Control.

Thats how I feel with my life. In TOTAL control. For the very first time. It's insane to me. I'm happy. Totally happy. I don't over eat anymore what so ever. I don't even binge...I might eat a little more than normal on that one week before TOM but thats totally normal now...I dont run for fast food or anything like that I will just eat a little more of the good things. But I realized everything last night. Last night on my home from work I was like MAN I really want some kind of fast food. Just WANTED it BAD! I kept debating back and forth back and forth. I finally said gosh Christa can't you do anything more than a couple of days!!!! So I went home and made my dinner and was happy about it. I need to tape pictures of my goal everywhere to push me even harder. lol. But still I feel in control..food is not my life anymore I eat to live. Even tho I dont eat that much...eh.  2008 is going to be one of my best years. (So far 2003 was my favorite lol) But 2008 is gonna be filled with so many good things. Weight Loss, Chicago, Los Angeles, Money, School (being postponed until Fall now due to Chicago) I'm just excited over everything that I have accomplished so far.  I am determined to make my dreams come true...maybe not all of them but atleast some! So yea...I just wanted to post because I have so much happiness coming out of me it is insane and crazy! Oh I forgot about my little story thing from the gym. Usually all I see there are snobbing size 2 girls and guys with big muscles lol...never do I talk to anyone. Well as I walk into the doors a bigger guy he looked a little younger than myself maybe 19 or 20. He held the door for me which I thought was sweet I said thanks..and usually thats all that happens. And as I am walking up the counter before he leaves he says in like stuttering voice like nervous like lol...."uh, have a nice...work out!" I giggled and said thanks. It was cute. And it made me feel good that he paid attention to me because usually at the gym I dont feel good about myself because of the people around me...but he lifted my spirits and he doesnt even know! :)

Your points resonated for me.  Foodwise, w/starches and sugars gone, I feel in control.  And I'm loving the increased male attention.  Although I'm finding that some women are getting quiet over my changes and others (like a coworker today) point out the changes.  Seems the insecure ones are bothered by it.

Why?  Cuz I'm hot, LOL!

Good for you for not giving into that fast food.  You sound quite happy Christa, I hope this is just the beginning for you.  Your making a lot of good choices and you know it so it's showing. :)  Your sort of like our "fresh of breath air".ha    

Doesn't it feel wonderful just to have someone acknowledge you.  It makes such a difference in your day.    This actually is something I do all the time, or try too.  Since I'm a mom and well....lol live in the grocery store most of the time this is where I practice it.  Sort of like a good deed for the day, just to make others lives a little happy, even for a moment.  I tend to go for the ones in wheel chairs, or disabled most of the time.  I hate it when people just can't use common courtesy and help them get things off of the shelf.  Or just have a little conversation with the little old lady in the fruit section who wants to babble about how she makes something out of strawberries.  Ya know, that might be her only conversation of the day!  So why not make it a nice one for her. 

I know yours was a little different, of course. :)  But it's still nice to do and to be acknowledged!

 

Jerz-, that's funny.  You're intimidating these poor women!ha  Keep going girl!