Update

My leg is still bothering me so I'm not at the computer much.  I did find out one thing, I need to change doctors!  Remember my ultrasound that supposedly came back normal?  Well that is what the doctors office told me anyway.  Then all the sudden I get a call from the hospital where I got the ultra sound at and he said it was mild venous reflux, but I do not need surgery.  So I called back up my doctor and asked them why did they say it's normal when the hospital said it's mild.  I was so pissed.  The medical assistant checked her chart and said yes, it is mild.  That's it, nothing else said, no need to come in, NOTHING.  I was too mad to talk so I hung up.  Then a few days later I called back and asked them to ask a doctor if I should see a specialist and if this could be the cause of my leg pain.  I mean this is the whole reason why we are doing this, because I'm in pain!   They left me a message to tell me that the doctor said "it could be the cause of your leg pain, and if you really want to see a specialist you can".   I'm like HELLO!!  What kind of doctors office does it this way?  And all through the medical assistant also.  So I've been in tears because my leg hurts and still not quite sure if the pains coming from this or if it's coming from some female problems I have.  What does it take to get a doctor to help you?? UGHH!  So I called them up and told them I wanted to see a specialist, I have GOT to get rid of this pain.  I'm so stressed out because of finances, not being able to work, and the pain alone is probably making my blood pressure rise.  I'm just so upset.  I HATE changing doctors.  I really liked this doctors office, but wow...I hate how they operate their business!  It's just like it took them a year to give me the right asthma tests.  AFTER a year of keeping me on lots of meds!  Little did i know I only needed my inhaler.  Anyway, lol I"m getting mad again just thinking of how much they have pissed me off.  I'm still waiting for them to call me back with my referal so I can see a specialist.  Oh yea, check this out....They even asked me what kind of specialist I want to go to!!  I was so stunned I couldn't even talk. So with that said, knowing that my veins are clogged a bit has sort of freaked me out.  Actually it has freaked me out a lot.lol  I splurged a little bit right after ward being in a self pity party.  But now all I can think about is that I don't want my arteries to clog anymore and how to prevent it.  LOL, the past week I have become obsessed with fats and cholestrol.  I'm looking at EVERYTHING to see what kinds of fats are in it.  I've also am getting tougher, or maybe wiser ?!?! at not letting my family get me down about how I want to eat.  This has been going on for quite some time.  I need to let it go that food does not or should not revolve around love.  I've been feeling like I'm letting down my family for not feeding them what they want.  I've been feeling guilty for not being my husbands partner in crime because that is all we do together out of the house!  I'm tired of feeling like I have to feed my teenagers what they want in order for them to stay at home, aka "love me".  I'm just tired of it all, tired of living for five other people in the house.  NONE of them eat like I REALLY want too, except for my youngest, whom loves to eat healthy foods. So I've taken it  upon myself on Mothers Day of all days to let everyone know how I feel.  And to let everyone know I'm going to eat how I want to eat and they can all kiss my butt if they don't like it.  I'll still make my husbands meat, and maybe I'll join him on occasion, but it's not what I want.  It's never been what I want.  I'm a naturalist at heart, always have been, always wanted to be, but I couldn't because it was not taught in my house growing up, and it was not what my family wants.  All I want to do now is eat organic, raw and or plant based, and whole foods.  I'm REALLY considering becoming a vegetarian, even though my husband is flat out against it.  That's pretty much been my diet lately except I still need to do research on how to make good kind of dressings.  I like that creamy taste, which I'm having a hard time figuring out how to make a dressing like that without a bunch of fat in it.  So that's it!  I'm not going on any kind of "plan" for right now.  Who knows, if I eat how I REALLY wanted to eat all along, I might just not need a plan!  I'm just going to eat how I truly want to eat, which I consider pretty healthy.  Some of it might gross out my family, but I'm hoping they will get use to it as they see it more around the house.  I'm actually really excited about this.

Holly....get an appt. with a vascular surgeon.  Lots of different procedures that can be done, depending on the severity and location.  Frustrating as hell dealing with the medical profession, isn't it?  Hope you get a doctor who will discuss with you. You go girl....telling your family how it is with food!  They're all old enough to cooperate and if they don't like what you're cooking, they're old enough to learn how to do it themselves (including your husband).  Sounds like a healthy way of eating and everyone can benefit from that!

I just got an appointment with a vascular surgeon just a few minutes ago.   :)  It' snot until July 3rd though!  That's gonna hurt, but they said they would let me know if anyone cancels.

Good job!  Maybe you will get worked in.  Yeah, tell your family where to go. Teens are trying to establish independance, don't take it personally. They would not stay home no matter if you did make pizza every night.

Glad to hear you have a appointment with a new doctor.  If you do not find out any answer soon about what is causing this pain, please ask one of your doctors to refer to you a pain management specialist. You should not have to be in this pain. Just because you don't know what is causing it doesn't mean you have to be in pain.