Tail between my legs...

Mmmm I had to stop and think then what exactly it meant:

Apparently it means:

Onya means Well Done, a shortened form of Good On You.

So in this case it meant "Good on you" but with a slightly sarcastic undertone- a sort of "you are such a dag" undertone.  Mmmm which leads me to 'dag'  which is:

Dag : a funny person, nerd, goof

Yeah, I did wonder if Chris' wife took that photo of him... or whether it was a work colleague given he was wearing his suit....

Em

Not what I intended, either. Never mind, okay? Trying to make light with some people just doesn't come off the page.

 First off... I must have a dirty mind cause I had something completely different pop in my head... next....  STOP BEATING YOURSELF UP!  Your trainer should UNDERSTAND that you want to be the BEST you that you can be in that gym.  He was once in your position.. and to be quite frank.. he's getting PAID to understand! I'm glad you got the matter cleared up.. I know how "attached" we get to our trainers. I wouldn't trade my little Andrew for all the tea in China, but I pay him to tolerate my ******g and moaning.  Actually, when I do the "I hate you" thing.. or "I can't do this" thing... he grins ear to ear and says "that means I'm doing my job, baby....  let's go... 2 more".   Anyway.. I'm just glad you're back in a more comfortable position with him.... you'll work out better if you don't have these emotions to contend with.  It's hard enough to get in there and do the do without feeling that the relationship itself is hurting your training.

SO did, I , LVS... so did I.

So now I know what you meant, but I didn't go there.  Thought you were too conservative for dirty talk ; )

Well I'm glad you guys figured it out, I know how much you value your relationship.  Some people I think have to get a little more personally involved even with their trainer to be able to succeed to their highest ability they can.  Not necessarily personal relationship, but a very secure professional relationship as well.  I know I'm the same way.  

You are too hard on yourself, you beat yourself up at times.  How you can change it, I have no clue.  Day by day?  Self talk?  I know those two right there do wonders for me in my anxiety issues.

 

Very attached to him.  Some, like a teammember on my challenge, think you shouldn't, well, she's 155lbs, she doesn't need to, IMO.  I still have over 100lbs to go and frankly I'd want no one else.  The only way I'll change is if I move (which may happen in the next year).  He does get me, but he's still a guy and full of their foibles, LOL. As for the self-criticism, the 155lber is a psychotherapist and thinks I should go into therapy. Pffft.  "You're going through so many changes" blah blah blah.  If I can't cope, that's one thing and not the case.  I don't need to pay 150/hr for the priviledge of voicing my issues surrounding my weight.  I do have them in healthy perspective.   Finding out my perfectionism veered into self criticism on this front was a surprise to me...that's all.  I will try positive self talk now that I'm aware.   In the vein of the positive, I'm trying not to say "only 40lbs" and rather "40lbs, way to go!"  And I've just posted photo updates on my blog.  Seeing those puts things into perspective.

Wow....  your efforts are really paying off girl!!!  Very good!!

Thanks! (See, that's the kind of compliment I'll take well.)