My weight loss adventure yesterday

Well...I broke yesterday.  I planned a cheat meal and yesterday was it.  It was the oddest thing because first my mom gave me some sf chocolates and I ate a few pieces of them.  After that I felt sicker than a dog.  I kept feeling sick, but I just kept going with it and went out to dinner for pizza.  By the time I got home I was so sick, and I had to rush into the bathroom.

Needless to say I was up all night long in the bathroom, and a 101 temp.  Today I feel icky, and can tell it wasn't the food (I thought it was at first) and I must have a touch of the stomach flu.

What was strange was the timing.  While I ate my pizza I started feeling down.  My husband kept telling me to cheer up, that I'm splurging so I should enjoy it.  Well, in all honesty I wasn't enjoying it at all. I kept thinking in my head that this is making me gain a pound or two and I honestly wasn't enjoying it like I thought I would.   In fact I kept feeling like I was forcing myself to eat another piece of pizza just for the fact that this was a planned splurge.  Isn't that pathetic?

Pathetic or not it really made me think of how food has a hold of me.  Of course this is a no shocker, but at the same time it was nice to know that I feel better eating just the healthier foods.  Not sure if it was the stomach bug that made me feel like this or not, but all I know is that it worked.lol  

I think I'm going to live by Em's advice and remember one thing she told me, that the second bite will taste the same as the first.  I can't remember how she phrased it, so Em if you read this..can you tell me how you put it?  You said it so well. :)  I think from now on when I crave something badly, if anything touches the lips, I'm going to try for a bite.  Because to me it just isn't worth it! 

So Thursday is my weigh in.  Hopefully I will still lose, if not it is a good lesson learned so all is good.  

It's almost like you were getting punished for trying to cheat.   Hope you feel better and you still get somd kind of scale victory. Brenda

Hey, Holly, you planned it and you did it (too bad you didn't enjoy it) and now it's back to basics.  If you learned something by it, so much the better.  Hope you're feeling better soon, stomach bug or whatever it was. I haven't been craving anything, but I've had the urge to go off program....does that even make sense?  I watch my SO eat delicious whole grain bread everynight and his low fat ice cream and I can honestly say it doesn't bother me and I don't feel the overwhelming craving for something sweet.  Yet, I think it's the fact that I haven't had anything I shouldn't in 2.5 weeks now and that's probably some kind of record for me....LOL.  I think it's the urge to "sabotage" myself that I'm feeling.  Now I know that's sick, but I always do....especially it seems if I've found something that's working for me. I just came home from grocery shopping and had a pack of Jello Sugar Free pudding in my cart and walked all around the store with it talking to myself....Phase 2 says you can have this....Yes, but you agreed to only have one fruit/day this week as something extra, so you know you shouldn't....It might just set you off and then you're gonna want other things too.  I swear, I'm nuts.  Ended up putting it back before I checked out and grabbing the SF jello instead....treated myself to the LF Reddi Whip instead of the FF.....whoopee! I swear my mind is really churning over all of this...why do I always sabotage my efforts when I'm succeeding?  Interesting question...maybe deep down I don't feel I deserve to lose weight...self esteem issue maybe. Who knows?  Just gonna stick to it for today and not worry about tomorrow until it gets here.  Don't beat yourself up over it....I think the fact that you planned it and can just go on from there is great.  That's HEALTHY behavior!!

I hope that you are feeling better today!! Everyone has their cheat days..when i got in a routine of eating better and then I started eating like crap it made me sick to my stomach. I think our bodies get use to the better food and we feed it crap again and it doesn't like it..and not only that...it seems we keep our bodies on a roller coaster!!  anywho, i hope you are feeling better!!!