Ugh- I'm not doing so well :(

TOM hit like a ton of bricks yesterday... well, it hit BAD today. I just feel crummy and horrible. I need some kind of vitamins and I'm not sure what is good and what is hype. I hear iron and B vitamins are the way to go but? I've eaten just terrible for a couple days now. I have to get on track with my water- so far today I've eaten: BREAKFAST:  2 pieces of toast w/"fake" butter .5 cup water w/meds LUNCH: Greens & Vegi salad- a small amount of lean ham 6 point Lean Cuisine sandwich Chai tea w/"skinny" milk I feel like I've eaten LOTS more than I have. It really doesn't look to bad on here. I just need WATER... I need to get this swelling nastiness OFF me! And the elliptical... I need "things" to slow down a bit before I dare work on it :( I'm just not able to do it right now :(  That also makes me feel rotten :( Ladies, ever feel like you just want menopause to get here and stop handing you C%$P ?  I'm so tired of this. I just want to curl up in my nice warm bed- with a good book- and be able to doze in and out all day.  It's just been kind a sucky around here...  I fight depression pretty bad at times and as well as TOM... we also lost two fellas I've known forever yesterday. One to suicide and one... well, ya might as well say it was a suicide to. He just drank & drugged to hard for last time. Been missing for 2 weeks and was found yesterday floating in our harbor. Super nice guy... just an ADDICTED super nice guy. He lead a rough life and I know his troubles are now over. Neither guy was REAL close to us... but we were all raised here around one another- all spoke now and then. These things just throw ya a curve now and then. Reminds you of how precious LIFE IS! On a GOOD note.... I interviewed a gal today and have another little one starting in the morning. That is a big help! I've been cut back a bit here and had really decided NOT to add any more to the group until our return- but this gal was needing care NOW and was prepared for the week I'll be gone. It's a little extra money that I will NEED after the trip :) MORE GOOD news.... we are on our COUNT DOWN. 11 days until we leave for Disneyland!  I need to knuckle down and loose at least FIVE POUNDS by then! Oh yeah! Dh found a buyer for me car.... a whole.... FOUR MONTHS before I had planned to sell the dumb thing! This guy, wife and kid showed up on my doorstep wanting to test drive it... who KNOWS what dh was thinking! Maybe HE plans to make those first 4 payments?  So I'm looking at having to bite off a car payment sooner than I had thought!  *Gulp* 

Your food consumption was fine, Mama.  And I know about wishing for Menopause - I'm 28 and praying it'll hit me soon.  You'll do fine - just that crappy time of the month.   (((((BIG HUGS)))))

Aww Mama you've done so well! You got to quit beating yourself up for having just one bad day.  Today was NOT bad.  That menu looks perfectly fine.  Think your little evil Tom guy is just getting the best of you.  

Now five pounds in eleven days!!!  You ARE being too hard on yourself.  Remember...slow and steady wins!

Oh and omg yes I want menopause!  Funny you said that because I might be getting a hysterectomy soon.  Doc just wants to wait a little bit since I'm so young for it still.  Not like I'm gonna have anymore kids, take the dang thing out!!! 

O I know! I had a procedure done - Novasure, that has helped me, i hope get to the other side of this crap. It has helped decrease cramps and the heavy TOM. Like you, I still suffer from extreme bloat and moody - cannot say depressed as much as pissed off about many things. I do not trust my first instinct - wait it out and STFU before saying what I really think.  And as for losing friends...that is another "benefit" of living this long. Just hard to let 'em go, sometimes. My friend's DH woke up dead last week - 61 years old, not sick, just yet another reminder that each day is so precious for those who stay behind.

Your food is fine!!! We must be on the same monthly schedule lol. I have been bad the past couple of days as well. But while I am in Chicago I plan on getting it together. And when I come back I will see the 230's!!! DAMNIT it will happen. So just drink your water and after the TOM it will all come back off...HAVE FUN in DisneyLAND!!! WOOHOOO!!!!!!!!

TOM is that time where I feel like a suckling pig is strapped to me and it's often quite a cranky moody suckling pig that demands to be fed chocolate NOW!

     

Ho****er bottle... deep breathing....
oh and I'm with you on praying for menopause- I am DONE with the pregnant thing so anytime now suits me... but I suspect it will be a while.

Sorry about your other news.

Glad about the rest though.

Em

You are doing just fine on the food, lady. But I feel you, TOM can be miserable. The only blessing it brings is that I never have the urge to weigh myself before/during/right after...I just let it go then! Because I know the number could easily be waaaay out of whack. If you truly can't get on the elliptical, try having a plan in place for a quick morning wellness thing as a substitute...I don't know what you like, but maybe it can be some stretching, breathing exercises, or gentle yoga for 20 minutes...it might help your mood & mindset to start with a workout no matter what. Workout meaning you did something to take care of yo' body :) It seems like you have a really lovely family. Disneyland should be FUN! How many of you are going?

Thanks everyone... things are getting better today. I'm trying to suck down some water as my head just wants to throb today... but that goes with the TOM territory as well :) I think I can use the elliptical this eve. Right after work I'll give it a try. Lately it's been so bad that I really don't want to do ANY bending/lifting/moving around etc., for 1-2 days of this time. It really sucks :(   Can't wait till it goes away... I suppose that's the time I will be looking at the stray HAIR cropping up on my face though hey?  Akkkkkkk!   We woman have SO MUCH to look forward to! Sonora, thanks! Re Disneyland... My dh and I are taking our 6 y/o dd and 13 y/o ds. Then our 20 y/o dd got herself tickets to go with so she is coming to!  Unfortunately, our oldest dd and oldest ds won't be able to go this time :(  That would be AWESOME if they could!