What did you eat today?

I know it's late but I waiting to see if Miss Janina showed up. B: 1 french toast stick with tbsp strawberry and juice, 1 hashround, 3pc bacon, 1 1/2c mixed melon L: nothing really, grazed all afternoon on 1oz beef jerky and 3/4oz almonds D: 1c chili w/ meat, beans and cheese S: 21 green grapes, 1oz cheddar, 1 orange 10 miles on the stationary bike

I was wondering about Janina myself... lol   I had so much food to brag about!  lol  I hit 220 on the scale yesterday afternnoon and really felt comfortable with pigging out...plus I didn't eat any "food" the day before... Instead it felt the better portion of my blood came out of a stoli's bottle.  I I started with a portion of eggs scrambled with no carb ground sausage in it.. topped with some shredded cheddar .5 ounce of cheddar a bowl of romaine w/ a tablespoon of blue cheese with 2 slices of turkey cut up in it. a sugar free jello w/no sugar whipped cream I made steaks and mixed some leftover veggies w/shrimp and scallops.  I had a nice spoonful of the fishy stuff and managed to eat about 1/2 the steak. ANOTHER sugar free jello w/no sugar whipped cream About 3 fingers stuck in the cream cheese 2 pieces of salami and about an ounce of cheddar We got kinda hungry later on so I made more eggs and had a portion of Jon's.

You ate, good!!!  You need to eat.  Thank you. You know, this whole weight loss thing is just too weird.  You'd think I have it figured out after all this time, but I guess I don't.  Well I do, but it still tends to throw me for a loop at times. In the past 3 weeks I have lost 12 pounds.  I had stepped on the scale to a nasty number and decided it wasn't going to be good.  So I FINALLY was able to get back on track after a lot of Monday morning failures, we all know about those.  I lost the 12 pounds in about 2 weeks and then I went to NYC for my 6th of 7 weeks of training.  I had already gotten the food under control so even though I was in NYC I decided that I was going to stick to my plan.  I ate breakfast and lunches that I had brought and stored in that ridiculous little refrigerator.  Dinners were basically on the fly but for the most part it wasn't anything eaten while sitting down for long periods of time at a restaurant except for when I met a dear friend from from the OH boards in NYC for some dinner.  Anyhow, I ate great, tracked every bit of my food, walked a thousand miles and went to the gym at the hotel every single morning.  So I get back home and I go to step on the scale, figuring heck something must have moved more.  Well, on the scale I get and it's UP 2 pounds.  I'm like, what the heck?????  I'm a little depressed but understanding of the daily fluctuations, so I don't panic....too much. LOL  I get on the next day, yeah I know, I know, stop the weighing!!!!  I'm back down 2 pounds.  Good, I'm good to go.  I go to the gym yesterday morning, do my 1 1/2 hours of working out including the cardio and weight class.  Good for me, I feel great.  I eat normally, track my food....all good.  Get on the scale this morning and it's up 4 pounds.  Arrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhh.  So okay, I know realistically I didn't eat enough to gain 4 pounds but dang, can the scale have SOME mercy on me?  So now I'm basically vowing not to get back on until next weekend.  I know that our bodies just cannot process the calorie intake and outtake that quickly.  It's just frustating when that number determines how we feel about ourselves for the whole day.  I had Chinese last night, it was basically steamed vegetables on the Mongolian grill with a little bit of teriyaki sauce.  I guess perhaps my body is healing my muscles with extra water retention.  Who the heck knows.   Just know that you aren't alone when dealing with those ridiculous number flucuations.  Just remember and keep constantly mindful that we ARE doing all the right things.  I think for me being in control is by far the best feeling ever.  When I am on my game I know that nothing can bring me down.  I know what it's like to be off my game and out of control and see that scale moving.  At least now I know that it's merely a matter of time before the weight comes off again.  I can only keep doing what I am doing, and that is all I can do. B:  3 "fried" eggs, 3 slices turkey bacon, 1 slice Rye Toast, 1 cup coffee w/ sugar free non dairy vanilla creamer L:  6 Ritz Social crackers w/ peanutbutter and sugar free jelly  -- I won't be repeating that "lunch" again.  It was like 400 calories and it was pretty empty calories. D:  Mongolian Grill - shrimp w/ broccoli, baby corn, water chestnuts, mushrooms, teriyaki sauce, 2 ounces poached salmon, green beans with garlic and onions Late night snack:  90 calorie yogurt, 1/2 c strawberries, 1/2 small banana, 1/4 cup granola

"I can only keep doing what I am doing, and that is all I can do." I know in my heart that I'm not doing all I can do... I can't speak to that statement just yet.   Most of my crazy fluctuations are centered around fluid.  I can go 15 lbs up in 2 days.. drop 10 in 1, then 5 up in another... I KNOW it's not fat, but I'm SCARED SH*TLESS of having a fat gain during that... or not working hard enough to take off fat.  I've been messing around between 220 and 235 for over a month now.  This morning I'm back on 222 from yesterday's 220.  Of course, I haven't taken the lasix and potassium yet.. so I could even hit 219.  THAT's the number I trust.. the one that comes after I dump the lousy excess fluid outta me. Yesterday I overate..  that much I do know... but I also know it wasn't OFF PLAN food.. it didn't interfere with my blood sugar (I checked.. I boasted a 95 late afternoon)  .. also, I missed the gym Friday night and yesterday.  Fugget yesterday....  I was trying to get over the poison I put in my liver.. I should have exercised to metabolize the crap outta me.. but I was way too funky. Yanno what.. for a woman who's been on the road.. you did fantastic.  It wasn't just being good with your food either...  it was working out EVERY SINGLE DAY..  that's discipline!  I want to work out EVERY SINGLE DAY, and I thought this was going to be the week....  I'll get 5 out of 7 this week (the gym opens at noon).  I don't think I could hang out in NYC without a canoli or a hot dog.... lol  NY and NJ are the worst places for me when it comes to food...  Barcelona's .. Vitamia's.. Angelo's.. and in NYC.. if I don't hit Ferrare's, I feel nekkid.  Oh yea... I'll walk from China town to get that canoli.. but I would definitely want the canoli with a side of capuccino.. and I'm grabbing a piece of torrone for later on the way out!  LOL  Oh yea.. best for me to stay out of the city right now!  (Gawd, I'm obsessed).  LOL

I did not do fantastic the first 2 weeks on the road. For some reason I thought I could eat what everyone else was eating.  I was in training with 29 other people and there was a lot of bonding and networking going on.  I am training to be a caseworker for CPS so that in itself is stressful and brings up a lot of personal biases, issues, etc.  But after gaining, yes gaining, about 10 pounds in two weeks because of the ridiculous way I thought I could eat, I had to stop what I was doing.  So I wasn't great at the beginning, not at all.  But I realized a 1000 calorie piece of cheesecake at The Cheesecake Factory wasn't worth my sanity. I did go to Chinatown and to Ferraras when I was down in NYC.  I ended up with one mini tartlet.  Hey it had fruit on it damnit!!! LOL  I'm sure it still had to have 100 calories in it but I accounted for it so I'm good to go.  I ended up with a piece of pizza down in Little Italy as well and I searched high and low for nutritional value and put it in as the highest calorie value that I could find.  So again, accounted for it.  Perhaps not the best choices but hey, whatcha gonna do?  I have one more week in NYC but the allure has worn off after the first week and I don't anticipate any eating issues next week. I know better than anyone the fear, absolute fear, that comes with gaining the weight back.  We all do I imagine.  Just take care of YOU, in the end that is what will give us peace.

"Hey it had fruit on it damnit!!!" Ok.. I got a kick out of this... LOL!!!!!    No no.. not for me.. it would be sacrilage to walk in that place without sitting upstairs with a cup of cappucino and a big, fat, evil canoli!   Maybe I'll even reach over and snag a bite of my daughter's rabe ricotta!  She's an evil little thing too.... and she's the one who stares at the torrone until I say "Ohhhhhhhhhhh ok.. get enough for me too".  LOL   We're both evil and weak when it comes to that place! There's this little Chinese diner on Pell street that I just adore...       Used to take my nieces and nephew there all the time when they were little.. ooh.. about 25 years ago.   If you want "safety".. there use to be this little place on Christopher.. "Whole Wheat and Wild Berries"...  it SUCKED!  Hey.. if i want seaweed, I'll just drown myself down the shore!  When I was like .. 16 or 17.. I used to go to the Village with friends and we'd feel like we were in a Billy Joel song.. LOL  many, many moons ago... during the Springsteen craze... but we just couldn't do the seaweed!  There are too many food memories up that way to frequent it often.  I definitely have to limit myself...  I'm better in the south because I don't do grits and biscuits and gravy and all that stuff.. LOL Yea.. so the beginning sucked....  it's over.. you're back on track.. and give yourself snaps for keeping up with the exercise.. THAT to me is admirable.. especially while you're stressing during training... I'd just get back to my hotel and pass out with a cheeseburger... You're my hero!

LOL....donna and LVS...ya know, if I cannot have good food once in a while, what is the point. I'll give it up on a more often than not basis, but forever is a big word. I, even while whining about my body - KNOW THIS:  I am simply not willing to do without much less than I do now to get much thinner.

I am.. LOL  I'm desperate.. tell me.. what can I give up.. AIR?  I'll give up air... Sex?  Wait.. I already gave that up........................

Glad to see you're back on track, even though it's a bumpy one!  LOL  This scale can do us in more than anything, I swear.  Doesn't seem to be any rhyme or reason to it.  I've been sticking to program all week and manage to go up a pound or two...just this morning back to what I was last Monday...we'll see if tomorrow gives me any kind of a loss at weigh in.  Frustrating, but at least I know I'm not doing anything wrong....exercise would help. Hope you see some big results soon too.

Hi Sherrie, I am a "stick at a weight for 3 weeks and then dump it" kind of girl.  I think we all have to realize that we aren't going to see that amazing weight loss week after week.  Our body has to adjust constantly to what we are doing to it, how we are treating it differently.  That is why we drop off of our programs after a few weeks of not seeing anything.  This is the kind of stuff that we have to realize takes a while.  Did you ever notice that when you gained that all of a sudden you'd wake up one morning and say OMG these pants don't fit anymore..  It's not like we put on 10 real pounds overnight, it's a definite process.  It's the same way as losing.  One day you put on a pair of pants that you say, wow, it's working. Exercise definitely helps.  But also be aware that with exercise sometimes it's more of an inches thing then it is a weight thing.  Exercising makes us hang onto weight but the inches slide off.  Make sure you measure before taking on any exercise program so it doesn't frustrate you when the scale goes nutsy on you.