OT: Just felt like blabbering

I spent the last week and half in physical therapy for them to finally realize laying me flat on my back exacerbates the problem to the point I can barely move. I totally believe I have sciatica and in the worst way. Pain in my back and hips when I walk too long, lay flat on my back or sit in a hard chair too long. I would do damn near anything to make it go away and not have to worry about it BUT truth is: as long as I watch what I do and don't push certain actions, I am fine 90% of the time. Catch is though my doc says no exercise programs until at least one month of PT and evaluation so I have to do it in order to advanced further in my exercise program. Sucks but I can totally see where it is helping and will continue to help in the long run. The last two days have been hell with having what I supposed has been the flu. Thank God that is over with. I feel soooo good today. I think I will take the girls for a walk with me later this evening as long as the rain stays away long enough. Rain. Well, today I was in PT and what some are saying was a small tornado rolled through the middle of town. They say the warning sirens were going off yet the hospital never notified the department I was in and I was standing not more than 3 feet from a window with at least 5 other people in the same room. WTH?! Well, anyway, I truly don't believe it was a tornado. I believe it was actually straight lying winds with only maybe 25-40 houses and/or businesses being affected. My husband slept through it and we are only about two blocks from where the edge of it was. There are no houses blown down or majorly damaged. There is tree and roof damaged and garbage strewn about but no major damages and/ or injuries were reported. All is well. Finally, my oldest baby isn't a baby any more. Tomorrow night is her Senior Prom. I will post pics if ya want them. I am so excited for her. I hope it is just the one of the best nights of all her school years. And last but not least, she graduates on the 23rd and starts college this summer. All this make most parents feel old but not me. It makes me mourn for the loss of her childhood. I miss my baby and my little girl. I miss holding her in my arms and soothing her when she was sick, tired, upset or just needing to cuddle. She'll always be my little girl. I miss her so much and she's not even left yet.  I guess today was just a day of thoughts and no one to talk to so you all got blessed with this long a** post of mine. Thanks for listening to me ramble. If you made it this far, you're the best! lol  Have a great day all and happy losing!! Beth

I hear ya.  At my sons graduation last year I had tears flowing constantly the last few months of school.  During the ceremony I had to wear my ipod during the whole thing so I wouldn't bawl.  I'm extremely tender hearted.  I had to literally concentrate on something else or I would end up making a fool out of myself.  I think they will always be our babies.  In fact today I saw the first "bug" and he's allergic to bees.  I'm already thinking I better call in to the doctors and make sure he has a epipen prescription.  Even though he's big enough to do it himself, it makes me feel better knowing it's done and he's safe! Hang in there!

Hi Beth, I agree: Sciatica SUCKS.  I have been battling that lately myself.  The pain can be so sharp at times that I feel like I could faint. I think lying on my back makes it worse too- but I HAD to lie on my back! AHHHH I have also been sick with a raging cold... I have used heaps of tissues and have a constant sore throat- luckily the coughing hasn't started yet... I am not looking forward to coughing with my bodylift wounds and muscle repairs.

My oldest two are 16 and 15... and my baby girl was 10 last November.  I cried when she turned 10.  I thought "that little child time of my life is over"- does that make sense?  I still give all my kids big cuddles, but it isn't the same as a tiny one is it?  I can't even bare to think of any of them leaving.  When they're young and you're in the thick of 'family life' it's hard to realise that it's a daily count down to that life ending.  Having children really is a precious gift.  They do grow, but in the end they still are our kids- even if our roles change. 

I would LOVE to see a prom photo.  LOVE IT!!!!

Em

 

 

yes, it is hard to let the chicks leave the nest...never dreamed it would be that hard, huh???? I am so grateful for the love my kids have shared with me, in the words of the Conehead Movie Mom: "we have a strong connection with our Parental Units that can never be broken"  But, such is the cycle of life...it is the beginning of the time for YOU to find YOU, rediscovering DH, contributing to society in a multitude of other ways....I know you still have little ones at home too, so as you already know, the time with them will be sooo special and you will treasure every minute.  As for reduced exercise, remember that even coming from ME the exercise NUT:  exercise is only about 10-20% of the weight loss equation. It really is. Your food plan is the heavy hitter, so do NOT let your mind go the dark side here.  Beht, I have learned that equation the hard way. I have literally about killed myself with exercise - and will STILL gain. Not many people could keep up with me now - and I have slowed waaaaay back from about ten years ago. My weight loss is better now with sustained, regular exercise. Please just follow doc's orders and keep on with your sacred time for daily movement, forget about becoming a ballbuster for now. The day will come for intensity...truth is, after you have dropped more weight. Your body works hard just being overweight!  Blessings to you! You are doing awesome.

Thank you ladies. I appreciate all the kinds words. I love how we all connect here.  The exercise will happen as it is meant to happen just like the weight loss so no worries. It does feel good that I even think about increasing it tho. Before, I would have fought against it.  I love that my babies are growing up. They are such good girls and make some amazingly awesome decisions. I mean sometimes the things they say and do leave me with my jaw dropped. I know they will do just fine and that I have done my job well. I'll just have to wait for them to have me some grandbabies if I wanna cuddle a little one again. No Hurries, Tho! LMAO