~ grrrrrr...I have been stuffing my face & cannot get up! ~
I had my lap band (had to it was jeopardizing my health) out on Dec 7th...after 5 years...I lost & kept over 100 pounds off all that time....now I weighed myself & I have gained almost 15 pounds since Dec 7th!
I am not freaking...but I am not sure how to pull my boot straps up & do this on my own as I am unable to have another surgery...and frankly...I want to learn why I eat the way I do & once & for all be rid of this demon & learn how to treat myself with respect & love and eat healthy and make a lifestyle change.
I have lost over 900 pounds in my life....another diet makes me cringe...I am at a crossroads...clothes are tight.....wanting to do the right things...but keep going back to food to ...to...I don't know why I run to food!!!!!!!!!!!!
I needed to write this as I have no where to turn…I mean my friends don’t understand…..my bf…I am afraid I am disappointing him as much as I am myself....I know you all know the struggle...I don't know what I am looking for...maybe a butt kicking...or help in changing my thoughts towards my body & health...grrrr....I so seriously thought I could do this without that band....I can...just don't know which way to turn or how or what to eat and having a hard time finding the motivation to exercise.
I am confused….anyone have suggestions on where to start??
Thanks!