What Have You Done Today to Make You Feel Proud?
As you all know, there is a hurricane coming into the Gulf. At first they said that it was going to hit New Orleans, which gave me a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. I live about fifty miles east of New Orleans and the eye of Katrina went right over my house. Now they are saying that it will be sixty miles west of New Orleans, so Bren, start to batten down those hatches.
I said that to say this, I'm proud that I got to keep a promise that I made to myself three weeks after Katrina when we still had no electricity and I was suffering in the heat. At the time, I still had twenty pounds to lose, and had gained five pounds because those MREs are FULL of carbs. It says so right on the package cuz the soldiers need extra carbs in combat.
From being in the heat, I had rashes under my big ol boobs and belly and was one of the most miserable people on the planet. That's when I became determined to get the rest of the weight off to be able to have the surgery to get the excess skin removed. Now that I look back on the past three years, knowing what I know about my weight history, I'm proud that I put in the hard work and got the weight and the skin off. I don't think I've ever really acknowledged to myself exactly what an accomplishmet that was.
And that's my wish for this post, that it reminds all of us to start to give ourselves credit for even the smallest things that we do to get healthy. If you've been laying on the sofa, five minutes on a bike or walking is just as big of an accomplishment as those here who workout like Trojans!
We can do this!
Mary
I said that to say this, I'm proud that I got to keep a promise that I made to myself three weeks after Katrina when we still had no electricity and I was suffering in the heat. At the time, I still had twenty pounds to lose, and had gained five pounds because those MREs are FULL of carbs. It says so right on the package cuz the soldiers need extra carbs in combat.
From being in the heat, I had rashes under my big ol boobs and belly and was one of the most miserable people on the planet. That's when I became determined to get the rest of the weight off to be able to have the surgery to get the excess skin removed. Now that I look back on the past three years, knowing what I know about my weight history, I'm proud that I put in the hard work and got the weight and the skin off. I don't think I've ever really acknowledged to myself exactly what an accomplishmet that was.
And that's my wish for this post, that it reminds all of us to start to give ourselves credit for even the smallest things that we do to get healthy. If you've been laying on the sofa, five minutes on a bike or walking is just as big of an accomplishment as those here who workout like Trojans!
We can do this!Mary
Wow, Mary..... you've been through an awful lot... My prayers are with all of you as this storm approaches.
I'm a tad worried myself as my daughter recently moved back to Florida... right on the Gulf. I know the storm is supposed to just graze them but I remember what happened with Charlie. It wasn't supposed to get near us..... then in 20 minutes it turned from a 2 to a 4 and turned right smack dab into Port Charlotte. I believe the Lord spared us from Charlie so we could join the relief effort by bringing supplies and providing equipment from my inventory that proved helpful to those who had no electricity. I remember the fear I had in me during the worst of the seasons knowing that my body was so incapable. How would I have cared for my child? I have the greatest respect for those of you who suffered and survived such catastrophe..... I don't think I would have fared as well.
Anyway... I'm off the subject.
What I did to feel proud today:
I painted my bathroom. Scrubbed everything to within an inch of it's life.. and I mean SCRUBBED. I've never seen that sucker so clean. I took a wood refinisher and did all the woodwork and the vanity, the doors, window frames (gee this house has a LOT of woodwork). All that's left is to rehang the liner and curtains and such. I did an accent wall in a green to match some of the detail in the amaryllis (sp) curtain, matching rugs and towels, and the rest of it tan. I never really worry about "matching" or "accent walls".. lol But I thought it would be nice and it made me feel like my life isn't a total waste.
I also worked out hard.... even though my heart isn't in it lately (having the feeling that I'm not making any progress).
God be with all of you who are near the storms suspected path..... My prayers are with you!
Lori
I'm a tad worried myself as my daughter recently moved back to Florida... right on the Gulf. I know the storm is supposed to just graze them but I remember what happened with Charlie. It wasn't supposed to get near us..... then in 20 minutes it turned from a 2 to a 4 and turned right smack dab into Port Charlotte. I believe the Lord spared us from Charlie so we could join the relief effort by bringing supplies and providing equipment from my inventory that proved helpful to those who had no electricity. I remember the fear I had in me during the worst of the seasons knowing that my body was so incapable. How would I have cared for my child? I have the greatest respect for those of you who suffered and survived such catastrophe..... I don't think I would have fared as well.
Anyway... I'm off the subject.
What I did to feel proud today:
I painted my bathroom. Scrubbed everything to within an inch of it's life.. and I mean SCRUBBED. I've never seen that sucker so clean. I took a wood refinisher and did all the woodwork and the vanity, the doors, window frames (gee this house has a LOT of woodwork). All that's left is to rehang the liner and curtains and such. I did an accent wall in a green to match some of the detail in the amaryllis (sp) curtain, matching rugs and towels, and the rest of it tan. I never really worry about "matching" or "accent walls".. lol But I thought it would be nice and it made me feel like my life isn't a total waste.
I also worked out hard.... even though my heart isn't in it lately (having the feeling that I'm not making any progress).
God be with all of you who are near the storms suspected path..... My prayers are with you!
Lori
Lori Lori Lori! 
Sounds like you made a nice place to relax.
You and I have a lot in common. I love it when my house has been cleaned to within an inch of it's life, too.
I just wanted to say that I'm sorry if I upset you by telling you that it took me six years to lose my weight. But I only said it to let you know that some of us have medical reasons for it going so slow that has NOTHING to do with LAZINESS!!! I know how hard you can be on yasself for taking blame over something that you have no control over. I still say that it's related to your diabetes. I'm just sayin'.
I pray that your daughter stays safe from the storm,
Mary
Sounds like you made a nice place to relax.
You and I have a lot in common. I love it when my house has been cleaned to within an inch of it's life, too.I just wanted to say that I'm sorry if I upset you by telling you that it took me six years to lose my weight. But I only said it to let you know that some of us have medical reasons for it going so slow that has NOTHING to do with LAZINESS!!! I know how hard you can be on yasself for taking blame over something that you have no control over. I still say that it's related to your diabetes. I'm just sayin'.
I pray that your daughter stays safe from the storm,
Mary
Oh Mary... there's no need to apologize. What you did took patience and perserverence... two qualities that I don't possess. You didn't upset me - I need to hear what happens with others so I can get an idea of what to expect. These surprises are hard to deal with....... I really believe I have my diabetes under control now, but still dealing with some of the damage it's done.. so who knows.
I'll just keep trying. It's NOT hurting me to try. This time last year I could have never sat on the bathroom floor to refinish the woodwork, lemme tell ya.... so I know what I've managed to accomplish so far is a major improvement over where I was. :) I climbed like a monkey all over that room from the tub to the vanity and so forth.... made me feel real again. :)
I'll just keep trying. It's NOT hurting me to try. This time last year I could have never sat on the bathroom floor to refinish the woodwork, lemme tell ya.... so I know what I've managed to accomplish so far is a major improvement over where I was. :) I climbed like a monkey all over that room from the tub to the vanity and so forth.... made me feel real again. :)
Hey Monkey, 
I'm glad to hear you've been let out of your cage!
Yeah, unfortunately that damned diabetes doing damage sounds like the culprit. My sister has a LOT of fluid retention now from her not getting help til it got out of control. I don't gain ten pounds at a time like you, but if I'm not on Atkins, I can gain five pounds overnight due to fluid from hormones. Have you ever heard of nephrotic syndrome? It causes you to eventually have severe swelling from diabetes millitis(sp?).
Congratulations on feeling REAL!
Mary
I'm glad to hear you've been let out of your cage!Yeah, unfortunately that damned diabetes doing damage sounds like the culprit. My sister has a LOT of fluid retention now from her not getting help til it got out of control. I don't gain ten pounds at a time like you, but if I'm not on Atkins, I can gain five pounds overnight due to fluid from hormones. Have you ever heard of nephrotic syndrome? It causes you to eventually have severe swelling from diabetes millitis(sp?).
Congratulations on feeling REAL!
Mary
Been there done that! But I think that if you knew the medical reason for your swelling, you wouldn't get so frustrated when you have those crazee swings in fluid retention. For years they didn't know what was wrong with me and I felt totally redeemed when I found out about the PCOS cuz it let people know that I wasn't just fat and lazee! There was a medical reason.
So I am officially now going to say that Monkey has issues pertaining to her diabetes that makes her swell uncontrollably. Doctor? We don't need no stinkeen doctor!
Mary
Well, Mary.... after reading your posts... and getting on the scale last night to see I was back up to over 220 lbs (after taking 4 x the usual dose of lasix), I believe I'm going to find a nephrologist - even if I have to travel to Columbia. Jon got insurance on me as a "domestic partner" and it seems pretty good now so I'm not going to worry about the money anymore. The MRI I just had done cost me a total of $20 and if they covered that, I doubt they'll not cover tests that a nephrologist will order. I've just been feeling very guilty about all the money that has been spent on me over the years on prescriptions and doctors. The insulin alone was costing me about $700 a month... total of about $1500 a month for everything without insurance. Test strips were another $200 - 300 a month.... now since i only test once or twice a day, I only buy one box a month and my insurance covers them so they are only $10.
Lately my sugars are coming up a bit high for no reason. NOT HIGH as in BAD.. but yesterday I awoke to a 140 which is unheard of for me in the past year... usually it's between 80 and 110. Yes.. I want answers to my inability to control my weight and to these massive fluid gains, but I have a level of fear. I know that there's nothing much to be done with nephropathy after a while... just dialysis and I vowed never to go that way - so I guess I've been avoiding hearing what a specialist would have to say (bok bok bok bok bok bok.. CHICKEN)... lol I had heard that nephropathy can reverse itself after 6 - 9 months of controlled sugars, but my feet still feel like I'm walking on hot coals and the pain is still pretty nasty up to my knees....... so I guess there's something I'm not doing to help (if there's anything else which can be done).. and the medications which help cause weight gain........ so you KNOW what I'm thinking (rather live with the pain). LOL
My decision came last night when Jon (who doesn't barely recognize my very existence) looked at me and asked why my stomache was so big all of a sudden. If HE noticed.. then.. yea... I gotta look into it.
That's it.... gonna try to stop being a chicken and be responsible about this thing... so... I'M PROUD THAT AT LEAST I'M HAVING THE THOUGHT to do the right thing! LMAO
Lately my sugars are coming up a bit high for no reason. NOT HIGH as in BAD.. but yesterday I awoke to a 140 which is unheard of for me in the past year... usually it's between 80 and 110. Yes.. I want answers to my inability to control my weight and to these massive fluid gains, but I have a level of fear. I know that there's nothing much to be done with nephropathy after a while... just dialysis and I vowed never to go that way - so I guess I've been avoiding hearing what a specialist would have to say (bok bok bok bok bok bok.. CHICKEN)... lol I had heard that nephropathy can reverse itself after 6 - 9 months of controlled sugars, but my feet still feel like I'm walking on hot coals and the pain is still pretty nasty up to my knees....... so I guess there's something I'm not doing to help (if there's anything else which can be done).. and the medications which help cause weight gain........ so you KNOW what I'm thinking (rather live with the pain). LOL
My decision came last night when Jon (who doesn't barely recognize my very existence) looked at me and asked why my stomache was so big all of a sudden. If HE noticed.. then.. yea... I gotta look into it.
That's it.... gonna try to stop being a chicken and be responsible about this thing... so... I'M PROUD THAT AT LEAST I'M HAVING THE THOUGHT to do the right thing! LMAO
Yaaaaaaay Lori!!! I'm over here doing my happy dance for you for making such a great decision. I pray that you find the best nephrologist on the planet! Now as for the meds causing weight gain...not taking the meds is causing weight gain and it's only getting worse. Taking the meds will make it better and you can talk to your doc about what it would take for you to lose the weight. And being healthy is way more important than being skinny. I wish your new doc could give you a pill that would put it in your brain that you are worth the money to get 'fixed'. You certainly do more for your 'domestic partner' than I do for my husband...well except for that one thing,
and he owes it to you to take care of your health because that man would be LOST if anything were to happen to you! He sounds like he wouldn't even know what to eat unless you told him, much less get his shirts to the cleaners!When are you making the appointment? Huh? Huh? Huh?
Enquiring minds want to know!
Mary
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