Can't believe it!!!!
Alright..first of all as much as i'd like to get on a diet pill for some help.. I can't really find myself to try once gain. I know that I can do this on my own. Well its that TOM..i stepped on the scale this morning and i'm at 300!!! I want so badly to be under 300!!! Yesterday I weighed and I was sitting at 305 and i did weigh during the day.
So today..a bit aggravated with a couple of things..I thought..well I am just going to go and work out.i can do this..and i have to do this..grabbed my towel and water..and downstairs i went..i did the 40mins of turbo sculpt..the FIRST time i have made it through it. I have tried it twice before and couldnt make it all the way through it.. I DID TODAY!!! cramping and all!! And I wasn't finished working out..So i put in another 20 min. ab workout! I did fast forward it probably 5 mins or so. SO on top of the 40 i did another 15..what the hell got in to me? I have no idea but it felt freaking great..and even tho i am cramping I can already feel the soreness. I got to do this you guys..And i can do this on my own..I want to start back to work in August...unless i find another job before then..and i want people to see that I have lost weight. I want to feel better about myself..I hate it that I let my weight stop me from doing things..or i hate being the first one to make a fat comment about myself.. to just tear myself down i guess..or before someone else even thinks it..not that they do but i feel they do..Anyways just had to vent.I feel like i'm going 100mph right now and i'm sitting still..haha!! yeah..i'll hush now!
