130 pounds to lose...
Ok, I'm finally gonna post. I have been researching wls for a while now, a couple years I think. I have decided that I am gonna give it my all without the surgery. I want my life back. I am 32 yrs. old and 290.4 pounds exactly (today). I am in alot of pain physically now. I can't live like this. So I've decided to do something about it. If anyone else with over 100 pds (or anyone with any weight to lose) wants to post on this thread, please feel free. I would also love any advice from those who are already on the losing trail.
You see, I am a binge eater. It seems that there are times when it consumes me. I am going to counseling to deal with this. And I feel like I am dealing well enought that I have stopped gaining. But I know I have to lose this weight before my health deteriorates any further. I want quality of life. I gained alot in pregnancy, 72 pounds to be exact. I am now 12 pounds higher than the highest prego weight of 278.
I am using livestronger.com to journal my food and exercise and I am hoping to lose 100 pounds in the next year.
God Bless,
mother
You see, I am a binge eater. It seems that there are times when it consumes me. I am going to counseling to deal with this. And I feel like I am dealing well enought that I have stopped gaining. But I know I have to lose this weight before my health deteriorates any further. I want quality of life. I gained alot in pregnancy, 72 pounds to be exact. I am now 12 pounds higher than the highest prego weight of 278.
I am using livestronger.com to journal my food and exercise and I am hoping to lose 100 pounds in the next year.
God Bless,
mother
hi mother! welcome aboard! I too have binge tendencies, not so much any more, but hell's bells, I'm now 51, so finally getting a clue.
You are very wise to get on it and stay the course...you said it, there is so much to life than feeling bad, not only physically but spiritually from shame and never feeling "good enough" - all due to a sick relationship with food.
Of course, what your therapy will teach you, very simply stated: of course, the food just sits there on the shelf, in the bowl, in the freezer just as passive as you please.- it's YOU (and me) my dear, and your impressions on what food does to you.
God is with you as you unravel all the behaviors and compulsions toward food.
You can do this...it feels never ending and truly does take lots of time depending on how long you have abused your body.
I feel so good that at long last, I am "normal" with food. I am not thin by anyone's standards, never will be. But i am at peace with food as I am no longer fearful of it. I know if I fill my body with good basic food from the food groups: lean meats, good fats, dairy, high quality grains, vegetbales & fruits....there is not time to eat all that garbage around me...and not much desire to eat it either.
The trick is to surround myself and make available all this good food. That means planning - every day. When i do eat less than great foods, I don't suffer for hours/days/weeks, I go on to the next fine meal or snack that I planned.
we're here if you need us! It's funny, you will meet people who say they have never been compulsive about food - they just are fat cuz they ate too much, so not every fat person is as lost as you & I may feel with food! that was a bit of a revelation in itself to me.
You are very wise to get on it and stay the course...you said it, there is so much to life than feeling bad, not only physically but spiritually from shame and never feeling "good enough" - all due to a sick relationship with food.
Of course, what your therapy will teach you, very simply stated: of course, the food just sits there on the shelf, in the bowl, in the freezer just as passive as you please.- it's YOU (and me) my dear, and your impressions on what food does to you.
God is with you as you unravel all the behaviors and compulsions toward food.
You can do this...it feels never ending and truly does take lots of time depending on how long you have abused your body.
I feel so good that at long last, I am "normal" with food. I am not thin by anyone's standards, never will be. But i am at peace with food as I am no longer fearful of it. I know if I fill my body with good basic food from the food groups: lean meats, good fats, dairy, high quality grains, vegetbales & fruits....there is not time to eat all that garbage around me...and not much desire to eat it either.
The trick is to surround myself and make available all this good food. That means planning - every day. When i do eat less than great foods, I don't suffer for hours/days/weeks, I go on to the next fine meal or snack that I planned.
we're here if you need us! It's funny, you will meet people who say they have never been compulsive about food - they just are fat cuz they ate too much, so not every fat person is as lost as you & I may feel with food! that was a bit of a revelation in itself to me.
"The only way to keep your health is to eat what you don't want, drink what you don't like, and do what you'd rather not." ~Mark Twain
Neecee,
Thanks for your kind response. Have you done any "diet" so to speak? You said you feel that you now have a "normal" relationship with food. I feel that I cannot get to normal on any "diet". That's why I am journaling on "the daily plate". I'm hoping not to get obssesive(which just makes me want to overeat). I am typing in what I ate. I almost wi**** didn't even count calories. I know that the knowledge of calorie intake is beneficial but (and maybe you will understand what I mean) I also feel that counting this or that sometimes makes things worse for me. Maybe that's a copout. I'm still working on how I feel about that but I know I have to make this happen, for me.
After my post I went out and walked a mile and a half. It felt extremely painful but good also. I make it in 31 minutes. I have a strong will but that pain was tough to endure. I'm proud of what I did and I will continue.
Have a good night.
Thanks for your kind response. Have you done any "diet" so to speak? You said you feel that you now have a "normal" relationship with food. I feel that I cannot get to normal on any "diet". That's why I am journaling on "the daily plate". I'm hoping not to get obssesive(which just makes me want to overeat). I am typing in what I ate. I almost wi**** didn't even count calories. I know that the knowledge of calorie intake is beneficial but (and maybe you will understand what I mean) I also feel that counting this or that sometimes makes things worse for me. Maybe that's a copout. I'm still working on how I feel about that but I know I have to make this happen, for me.
After my post I went out and walked a mile and a half. It felt extremely painful but good also. I make it in 31 minutes. I have a strong will but that pain was tough to endure. I'm proud of what I did and I will continue.
Have a good night.
SW-290.4 - CW-287.4 1stGW-285(made it!) 2ndGW - 280 (made it!) 3rd GW-275 - GW-160
yes, there is a danger of triggering compulsive overeating in counting this and counting that. In general numbers, such as what I weigh or what size i wear can be a trigger. Example: I weigh 185, I should weigh 140, omg, freak out and begin starvation so i can get there. We all know what starvation causes: overeating.
Early on in OA (Overeaters Anonymous), one does not even mess with all that.
As a sidenote, OA was great, for me and where I started with all this but i was lucky in that there were several groups of people in my town that were actually very good - sometimes in a smaller area, people are "stuck" with maybe a bunch of fellow overeaters *****ally don't get the principles of the program.
Back to dieting...
OA teaches us to eat, whatever, for three meals a day. If you plan 3 corndogs and 4 orders of fries, so be it. But nothing else whatever in between meals is allowed - or you break what is called abstinence. Over time, after one has completed work such as personal inventory, food loses its power, or really we get stronger.
The idea is to get to a place where food is no longer scary, no longer ruling every moment of your day. Food = fuel, not a daddy replacement or some other emotive currency.
For me, "dieting" is a fact of life. Whatever I choose to call it, a diet or a food plan or "way of eating"....bottom line: I have to control the amounts of the food I eat, or I will not lose weight. I have come to accept this. The emotive currency has been removed from the types and amounts of food I eat, thanks to the work i did over lots of time, in OA. Years of work, btw.
Am i 100% cured? never. Every once in a while, esp when i am alone or feeling loneliness over long periods of time, my binging tendencies re-emerge.
I have come to believe that planning, then eating the types of foods i listed for you in normal amounts, religiously, are a comfort, not a punishment!
If i go off my diet/plan/woe, I CAN get right back on track...to say oh there i go again...never sticking to anything, I suck, poor me...THAT is stinking thinking - an excuse to go right back and harm myself.
Now, I can more easily shake that type of thought off me - not easy, took many years, but i did it. I found tools and use them to stay stronger.
Eating higher protein, enough fats every day and plenty of veggies is very key for me to not feel like I am starving. I found that I was acytually undernourished - over fed, but not with good food. is this you?
You may be exactly right that for now, you are not in a good place to count. I think you will get there, but first comes lots of work. What therapy are you doing?
Early on in OA (Overeaters Anonymous), one does not even mess with all that.
As a sidenote, OA was great, for me and where I started with all this but i was lucky in that there were several groups of people in my town that were actually very good - sometimes in a smaller area, people are "stuck" with maybe a bunch of fellow overeaters *****ally don't get the principles of the program.
Back to dieting...
OA teaches us to eat, whatever, for three meals a day. If you plan 3 corndogs and 4 orders of fries, so be it. But nothing else whatever in between meals is allowed - or you break what is called abstinence. Over time, after one has completed work such as personal inventory, food loses its power, or really we get stronger.
The idea is to get to a place where food is no longer scary, no longer ruling every moment of your day. Food = fuel, not a daddy replacement or some other emotive currency.
For me, "dieting" is a fact of life. Whatever I choose to call it, a diet or a food plan or "way of eating"....bottom line: I have to control the amounts of the food I eat, or I will not lose weight. I have come to accept this. The emotive currency has been removed from the types and amounts of food I eat, thanks to the work i did over lots of time, in OA. Years of work, btw.
Am i 100% cured? never. Every once in a while, esp when i am alone or feeling loneliness over long periods of time, my binging tendencies re-emerge.
I have come to believe that planning, then eating the types of foods i listed for you in normal amounts, religiously, are a comfort, not a punishment!
If i go off my diet/plan/woe, I CAN get right back on track...to say oh there i go again...never sticking to anything, I suck, poor me...THAT is stinking thinking - an excuse to go right back and harm myself.
Now, I can more easily shake that type of thought off me - not easy, took many years, but i did it. I found tools and use them to stay stronger.
Eating higher protein, enough fats every day and plenty of veggies is very key for me to not feel like I am starving. I found that I was acytually undernourished - over fed, but not with good food. is this you?
You may be exactly right that for now, you are not in a good place to count. I think you will get there, but first comes lots of work. What therapy are you doing?
"The only way to keep your health is to eat what you don't want, drink what you don't like, and do what you'd rather not." ~Mark Twain
Neecee,
Thanks for your kind response. Have you done any "diet" so to speak? You said you feel that you now have a "normal" relationship with food. I feel that I cannot get to normal on any "diet". That's why I am journaling on "the daily plate". I'm hoping not to get obssesive(which just makes me want to overeat). I am typing in what I ate. I almost wi**** didn't even count calories. I know that the knowledge of calorie intake is beneficial but (and maybe you will understand what I mean) I also feel that counting this or that sometimes makes things worse for me. Maybe that's a copout. I'm still working on how I feel about that but I know I have to make this happen, for me.
After my post I went out and walked a mile and a half. It felt extremely painful but good also. I make it in 31 minutes. I have a strong will but that pain was tough to endure. I'm proud of what I did and I will continue.
Have a good night.
Thanks for your kind response. Have you done any "diet" so to speak? You said you feel that you now have a "normal" relationship with food. I feel that I cannot get to normal on any "diet". That's why I am journaling on "the daily plate". I'm hoping not to get obssesive(which just makes me want to overeat). I am typing in what I ate. I almost wi**** didn't even count calories. I know that the knowledge of calorie intake is beneficial but (and maybe you will understand what I mean) I also feel that counting this or that sometimes makes things worse for me. Maybe that's a copout. I'm still working on how I feel about that but I know I have to make this happen, for me.
After my post I went out and walked a mile and a half. It felt extremely painful but good also. I make it in 31 minutes. I have a strong will but that pain was tough to endure. I'm proud of what I did and I will continue.
Have a good night.
SW-290.4 - CW-287.4 1stGW-285(made it!) 2ndGW - 280 (made it!) 3rd GW-275 - GW-160
Welcome aboard!
So, when it's time to post on the "what I did today that made me proud" thread, you can log your mile and a half walks!
WAY TO GO!
I'm always SO encouraged to see other women take charge and decide to make themselves healthy.
Hopefully you'll join in the banter on this forum.
Ruth aka Mom Shap (a grandma of 3, with another one due in Dec)
So, when it's time to post on the "what I did today that made me proud" thread, you can log your mile and a half walks!
WAY TO GO!
I'm always SO encouraged to see other women take charge and decide to make themselves healthy.
Hopefully you'll join in the banter on this forum.
Ruth aka Mom Shap (a grandma of 3, with another one due in Dec)
I have over 100 pounds to lose and I'm just getting started. I was on the WLS track for almost two years and just last week had my third "intervention" and I'm now going it alone. But something else happened this weekend to cause me to be THANKFUL for people caring enough to intervene and be supportive. A 55-year-old lady and mother of 5 in our town just died from complications of gastric bypass surgery. (And I think it was the same surgeon that I was scheduled to use.) It was so sad and yet showed me the importance of getting and keeping my weight loss on track. From now on, this forum is going to be VERY, VERY important for me! I will be here for you every step of the way!!!!!!
Welcome aboard. When I started, I had 250lb's to lose, but I'm down to 130 now. Yes I had WLS, but trust me, the Lap band is the hardest method and requires the most effort. At the moment, I'm getting zero help from my Lap band, and 100% help from my own will and effort. I'm doing Atkin's diet at the moment and it's given me hope that I can overcome my lard.
Best of luck to you and stick around this board. It's full of the most determined, helpful, and loving people I've ever met.
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