What Have You Done Today to Make You Feel Proud?

mwy
on 7/21/08 10:26 am
Today was my sis's birthday and I made her a cherry chip cake with my specialty...buttercream icing with almond.  I'm proud cuz...I didn't eat any! I So Rock 

Mary 
Future Legend
on 7/21/08 10:47 am - SC
Let's see.. I managed to go from 204 to 219 in about a week and a half :(  THIS is FRUSTRATING!!!!!!  I get so close to Onederland that I can almost taste it.. then this.

Ok...  My daughter is sending me a logo... if I ever get it in my e-mail.

I went to the Chamber today.. checked out the competition (there is NONE in this area).
I reconnected with suppliers who are happy with the potential of doing business with me again.. that's cool.  I'm proud of the fact that I maintained such a good reputation with them.

I did an hour of hard ass cardio earlier today and worked back and bi's.  I went back to the gym around 6 and did another hard 30 minutes of cardio (doesn't seem to be helping).

I watched carefully what I ate.. again.. not helping.

I'm proud of the fact that I'm regaining some sense of self confidence which is making me want to get back to the business of making $, but I know I can't do a dayem thing unless I can get rid of this weight so I can buy clothes and look the part.... we all know how much window dressing means when it comes to sales.  :(

What's the next step.. starvation?  I might have even been happy at 200 lbs... but to go from 204 - 219?  OMG.. that hurts.  I can SEE the difference. 

I WAS working on business card designs... .but lost it. 

HOW DOES EVERYONE KEEP THEIR SENSE OF PRIDE IN THE THINGS THEY ACCOMPLISH WHEN OTHER THINGS GO DOWN THE TUBES???

mwy
on 7/21/08 11:10 am
Well now you see, that is exactly the reason I started this post.  Because it makes you think about the good things that you did during the day and that you accomplished something.  Sometimes we get so down on ourselves for being overweight that it's easy to let the negative take over.  But there is so much more to us than a number on a scale and we need to recognize our accomplishments.  Like you.  You work out like a Trojan, you diet like a fish, and yet you struggle with a number on a scale.  Just because you are having some sort of Twilight Zone thing going on with your fluid retention, that doesn't mean you aren't rocking everything else.  So be proud of what you are doing and keep doing it cuz one day, your water weight will drop and you'll be skinny as a rail underneath all of that fluid!

And girl, don't tell me that you don't know how to dress professionally at your current weight cuz I wouldn't buy it if you did. Wakka Wakka 

Mary
Future Legend
on 7/21/08 11:22 am - SC
Mary.. it's not "knowing how to dress".. it's how horrible I LOOK!

I've owned my own business before and it's HARD to sell when ya don't look good..  idiotic as it may sound.. it's the God's honest truth! 

Yanno..I've come a long way, and I don't look any better.

Yesterday I did myself up.. hair.. make up.. everything.. and I made the mistake of asking my x husband "do you think I'm pretty".. he said "pretty.. well..... I wouldn't say pretty but look at the area we live in.. you fit in"... HOW F*CKING nice to hear... that I do NOT have the window dressing and never will.   I should have known better than to ask such a vain question......   I just wanted to hear just ONE TIME that I look better than I did before... or that at least I look ok for my age.. SOMETHING......  instead he related me to women he finds unattractive. 

Yea... I know how to dress... but I know I look bad.  I don't know where to get up the guts to get out there and knock on doors again.

So yea.. I'm proud of the fact that I work like a dog toward this goal of losing weight and now getting the feeling that I want to get back into business... but feel like CRAP about how I look.

Did I ever mention that the only mirror I have in this house is the bathroom vanity mirror?
How can I get pumped about getting back out into the world when I know the world sees me as a third class citizen because of the way I look.  It's not like I can afford to hire attractive people to sell this time around.. it'll be all me.

Sorry .. I'm a downer .... reality bites.
Neecee O.
on 7/21/08 11:59 am, edited 7/21/08 11:59 am - CA
Jon needs a swift KICK. I would wager that he wants to keep you down and out and around him (he likes this attention thing), so girl, do NOT put a lot of faith in his opinion!

As for the family who bashed on you recently, same thing. It could be - just entertain me here for a moment - that you surround yourself, unconsciously, perhaps, with the types of people who mirror what you feel deep down.

You are pretty! Thick gorgeous hair, lovely face, personality plus! Clothes hide a multitude of body flaws...find a few good pieces and stick to those. Your smiling face and followup will set ships to sail!

Sales is about establishing a one on one relationship - THAT you possess. Hey, chances are you will sell to women, not men. The office staff, the wives, those folks are who you will be dealing with.

You are a people person, and in this day and age of sitting behind computers and ordering things, a friendly person eager to please is what you are.

Mary is double dog dead right - you do LOTS of things right.  your body is a 1%-er.  It reacts in a weird way with this fludi thing. Stop hating your body.  It is doing the best it can!
Future Legend
on 7/22/08 2:12 am - SC
As for the family who bashed on you recently, same thing. It could be - just entertain me here for a moment - that you surround yourself, unconsciously, perhaps, with the types of people who mirror what you feel deep down.


Yanno.. somewhere in there.. you're probably right.. unfortunately, ya can't pick your family. 

I appreciate all the "you're lovely" comments.......  but since this is a place I can be real and honest I have to honestly say that I'm a realist...   I know what I see when I look in a mirror and I know I'm not an attractive woman -    it just would have been generous of Jon to lie just once considering all the things I do for him................. just out of appreciation for the cooking and cleaning and laundry and moral support and 17 years of no sex.  LOL  That's gotta be worth SOMETHING!

Today I'm proud of myself for getting to the gym at 8:00am sharp and doing a hard hour of cardio and then another hard hour of supersets with Andrew.............   Wish I had it in me to go shopping - but it's no fun to do EVERYTHING alone.. yanno?  Maybe I'll go back to the gym tonight like I did last night.

Jon's away for the week....   so I don't have to cook - maybe I can force some of this lard off of me.  I just SO wanted to be under 200 lbs for my next doctor's appointment and that's August 4th...  no way I'm gonna even get close with this sudden gain.

(deactivated member)
on 7/21/08 12:04 pm

I know you know this but I thought I'd remind you 'cuz lord knows I have to remind myself all the time.....

How you look is totally dependent on how you feel about yourself.  After losing 120 pounds and going through several rounds of plastic surgery, intellectually I know I look better but there are days when I feel like I look like crap and the response I get from others reflects that.  On those days when I feel like I look good, the positive response I get from others is palpable.

So.....feel good about yourself and you'll look good and others will respond to that positive self-image.

mwy
on 7/21/08 12:25 pm
Now Lori, don't you make me have to come over there and smack ya!  I looked on your profile and you have got it goin' on girl, and you've lost weight since then!

Start your 'business look' with a very sophisticated new hairdo.  New do's do wonders for our morale and spirit.  Go to a make-up desk at a department store, act like you have all the money in the world, and have them give you the latest in make-up, just for you, and then go to Wally World and duplicate the look.  Go somewhere like Nordstrom's for a bra fitting and get a bra that makes the girls look high and proud and youthful.  Your back will thank you, too. 

You are apple shaped like I used to be.  You're in luck because tunics and empire styles are in.  And you could totally rock a suit.  But like Neecee and Kim said...IT'S ALL ATTITUDE BABY!!!  You know that, you just haven't worked it for a while.  It's like riding a bike, you'll be running with the best of them before you know it.  You go out acting all professional and you'll have that business with no name in swing in no time at all!

 Big HugMary 
Neecee O.
on 7/21/08 12:45 pm - CA
i love this thread that mary started.  We all tend to focus on the crappy things we do.

I screw up almost every single day at something...I quit talking about it alla time. It is so frustrating to do so much right for not much in the way of payoff.

It makes me think of my mom saying well life is not fair...it isn't, and so much of what we "should" do just does not give back.  I think I have successfully let that go and still do most little things even when my spirit asks why.
Neecee O.
on 7/21/08 11:51 am - CA
holy crap, Mary! You are a Brick House! mmmmmm buttercream.....

Me? I donated blood.

And did my one hour wog b-fore work!
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