lifes just sucking!!

Thought I would get on the computer real fast.  My leg has been hurting bad so I can't sit.  Last night went to a place to get my leg checked out.  My calf is blue and purple.  It's a big ball of a bruise for no apparent reason.  It's where my leg hurts all the time, I'm sure you remember me *****ing about my leg. :)  Today was sent to the hospital getting tests and make sure I don't have a blood clot.  They think it's my veins afterall!  I have a feeling I'll be having surgery on it within the next week or two.  I'll find out Tuesday or Wednesday.  Sort of scary being so over weight.  Then with the funeral on Monday, sort of sucks. So my diet has been down hill to say the least.  Been on the go nonstop until last night.  Now all I can do is lay down because my leg hurts so bad.  I just keep looking it at a good sign.  Maybe soon my leg will finally be better and I can get a job without having to worry about sitting down!  I just pray they get to the bottom of this.  My leg is really in bad shape.  lol It looks like my whole upper part of my calf wa**** with a base ball bat or something. We had an auptopsy on my brother in law today.  Thank God he didn't suffer.  Won't get into details, my legs acting up so i gotta get off this thing.  just bawled knowing he didn't suffer!  Thank you Lord!! Em-Glad your surgery went well.  I'll write you later on.  Was glad to see you are feeling better!

Your leg sounds very bad HollyRachel. I hope they can get you in for it to be fixed quickly and safely.

Sounds like you family are facing a rough time too with the death of your brother-in -law.

I feel really bad, as I haven't read backwards from when I got home yet- so only just went and read about what happened.  Your sister must be beside herself.  I will pray that she can find moments of calm whilst facing this.

Sending you lots of super big hugs...

            

Let us know how your leg goes and how your family are. 

Em

 

Geesh, Holly....this is a lot to sift thru for all of you.  i can only imagine how you might feel right now, i know i would be like "laying here being in pain is NOT what I want to do - my sis needs me, etc." However, life has a way of taking what it wants from us and all we can do is ride.  All of this will pass, maybe try journaling and if the kids have i-pods, load up some songs that remind you of BIL and just cry your heart out.  there will be plenty of time and opportunity for you to shine later for your sister...after the funeral is when things tend to go downhill...she will need you lots in the times to come. Order the kids around  - they are old enough to rise up right here - and just hang in there.  We're pulling for you.

Gosh Holly... you are soo having to hold up a LOT right now. Not good. I am so sorry.   At least they hopefully have figured out what the deal is with your leg... I will keep you in my prayers that everything works out well there and you will soon be on the mend. How old are your sisters children Holly? My heart just goes out to them all. Hang in there my friend. It is a TOUGH time right now. Just hold yourself up and try to stay healthy- think of the WL after things settle down. (((((hugs)))))

Hi Holly

I feel sorry for you to go through all this... Wish you a lot of strength

try to take good care of yourself in such hard times, although we all know that THESE are the times we fall off the wagon. Try to make it right day by day

Sorry to hear about everything.  You take care and let us know what the doc says. Brenda