Officially giving up...
Pardon the drama... but I've had it.
I'm fighting like all hell to get under 210 lbs and even though I was 208 yesterday..... TODAY I'M UP TO 217!
I give.... I truly give.. this is not worth the nervous breakdown.
So... Later on I'll have a extra cheese pizza.. and maybe some veal parm.. who knows... maybe some spaghetti cause I'm sick to DEATH of killing myself in the gym and counting every gram of protein, fat and carbs just to see the weight gain.
Maybe one day (when I hit 300 again) I'll give it another shot... but for now.... it's not worth it.
I've had it..... maybe I'm just meant to be morbidly obese and fighting it is just a waste of my time and energy.
F*ck it..
I'm fighting like all hell to get under 210 lbs and even though I was 208 yesterday..... TODAY I'M UP TO 217!
I give.... I truly give.. this is not worth the nervous breakdown.
So... Later on I'll have a extra cheese pizza.. and maybe some veal parm.. who knows... maybe some spaghetti cause I'm sick to DEATH of killing myself in the gym and counting every gram of protein, fat and carbs just to see the weight gain.
Maybe one day (when I hit 300 again) I'll give it another shot... but for now.... it's not worth it.
I've had it..... maybe I'm just meant to be morbidly obese and fighting it is just a waste of my time and energy.
F*ck it..
Yanno, maybe you do need to take some time off. Not crazee eat sugar out of the jar kinda time, but time of not soooooooo restricted.
Sometimes I am just amazed at how you eat...I personally would be raving lunatic. Oh wait, right now you would be considered a raving lunatic, but that's just in a temporary dieting sense of the word.
So if we were to examine all of the reasons for your weight gain, we'd see fluid pure and simple. I know you are diabetic and take certain medications, but for the life of me, I don't see how your doctors can't figure out this insane fluid collection. Sumpn' somewhere is seriously outta whack and nobody seems to be able to diagnose it properly. We'll all try to put our brains together and see if we can research your problem and then you let us know whether it's a possibility or not. And don't slap me if I come back and say that you may have fish DNA in your system somewhere...afterall, it WILL be internet research.
I'll get back to you with what I find out,
Mary
Sometimes I am just amazed at how you eat...I personally would be raving lunatic. Oh wait, right now you would be considered a raving lunatic, but that's just in a temporary dieting sense of the word.
So if we were to examine all of the reasons for your weight gain, we'd see fluid pure and simple. I know you are diabetic and take certain medications, but for the life of me, I don't see how your doctors can't figure out this insane fluid collection. Sumpn' somewhere is seriously outta whack and nobody seems to be able to diagnose it properly. We'll all try to put our brains together and see if we can research your problem and then you let us know whether it's a possibility or not. And don't slap me if I come back and say that you may have fish DNA in your system somewhere...afterall, it WILL be internet research.
I'll get back to you with what I find out,
Mary
Oh.. it's probably all in my head.. yanno.... I probably am eating pizzas through the night and that's why I gain weight like I do....
All I know is that I'm PIGGING out as I type... YUM .. the first white bread I've had in well over a year! Makes a great sandwich.... oh... and I had a hot pocket... and 2 white castle burgers...
By tomorrow I should be up to 230... WHAT A WASTE OF A YEAR.....
NO more gym either... why cause myself so much f*cking pain just to GAIN weight... i'd rather go back to being over 300 lbs and lay on the couch waiting to drop the f*ck dead.
It's not like I'm bull****ting... I've been WORKING this thing! W O R K I N G it! I'm just meant to die of being super fat.... so.. why fight fate.
All I know is that I'm PIGGING out as I type... YUM .. the first white bread I've had in well over a year! Makes a great sandwich.... oh... and I had a hot pocket... and 2 white castle burgers...
By tomorrow I should be up to 230... WHAT A WASTE OF A YEAR.....
NO more gym either... why cause myself so much f*cking pain just to GAIN weight... i'd rather go back to being over 300 lbs and lay on the couch waiting to drop the f*ck dead.
It's not like I'm bull****ting... I've been WORKING this thing! W O R K I N G it! I'm just meant to die of being super fat.... so.. why fight fate.
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on 8/17/08 7:31 am
on 8/17/08 7:31 am
Lori:
I understand your frustration. Enjoy the carbs 'cuz if there's ANYONE who deserves to enjoy a carb, it's YOU.
Ok, now take that scale outside and pretend it's that dog who killed your cat and blow the thing to bits
...and then start over tomorrow, WITHOUT the scale and do the best you can and the weight will eventually come down.
BTW, have you had your thyroid checked? Oh, and I'm sure Mary will find sumpin' out on the 'net.
You're an inspiration to many on this board. I ain't never "met" anyone before you who worked out more than I did. You are my inspiration!!
I understand your frustration. Enjoy the carbs 'cuz if there's ANYONE who deserves to enjoy a carb, it's YOU.
Ok, now take that scale outside and pretend it's that dog who killed your cat and blow the thing to bits
...and then start over tomorrow, WITHOUT the scale and do the best you can and the weight will eventually come down.BTW, have you had your thyroid checked? Oh, and I'm sure Mary will find sumpin' out on the 'net.
You're an inspiration to many on this board. I ain't never "met" anyone before you who worked out more than I did. You are my inspiration!!
Thanks Kim, but I cannot live without my scale.
I have to track the gains. When weight fluctuates up to 20 lbs in less than a week, it has to be watched and dealt with to prevent congestive heart failure. The scale is a tool for me..like a stethascope.... it's the only way I can tell what's what.
Inspiration.. what a joke. An inspiration is a person who DOES it even in the face of adversity.... not a person who can't do ****
Why fight fate????? Because the belief in fate goes against the grain of everything that you believe spiritually. God didn't put you on this Earth to believe your path is set...he put you on this Earth to build your faith and character so that through Him you are more than a conquerer. Now is the time to do the do of research, to find out what the problem is and deal with it. What is going on with you is not natural and you need to find out what that is. The same way I had to find out what was wrong with me when doctors didn't even have a name for what I had. You just have to put a name and diagnosis to this. And I pray for your sake that it's soon, cuz I've been where you are now, gaining for no good reason, and it's pure hell. But He's not going to let you stay there forever, so don't plan on it...I'm just sayin'.
Mary
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