Hard to recommit!

Oh ya....  there's still some aches going on in my shoulder.. but not bad enough to keep me down.. but... I'm a layin' here.. doin' absolutely NUTTIN'!  The kids just went to pick up some dough for me cause my shoulder doesn't feel like makin' it.  They're in the mood for some Sicilian and pizza fritta. I got on the bike for about 5 minutes before my phone rang.  Usually I iggy the phone until I'm done, but this time it was a great excuse to get off the bike.   I'm supposed to have Andrew tomorrow, Thurs and Friday, but I'm going SOMEWHERE on Friday.. either down to Florida for a funeral, or up to Jersey to see my sister.. either way.. I'm getting OUT of here! Weight is going up and down like a yo-yo.  If I take what it is right now... 227 and change... it means I haven't lost a thing this month so far... and down only about 30 lbs since early in December.  I guess it's gonna slow down and I should accept this.. but I can't help but feel that I'm doing something wrong.  (Like not exercising). Maybe the boredom is just taking me over.  I'm sticking to meat today.  I had a chicken thigh and a hamburger patty and will have a hamburger patty for dinner.  They're pretty big though.. 90% lean.. but 7oz raw.  It took me an hour or more to get through the first one.. 1/2 and 1/2.. So this is boredom.. and the complacency which is born of it.

I think getting back to exercise, once you've taken a break is hell!  Heck, I can't even get started.  I did sign up today at our community center that has a walking track.  I can't do much with this knee, but am determined to get back to it little by little so I can mow the lawn this summer. As far as your diet goes.....I know you don't like to see the scale stay the same overall for a couple of weeks, but you have to admit that 30lb in two months is pretty phenomenal.  Pat yourself on the back for your accomplishments and go on from here.  I think you're doing great.  Glad you've decided to get away for a while too.  A geographical change will help the boredom.

Have you tried the bike?  I think I screwed up by hitting the treadmill (got excited about walking so well again)... bad, bad idea for knees and hips.  The lifecycle is more my speed.

You SO need this trip. Even a funeral sounds better than waiting on the bunch you got there. Sounds like they all need a reality check. You are too wonderful to them!  None-of-my-business-whatsoever Survival tip:  you may hate me for this, but a 21 year old cannot "run away" - she should be out cleaning her own apartment fighting with her roomate about whose turn it is to do dishes! I think you told us her situation before (and cannot recall what the deal was there), but regardless, maybe it's time to work on helping her find independence! Your weight flucs - you said it - gotta be a slow down.  Just cowboy up, do all the right stuff. Take care of yourself...baby yourself.

What am I gonna hate you for?  For saying things I should already know?  For things I should already be doing?  naaaaaa..   It's very frustrating with these two.  They're so talented.. and they're really good.. just.. there's no motivation.   I think a good workout will do me good.  I'm off my routine and just feeling the depression closing in on me.  I haven't even TANNED in two weeks.. now that's really off for me. Jon is taking a personal day (for the first time since I've known him) on Friday... he said he'll "take me" to NJ or FL...................which means he's making sure I come back.  Guess I'm on a pretty short leash. I ate a little broccoli with my hamburger tonight.  It was really good, but I feel too full. 

3 of our 4 kids are like that! We tried patience, fire, ice...finally we issued move out dates and stuck to them...they were pissed but after a while, they came around.  Jeesh....i could not WAIT to get out of my parent's house. I hit the road at 18.  what  is up with these kids.

Neecee.. I don't know what's up.  I screwed up with her.  I tried to support her in all of her interests.  I was out at 18 too, and had to fight my mother to get through the door.  I moved in with Jon and I've been here ever since!  It's not like she needs to move out...  I wanted her to take some responsibility for the home and land that will be hers soon enough.  We discussed this ahead of time.  We agreed this would be a "group" effort.  Some group..... She won't go to school.. she won't work.. she doesn't cook, doesn't clean, and won't even tend the gardens other than a cursory walk through.  I raised a slug because I was too darned busy to "do" anything.  I hired people to do everything.  She had one hell of a childhood.. that's for sure.  She's had every opportunity...more than I could have ever DREAMED of!  But it was a mistake.  Hindsight is 20/20.  (time to whip out the cliches) I'm at 227.4 this morning.  I took the lasix and I'm hoping for some activity here.  I got 15 minutes on the internet, then have to get Jon's breakfast and lunch made before jumping into the shower before he does so I can be out the door to meet Andrew on time.  I'm just going to try to keep myself busy today..... then call the pharmacy to refill some xanax. 

Hi!!  30 lbs since December!  That is freaking awesome.  I am only down 6 lbs so far but I just started.  YIKES!!! 

You just started and you're down 6 lbs!  That's GREAT!  My beginning was harrowing.. to say the very least... I actually gained 11 lbs doing NutriSystem.. LOL  Then it was like cannnnnnnndy for a few months.. now it seems to be slowing down.

Lori, git yer ass up and move it!  Take it on up to Jersey or wherever you want. Anywhere is better than your couch!  MOVE IT MOVE IT MOVE IT!  Your stuck in this complacent almost self-pity mode.  You gotta pull through it! You gotta do it for me!  Who's gonna life me up when I'm down if you're down??