Crappy week around here :(

Well, life  has been rough here the last week- I'm holding my own but the Memorial day challenge for me is a nothin doin thing... I'm dropping out. I'm discouraged with me- every single time I  think I'm going to DO IT... something comes up and I get stressed or whatever- and I don't follow through.   I have to stop LETTING myself fall apart :( Our friends lost their 16 y/o son last Sunday evening. It was jut awful. He was hunting grouse with a friend and slipped on some ice. They don;t know how, but as he slipped- the gun fired and he was killed. It hit him in the head. Oh G*d..... it is just so horrible :(   One minute  Stacey woke to have two teenage children wish her a Happy Mothers Day... the next- one of her children was gone- forever :(  It's just horrible :(`  In a town the size of ours- it has devastated the entire community :(  The funeral has not been announced yet but tentatively it is set for Monday. I will be taking that afternoon off. On a good note- my car got in yesterday- I LOVE the thing! I SOOO LOVE that car!!!  It is just perfect and I am SO PLEASED with it.  I picked it up at 6:00 a.m. and only got to drive it 3 miles before work- then I had to wait till after 6 p.m. So cruised for 2 hours then :)  I'm anxious for the weekend so I can really GO!  AND... tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!!  Not only is it Friday, but I was scheduled to have 8 kiddo's and... THREE are not coming :)  One will be picked up at noon! And the other two at 4... the last 2 are my own dd and dgd so they can hang with me :)    Tomorrow starts the day of our towns 4 day festival so I can at least get out EARLY! I'm not feeling really healthy today- I woke at 1:00 a.m. feeling "pukie" and had a migraine. I took some OTC migraine meds and  it helped it go away but around  noon I began to notice really BAD heart palpitations- and they have continued throughout the day. It's SCARY!  I'm thinking it may have been the caffeine  in the meds?  You'd think that would be out of my system by now tho? So, Friday is really looking better and better as it grows nearer! My plan for this coming week.... I'm planning to take some time this coming weekend to read my OH journal to recap all the excitement and STRENGTH I felt before. I want to get a taste of that again! I want to FEEL that and gain it BACK again. So THAT is my plan:) Take care all- I hope to be here after Monday and feeling that momentum just pumping through me again!!!!

Yikes...I know when my friends lost their 23 year old son, it was weeks before any of us were naything like normal again. Not sure they are 8 years later....it is a long road. There is something even more horrible about losing a child at teen years or young adulthood - ya just got them there, against all odds of the world and dangers... Take care of you and your friend right now, just go into cruise mode. I also will not make my Memorial Day challenge. That's life in the Big City, I will keep on trucking.  I am extremelt grateful to have kept off my weight. been a while since I treaded water this long. I pray and act on the fact that I am done yo-yoing. I will win out on this! Glad you popped in!

Hey there mama, (((((HUGS))))) That's just awful.  Just a fluke of a thing, and he's gone.  That has got to be one of the hardest things.  I can' t even imagine.  Sounds like you might have a rocky road ahead of you if you are friends with her.  Hang in there! There is no way I'm making my Memorial challenge either, I'm not even close.  But you know what, it's alright.  I know I'm still chugging at it and losing slowly, and learning in the meantime!  I was thinking the other day, if I didn't start this journey once again where would I be?  What weight would I be at now?  I'm 15 pounds lighter than November, if I didn't even do this, I'm positive I would have gained at least ten to fifteen pounds already.  So see, I've lost 25 pounds! hahahaha Just hang in there, take it day by day, minute by minute if you have too.  If it's a bad day, maybe jus****ch your portions and drink your water if anything.  You'll find "it" again, I know you will.  Plus keep reminding yourself why you started this journey! Holly