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I have schizoaffective disorder with depression, and I have been in a psychiatric facility twice in my life. Speaking only for myself, I found being in a hospital was not much help to me. I did much better once I got home, especially when my psychiatrist found an effective medication for me that had few side effects.
I'm very fortunate, because I was really psychotic twice in my life. I had hallucinations, heard voices in my head, had terrible judgement, and believed I was a grand, exalted person. I also believed that God was personally talking with me inside my head, which I called my "God voice". My illness has much more bizarre symptoms than yours, but at one time, I had such a bad depression that I considered killing myself. Instead, I prayed to Captain Kirk (which was the same as praying to God, just using another name. The important thing was, I genuinely prayed for help). I got an answer the next day, in the middle of one of my Star Trek fantasies, which I was heavily addicted to at the time. I knew about 12-step groups, and I called a lady who became my first sponsor, and started going to Emotions Anonymous meetings. Nowadays, those have been replaced by Codependents Anonymous meetings, which deals with our dysfunctional families and the behaviors we picked up to cope with our pain and trauma from our childhoods.
I wish you luck, and I agree with what some of the other people have said responding to your post - find out the root of your depression, as well as taking the medication. I am doing both with the help of Coda, OA, and DA (Debtors Anonymous). My worst addiction is to food, but the others are a problem, too.
Denise Phares/kitties4
I'm very fortunate, because I was really psychotic twice in my life. I had hallucinations, heard voices in my head, had terrible judgement, and believed I was a grand, exalted person. I also believed that God was personally talking with me inside my head, which I called my "God voice". My illness has much more bizarre symptoms than yours, but at one time, I had such a bad depression that I considered killing myself. Instead, I prayed to Captain Kirk (which was the same as praying to God, just using another name. The important thing was, I genuinely prayed for help). I got an answer the next day, in the middle of one of my Star Trek fantasies, which I was heavily addicted to at the time. I knew about 12-step groups, and I called a lady who became my first sponsor, and started going to Emotions Anonymous meetings. Nowadays, those have been replaced by Codependents Anonymous meetings, which deals with our dysfunctional families and the behaviors we picked up to cope with our pain and trauma from our childhoods.
I wish you luck, and I agree with what some of the other people have said responding to your post - find out the root of your depression, as well as taking the medication. I am doing both with the help of Coda, OA, and DA (Debtors Anonymous). My worst addiction is to food, but the others are a problem, too.
Denise Phares/kitties4
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