It happened again!!

I would definitely be concerned!  My son had congestive heart failure and swelled up like a freakin sponge! He was swollen and yellow.  Lasix helped a LOT. It not only helped his BODY but it helped his HEART to not be as taxed (course he was also on digoxin but the fluid around his heart was NOT GOOD)

Why was lasix prescribed for you in the first place? What was the reason your Dr felt you were retaining fluids? 

These last two experiences of water weight gain... you need to know that you HAVE to TAKE your meds. That is not good to have it under control and then just STOP the meds like that and let it blow up on you!!

 
Take care... please get in to see a Dr ASAP!

 

 

 

Unless I'm staying in the house.. it's hard to run to the bathroom every 10 minutes.. especially when on the road..so that's one of the biggest reasons I lay off for a couple of days.  There aren't enough REST stops when driving 12 hours.. yanno?  LOL  What's the alternative....  a gallon jug in the car?  LOL  Sometimes I can't make it the lousy 20 minutes it takes from the house to the gym. Yanno...i'm getting to the point where I feel it really doesn't matter.  I'm not going to look for a rheumatologist...ti's too much of a hassle.  sometimes I feel like I can drive.. sometimes I just can't... and begging for a ride on Jon's day off is just absolutely rediculous.   I really don't question why I got the rx to begin with.  normally, my ankles look like I should be a skinny person so I can tell when I'm retaining when they start hanging over my shoes.  The doc said something a couple of years ago like "it's not a matter of IF you have a heart attack.. it's now a matter of WHEN".. so maybe that's why he's got me on 'em. I just gotta face facts... the weight loss I've enjoyed to date is over.  I like to be a realist but I was living in this fantasy world that one day I might actually look normal...  rediculous.

"ti's too much of a hassle." Lori Lori Lori.... YOU are NOT too much of a hassle! You need to get yourself pulled together and start doing something FOR YOU. There is NOBODY in this world that is EVER going to take as good a care for YOU .. as YOU CAN.  Obviously your family is NOT taking YOUR NEEDS seriously. 

Ya know, it's kinda like what I told my friend when she lost her son... there is NEVER a MORE LEGITIMATE TIME to be SELFISH (if you want to call it that?). To think of YOURSELF. Many women are not WIRED to be SELF CENTERED. We do for OTHERS. Our spouse, our kids, our parents, our friends, our neighbors... our DOGS. But WHAT are you doing for YOU ???   You ARE worth it.  You just NEED to get that feeling WITHIN YOU... to HE$# with those that are making you feel like you are a maid...  like you are just there for THEM. Do it FOR YOU GIRL!  You KNOW you can do it!
 
I'm sorry if I sound offensive here but WTF? WHY are you having to BEG for a ride when you are not feeling well?  Why are you having to get your adult kids out of bed to help you when they are living under YOUR roof?  Think of YOU for once. If they won't have the common courtesy to give you a freakin ride to a Dr...  you need to get a friend... take a bus. I know it sounds HARD. And the energy is likely NOT THERE. But you NEED to look out for YOURSELF.   It isn't that they don't LOVE you... you have just given to them for so long- they have come to EXPECT it. And they cannot fathom EVER LOOSING you. THEY are the ones living in a fantasy world.

Sounds like you need to talk to your Dr and take charge of your own health. I can tell you Lori- had I NOT done that 12 years ago..... my #2 son would be dead today. Sometimes you HAVE to take charge. If you don't feel something is right- you PUSH ON to another Dr. Don't just roll over and TAKE IT :(  You have to much to share with your loved ones in the future (however self-centered THEY are right now!) To just roll over and let things go.   You need to KNOW WHY you are on these meds. Sounds to ME, like you are IN CHF. And girl- that is not something to play with. You may not die right away from CHF- but you can run into a LOT of other health issues that could make the life you DO have... pretty unbearable :(   You can get permanent lung damage etc. It's scary stuff! You know, when I started this WL journey- I was so depressed and so down. And I knew m,y family would likely just "poo poo" the whole idea cause I never got anywhere in the past. So when I started- I didn't even tell my dh for two weeks. I was well on my way before he ever knew about it. Because I was sick of always doing FOR THEM. This was almost like a deep, personal endeavor. Something that was SO- FOR ME- that I didn't NEED to tell him. He wasn't a part of that part of me. Honestly Lori- I lost my mom when I was 28 years old. That sounds "adult", but oh how I've missed sharing my life- my children... my WORLD- with her over these last 23 years. I still cry often because I miss her friendship. No matter HOW SELFISH a young adult is... your kids will loose far more than just their clean clothes and the meals you cook. Please get in to a Dr. That is something you *must* do.... do it for YOU.  If you can't do it for YOU... do it for THEM!  Just DO IT!!!
 

You're right about me just feeling too tired right now.  About the kids.. the x.. they couldn't give 2 sh*ts less as long as my life insurance is current.  I am an INCoNVENIENCE to these people, and if I could get away.. I would.  ... .family taking my needs seriously?  That's NEVER been a question.. and that's OK  This is something I'm already accustomed to.  The inconvenience comes when crap like this happens... losing the use of a shoulder or hand and having trouble ironing or making a meal. I was REALLY trying to take care of me for the longest time... look at previous posts!  I was going to the gym and cutting firewood and walking and so forth. I've  got a friend in Iowa who has invited me to be there with him and I'm tempted.. but I know I'm not able to hold down a job right now.  I don't want to leave my child (even though she's a full grown adult), but I feel like I need "normal" living.. seeing people out in the world... great conversations.. access to decent healthcare.  I want to GET BACK TO WORK!  My friend is somewhat disabled though and I don't think I could take care of his needs (although he claims he's NOT disabled) LOL (tough little bugger).   Between the two of us we don't make even 1/2 a person.. and Iowa is soooooooooo cold.... and I hate walking away from equity.. That's way too off topic here... .my point was that I do have an alternative.  I just can't go through the hassle and humiliation of doctors telling me my whole problem is that I'm so fat.. especially after I've lost so much already.  We all know the deal...  if you don't look like a barbie, no one takes ya seriously..doctors or not. This whole post here was a waste... I just feel like crap right now. so I'm rambling.  I got 7 lbs of fluid off of me so far and I'll double up on the lasix again tomorrow and TRY to hit the gym.  If it's chf that's coming down the line.. let it come..  It actually feels worse to see the numbers on the scale knowing how hard I worked for what I achieved than thinking that it could be caused by something which could be potentially fatal.

I know you've been really trying to take care of yourself ... that's my point. You have been doing SO WELL- don't give up on YOU :) "This whole post here was a waste" Naaaa.... it's NOT a waste. Cause if nothing else... you're getting things off your chest!  Sometimes that's all it takes to gain new momentum!  It's better to vent then to hold it in :) I'm glad you have an alternative!  I don't blame you for not wanting to leave your kiddo... they are ALWAYS our "babies" whether "adult" or not. I do think you're probably wrong on your kids: "couldn't give 2 sh*ts less as long as my life insurance is current"  though, I think kids- until they REALLY grow up- they are just ALL for THEMSELVES. Selfish little snots :)  Hang in there. Keep taking your lasix! Once this is off you... you'll likely feel a whole lot better :) 

Well. I just broke off my "alternative" just a few moments ago.  It's for the best anyway.  My lot in life is to be here and whether I like it or not.. that's the way it is.

I have to face facts that I'm very difficult to tolerate... I guess I'm just tired of being alone and it didn't feel so bat at 300 lbs...  I just assumed that's the way it was supposed to be. 

In all honesty.. I don't care what happens at this point.  It's a ***** to realize that I've ever only been used by one person or another.. and this isn't a pity thing... it's just reality.

I may disappear from this forum for a while.  I really don't feel like continuing the efforts any longer.  I'll just lurk and revel in everyone else's success.

 

Love yaz all!

Be Blessed!

Lori

 

 

just wanted to you to know my heart goes out to you.  It sounds like you've got a bit of depression going on.  I pray that not only you take care of yourself, but you also try hard at keeping a little bit of exercise into your routine.  It seems that is one thing that you have thrived on.  Don't forget it doesn't take a lot to exercise either.  FORCE yourself to do something, anything!  If the pain gets bad, go to ER!

Most important, make the appointment your doctor referred you to make.  Even if you can't get in immediately,  maybe you will decide to see them when the day comes of your appointment. I have got all pissy myself about not being able to get right in, but I sure was glad I had it when the time came.  Please call just to make it, you can always cancel it if you want too later on.

Also, I can't seem to shake the fact that you think the doctor will yell at you about your weight.  Girl, you have lost weight!  All doctors ***** about it if we have a few extra pounds, just think to yourself..yea whatever..and get the help you need.   You have done excellent in your weight loss, and if you stay strong, there will be more coming your way. :)

 

It's worse than "yelling" about my weight.. I've been downright HUMILIATED... who in their right mind would subject themselves to this time after time.  THIS is why statistics show that obese people hesitate to seek health care. I'm supposed to work out with Andrew today.. .after all .. he's paid for the entire month of February.  I might have to hit on two 10/660's of vicodin to do it.. my shoulder is still screaming, but to be honest.. I don't feel like getting off this couch!  I walked around.. looked at the mess.. the wood all disheveled on the front porch instead of in the ring..like it was just DUMPED, and the dishes on the counter.....  the cat box that hadn't been cleaned while I was gone (I had to do it as soon as I got home)...and I think.. if only I had an income, I'd get a little place like my sister has (which is ADORABLE by the way).. and just be by myself.  It's like I'm by myself anyway... just that I find evidence of other people living here by the messes I have to clean. Last night I ate a mini italian pastry.  I just didn't care.  It was good too..reminded me of home. I took two more lasix and my weight is at 234.  Right.....  yanno.. I was UNDER 230's.. now I'm back up and it's nothing I didn't expect.  I don't think one miniature pastry did it.. but .... who gives a sh*t... I have no one to impress anyway. FINDING the doctor is half the problem.  My doc told me to "call" one.. I don't have a referral in writing.

Stick around, maybe we can bring you back up.

Yea.. right.. where am I gonna go anyway.....  can I really cut myself off from the world even MORE that I already am?