I've Changed My Mind (glitch in post)
I'm not sure what's going on with the threads and posting. I posted my topic and could not properly edit it when it didn't show, now I see a "leaann" saying "bwahahahahaha?"
Anyway, here's what I was trying to say:
I've Changed My Mind
It's taken me a long time to wrap my head around it. The lbs don't matter! You heard me right, and it's not blasphemy, I tell you. Oh, I know, many of us come here wanting to lose the lbs. And that's where my journey started. But through all of my frustrations, my ups and downs, I now realize my goal was wrong. Wrong, wrong, wrong. I needed to lose the fat, not so much the lbs. Oh, you know what I mean. Sure, I have and had a lot of weight to lose. But as I've discovered my body in training I've discovered my muscle weight and that has changed my perception of what the scale says and what my goal will be. I originally thought I had 150lbs to lose at least, and now I see that a healthy goal weight will actually be 220lbs and ultimate fitness around 175-180, all because of glorious muscle. But it's taken me a long time to understand this. Even this last few weeks when I was very frustated with the scale, today I celebrate my whoosh overnight and accomplishment of 50lbs today. I realize now, I was looking at the wrong thing, consumed by the numbers in the wrong way. I wasn't focusing enough on my progress and that I was building muscle. Progress--many of the weights I lifted doubled. I'm doing advanced routines. Things are moving fast. I had been taught for 38 years that it was the lbs and it never was. Never should have been. So, I've changed my mind, or am trying to. For the next goal, which may or may not look like 50lbs by this time next year, I'm going to just try to retrain my brain to focus on progress in terms of:
It's taken me a long time to wrap my head around it. The lbs don't matter! You heard me right, and it's not blasphemy, I tell you. Oh, I know, many of us come here wanting to lose the lbs. And that's where my journey started. But through all of my frustrations, my ups and downs, I now realize my goal was wrong. Wrong, wrong, wrong. I needed to lose the fat, not so much the lbs. Oh, you know what I mean. Sure, I have and had a lot of weight to lose. But as I've discovered my body in training I've discovered my muscle weight and that has changed my perception of what the scale says and what my goal will be. I originally thought I had 150lbs to lose at least, and now I see that a healthy goal weight will actually be 220lbs and ultimate fitness around 175-180, all because of glorious muscle. But it's taken me a long time to understand this. Even this last few weeks when I was very frustated with the scale, today I celebrate my whoosh overnight and accomplishment of 50lbs today. I realize now, I was looking at the wrong thing, consumed by the numbers in the wrong way. I wasn't focusing enough on my progress and that I was building muscle. Progress--many of the weights I lifted doubled. I'm doing advanced routines. Things are moving fast. I had been taught for 38 years that it was the lbs and it never was. Never should have been. So, I've changed my mind, or am trying to. For the next goal, which may or may not look like 50lbs by this time next year, I'm going to just try to retrain my brain to focus on progress in terms of:
- strength
- flexibility
- cardio ability
- endurance
- function
- body composition
I hear you loud and clear here, jerz. I am 64 inches tall and weigh ~185 - waaay too heavy by all charts. Most say i "should" be more like 130-150#. Another 35-50#?
It makes me wonder for the millionth time about bmi charts and weight charts....at one time i understood that life insurance companies were the first to bust out that theory of "healthy weights". if that is the case, no WONDER these target numbers are the impossible dream for a large population. The evil charts have morphed into small, medium and large frame bodies, at least cutting folks a break.
Regardless...
Truthfully I do not want to do what that would take to get there and stay there.
For me, my body, given the time I have to work out, if I can get to 170ish, and maintain, I would be in Heaven.
I have come to believe a number of us are on our own curve if you will.
I am so glad I decided to track inches last month as my weight was not cooperating. That gives me hope.
Re: inches, yeah, I recalculated them last night and the six weeks I've been solo with Karissa it was 1lb for 1inch, for a total of 12 inches. But the weight fluctuates a bit of course. And when I got into a size 16 dress? I can totally see how I could be a size 4 and be 175lbs or so when I get there. Karissa keeps gently pointing out my muscle level--like my legs. Astonishes her. Okay, cool. But it's just what I am.
Hi Jerz,,,Yep, I understand girl When I see people on a board, they've had a type of WLS, and hit a "stall"...Many times the "stall" i**** once they begin a fitness program. I just wanna YELL...Muscle weighs more than FAT! Pay attension to how your clothes are fitting, measure for inches lost....CAUSE...Muscle weighs more than FAT...lol
You are doing great girl. Ya, those charts are nutso