Here we go...

Hello everyone. Hopefully I will be on more often. I am no longer going to Illinois. Last week I got fed up, checked outta my hotel called my boss and said I was coming home. I gave up my life, my friends, everything. That I can do everything from MIchigan and this was a waste of time. Basically I want to find a new job, so I am getting my resume together, because I am being like mentally abused in this and I don't wanna work there anymore. Ok besides the point. I haven't really lost anything in like a month or so. I dunno if its cuz I am actually content with my weight and the way I look. I know for a fact I havent been trying as hard. But I know I am only 13 days away from my vacation...and damnit hello....does everyone really think I am going somewhere alone all by myself!!!?  I mean I am but I know someone there. A boy, yea yea a boy. I have known him for 4 years. I am crazy about the damn kid. Eh....about 3 weeks ago I broke down and told him everything, he never know I was over weight....damn guy still likes me for me. AWW! Whatever anyways lol. I went bathing suit shopping today cuz i have a tubing trip next weekend. HOLY **** PEOPLE! I bought a size 16! WHAT! A size 16 bathing suit. Last year I bought a size 24!  I about cried when I put it on. I am determined in these next 13 days to wear a size 16 in jeans. Since I am so close to my vacation I know I can actually kick it into gear. I have been going to the gym alomst every night but nothing is happening because well I am eating junk lol. So I am just maintaining. Which is a hell of a lot better than gaining thats for sure. But....a 16 size pants I will be so confident in myself! I know I can do it...I can already sqeeze into some 16's with a beautiful muffin top of a stomach lmao. But yea...hopefully I can get on here more often, but right now I am off to the store to buy veggies. Veggie Veggie GALORE! STAY AWAY FROM FAST FOOD CHRISTA!!!!!!!!!!!! lol. Oh yea...and I actually jog now...not wog....but jog! I am so happy with myself I never thought I could get where I am...I amaze myself. And I thank all of you! EVERY single one of you have helped me in some way!!!

Christa,

  I think you are more worried about your weight then he probably is!! And at least he didn't care! Look at you..you are beautiful!! And your personality is great!! I hope that you are able to find another job..I think they have totally taken advantage of you..and glad you didn't gain.but you probably haven't lost either because you have been so stressed. Thats great on a size 16!! And i can't wait to be able to jog!!! That itself had to be a nice feeling!! I get out there and get to walking..and so bad I just want to be able to run..and cant!! Well i could..but things go to slaping together and all haha!!TMI i know! I hope that you have a great trip to Cali!! Again, take plenty of pictures!! Have a blast because you deserve it!!

:)  Christa.. you have been so bound and determined and I'm so proud of you!  It's been a long haul...  what's it been.. like a year?  You've gone through so many changes (especially the hair)  lol... and you're absolutely beautiful!

I'm kinda glad you decided to ditch Chicago.. I mean..it's exciting and wonderful and nice to have all of that responsibility but I was concerned with all of that traveling. 

Have a great time on vacation and ENJOY that size 16 suit!!!  :)

God bless!

Lori

Girl, you are hawt at any weight, right???? You look great, you really do. a size 16???? hey, that is pretty amazing. I about cried when I read that you are jogging...whoa. You are Back in Black, my sister!!!!

I personally think telling a new guy about weight issues is good - of course, after some time has passed. Real guys do not trip on that anyway as has been said.

I think you are conducting yourself all around like you are listening to your inner guide...wow, go and have a blast.  Inner Self is telling you NO fast food...now listen! in your case, that alone would make the difference going forward! 

Nice to see you. I looked real fast on myspace last night to catch up on you. I have not checked in there in so long! Get back here and tell us all about Cali!