Update..

Alrighty...  I'm still in NJ (of course).. lol and I'm getting very comfortable with being back home again.  I take my sister to radiation every day, and beginning Wednesday she has her last shot of radiation with her first dose of chemo. She's eating well, taking her meds on time (cause I chase her down and threaten to withhold cheesecake).  She's now up 20 lbs which brings her to 120.... and fiesty.. ready to start this chemo. CAREFUL EVERYONE.. she's kickin' butt and takin' names!   She now knows for sure that it's cancer.  The doctor mentioned it like 3 times at the appointment.. and he did tell her it was coming from her lung but he danced around the prognosis and was very vague.  He filled us in after he brought her to another room for blood tests.  We're being questioned daily by her.. and doing the best we can with the answers. I guess the hardest thing is not knowing what to expect.  Will she start falling down?  Will she not be able to think?  Will she lose the use of her left side again?  How long before these things happen...  what should we look for?  There are no answers and I can't find any information, so we're taking this day by day, hour by hour and even minute by minute if we have to. We're planning a memorial day bash in her backyard.  We'll all be there acting stupid and making her laugh her butt off..  We were all thinking of shaving our heads, but she got wind of it and freaked out.............. so we all may start going with the scarf and hat thing. Ok.. she's heading out to the porch again... I gotta go lasso her and get her back in.. lol Be Well everyone... God bless you all! Lori

Lori, I am s glad to hear your spirits are still high in the midst of all the strife. God be with you all and my prayers are always with you. Beth

Lori....thanks for the update.  What a wonderful attitude you all have.  Makes it all sound like one big party and I know it really isn't. You all are certainly making lemonade out of lemons and making the most of your time together.  Joyce is truly blessed to have such wonderful sisters. You are truly amazing me with your strength and resolve.  May God continue to bless you with both.  Wishing you a happy Mother's Day and continued blessings!!

Sherrie.....  even with all of the daily bad stuff... it HAS been one big party.  For the most part, the 5 of us are together quite often and this is making her sooooooooo happy to have her sisters again. She's being well cared for.... that's what counts.  The questions are hard though..  She looks straight in my face and asks "am I going to die".  "Joyce.. we're all going to die and only God knows when, so lets just follow the treatment plan and get this do done".  What else can I say?.

Nothing else you CAN say!  Only God knows whether she will go before any of us.  In the meantime, everyday can be another laugh and another memory. Keep "doin the do"!  Our prayers are with you all.

It must be hard...all I can say is that just revel in THIS MOMENT - try hard to not predict or fear the future for her. You will deal with it.  What an awesome sister you are. These kinds of times always make me think of the statement that we are all actually gods having a human experience.  What I think that means:  All the crap that you may have had between you as families will have, is off in the distance as you are now just together and surviving and working it all out in total love.  Lori, your story just makes my heart swell.

Lori Your sister is so blessed to have you and I know you are blessed to have her! Thanks for sending out that update. It's good to know how things are going on your end. Take care of yourself this week!

Glad to hear every thing is going as good as to be expected.  Sounds like you and your sisters are making her last moments unfortgettable.   Enjoy and love each other!  I'll be praying chemo goes smoothly for her. Holly

Thank you all for your prayers and patience while I ramble on endlessly. We're just gonna keep doing the do. My sister says she's an addict.... her drug of choice "RADIATION"..  Great.. now I'm gonna HAVE to write a book about this.  lol Be Blessed everyone! Lori