visible spot, then when the worry pipes up, gaze at it and even repeat those words to yourself.
Even go find a pocket sized rock to rub and repeat those comforting words.
Love your body and know that it is doing the best it can! You may be able to get a reasonable loss going, but let's face it, by Xmas, your weight will not change dramatically. It is what it is.
(((((((heather)))))))
"The only way to keep your health is to eat what you don't want, drink what you don't like, and do what you'd rather not." ~Mark Twain
Hi Heather,
I like what Necee said. But as a big woman myself I can really relate to you. For your peace of mind, opt for the downstairs one. I chose to do this also a few years ago and I'm glad I did. I also hate those little stairwells and was about a size 22/24 at the time.
Don't worry about the seniors, I think you will be surprised on how much they will actually get a kick out of your daughter and actually might help entertain her a bit. From what I remember there is so much more room down there that your daughter will probably behave and not be as figity either.
I have extreme anxiety and there is no way if I know I can get an extra two inches in a seat I would take it in a heart beat just to calm myself a bit.
Take the lower seat and try to relax so you can do what Necee said! :)
