Going back to the doc

I will probably never let go of my fatgirl inside. I mean she is still on the outside right now. But I am probably going to be obsessed still when I get to where I want to be. I feel a hell of alot more confident now than I did a couple of months ago. Because when I look in the mirror with clothes on I am happy. Thos clothes are off...eh. Not so happy. And I am scared my body is going to look like that forever. Even tho I noticed today that some of it is going away which made me smile a bit.  This whole Atkins thing is good..I like it. :) But do whatcha gotta do. :)

"This whole Atkins thing is good..I like it. :)" tee hee!

I feel in control. Yea its only been a whole two days. But still. Yesterday was marvelous! I didnt eat past 7pm. I got in under 20g of carbs. I stopped looking at the fat content. I mean I am still highly under in calories but that is due to my pills. I have adapted to eating less even on days I don't take the pill. So its kinda a part of my life now. But Atkins is rocking my world. I'm even going out to dinner tonight and avoiding the carbs. :) My BF was nice enough to think about it and go BD's Mongolian BBQ. Which is PERFECT. Meat and veggies. No rice or tortillas. EASY! lol. Oh and delicious.

Watch for sugar in the sauces, k?

Yea, I already looked at the website and nutrition to check on it all. Usually I do BBQ or Sweet & Sour. I am going for a mixture of SPicy Buffalo & Fajita Sauce. ALL covered lol.

Oh Christa.. I LOVE your new avatar!!!  :)

Oh sure I do that.  Lol, seems that  you guys are the ones that see it the most.  I think it's a great step going back to the doc if you feel like you need too.  Heck, a talk can be just what you need.  You already know everything, but a good ol' pep talk does people wonders on occasion. And there is nothing wrong with that.  

I think the "inner fatchick" in us will always be there.  I mean, it's an addiction so of course that side of us will remain.  We just need to keep it buried and not let it surface!  I call mine my evil side in my head.  Lol, I feel some days when I want something and I know I don't suppose to have it, but there is no one around to say no.  This is when it surfaces a lot for me.  I'm a big time closet eater which tends to cause binges.  So since I'm alone at the time I fight with it in my head so to speak.  I think it's just like when we quit smoking.  We have to go cold turkey and get away from the cigarettes for a long period of time.  Keep ourself away from certain triggers, etc .  I think of it the same way with food.

Now, I have noticed that when I lose weight my self esteem of this "new person" takes over quite rapidly and has so much more confidence.  It's only when I find myself slipping into a bad binge or lose some kind of self control for some reason did I see the "old fatchick" come out.  Maybe your blahs are getting to you to where it's resurfacing.  Your so use to seeing the scale go down that mentally you think your a failure, thus fatchick comes out.  I don't know, but girl...you exercise so much, you ride your bike, you walk, you do yoga, you do all sorts of things.  You got to keep this in mind.  You are healthy no matter what!  

Neecee, going to the doctor is a great idea because it gives a legitimacy to your struggle.  It's having an appointment with a proffessional who is analyzing your situation and helping you to come up with a solution.  It's not just you internalizing everything. I know for me, it took years for my condition to be diagnosed.  But having an endocrinologist give me an official proclamation of PCOS and insulin resistance gave me the tools I needed to learn how my body gained weight, and how it would lose weight.  As much as I love bread and potatoes, it almost killed me to give them up.  But doing it for medical reasons seemed to make it make more sense.  How was fat girl supposed to argue with THAT! So you know what it takes for you to come off of the last few pounds, but it will be nice to have a doc reaffirm that it can be done, you just have to tweek a few more things to get there. Girl, tell fat chick to shut the hell up!  She hasn't known what in heck she has been talking about for YEARS.  You are too intelligent to listen to anything she has to say! Mary