Odd

When I am eating more healthy and exercising I feel so much better.  I know I love the feeling of having control over food.  Overall I am just more happy and find it odd why I stray off that path. I like having food in a way when I feel stressed, but it also makes me feel more down and aggravated too. I do stay on track more than before I came on this board, which is good, but still have my fair share of troubles.  I know I push myself more than I used to get back on that scale and make myself face any damage I've done.  It does seem to open my eyes somewhat.  I just don't like to be off track for as long as I used too.  Before I would gain all my weight back and more.  I tend to catch it quicker now.  I know I don't want to gain back what I lost.  Took me way to long to lose it for that.  I don't want to be that person anymore.   I just wish I could get that gung ho determination back.  I know it's a mindset thing, sometimes it's just being able to get that freakin' mindset!  My husband is supposed to be getting his second interview for a job we're really wanting and if we get it, maybe it will be the stress reliever I need to kick some butt for a while. Brenda

 

"I just wish I could get that gung ho determination back" Motivation is perrenial as grass...it never completely dies!  You hold it deep inside.  Exercise right now can be a saving grace - can keep you close to God as you walk alone outside all the greenery and beautiful clouds. Even rain.  To this day, i love walking in the rain. The point is to take your mind off your troubles and just be. Eating takes all of us a lot longer - as we say, exercise is only a small part of the equation. Hard to get the eating patterns together. Especially with a spouse, one who is down and out right now on top of it.  All I can say is focus on what you do right - I bet it's a lot. I learned to not be so hard on myself a long time ago. Love yourself, be gentle, take more time to be alone when you can.