VERY down.. gained almost 10 lbs in the last few days

Lori.... you are "out of lasix"?????? MY thoughts are: Well, THERE YA GO!    If you are suppose to be on lasix... there is a REASON you are suppose to be on them right?  I.e. REDUCE THE FLUIDS in your body- often around the heart ??? If you are NOT taking the lasix AND you have this miserable fluctuation in hormones... I could SEE the 10 lbs of WATER. I SOOO understand your sadness my friend. I have NO family left (they are all deceased- have been since I was in my 20s) except for a brother that is 10 hours away by ferry... one that is not a very nice person that lives here near me- nuff said about him! And a sister that actually lives in NJ.  Other than that- nobody. My best friend- thankfully- lives right next to me. But, I miss my family SO MUCH :(   I am also going through the mess of hormones... sometimes twice in a month. It is VERY depressing in itself! Hold onto the fact that THIS TOO, SHALL PASS!  It WILL!  You have worked HARD... you ARE doing well! You ARE working HARD! This is just a bump in the road and you WILL loose tha****er... in NO WAY can it be TRUE WEIGHT!  NO WAY! Get your meds girl... get BACK ON THEM.... ASAP! (((((hugs)))))  

I was out of it for a few days.  Picked up another sometime today and took 80mg.. spent most of the day sprinting down the hall.  OMG.. I let go of 8 lbs of FLUID today... how is that possible?

I certainly know what it's like to miss the family.  This would have been one of those days I would have spent on the phone with my brother..  haha..  that desperate call saying "WILLY.. GET ME OUTTA HERE".

I don't know what's up with the period thing.  Usually, I could set a clock by my periods so this is insane.  Why the heck I even NEED a reproductive system at all is way beyond me anymore.  It's not like I got anything to worry about... sheesh. Thanks for indulging my insanity.

Yup! I knew you would!! My son was on Lasix after open heart... I was thankful he was still IN diapers! LOL  Sounds like you are feeling a lot better now! Glad to see that! I think you should go to NJ as well! Get outa there! I'm not one to let my kiddo's hang out here (over night) unless they pitch in and at least pick up after themselves... that caused me more stress than anything! Dang! My son balked every time so when he finally got his own place.... I "flipped that room" :)  It's now my office! I always tell them they will NEVER be homeless... this is ALWAYS home. But when that door opens (IN) ... with it, comes a little adult responsibility :)     It took him about a year to finally say to his younger brother: "Don't fight doing chores when you live at  home Tim, cause when your out on your own ALL the chores are YOURS"   :)   That was a proud moment LOL Hang in there... things are already looking better with your meds in place :)  

I'm hangin'.  I don't have much of a choice.  I better get my lazy a** up and make Jon's breakfast.. it's getting late and I already hear him on his Sunday morning conference call. I took another 80mg of lasix about 40 minutes ago.  I woke up at 227.. let's see what happens.  All I know is that on Wednesday I was 225.. so this is making me a tad insane.

Geeze Girl, I know I'm supposed to be cheering you on, but damned if you aren't right...you got no life!  But I can't imagine anyone from Jersey, not being able to make their kids clean house.  My Jersey friend tells them they can eat when their chores are done.  Or the biggie...cell phone deprivation! And I know I'm missing something here, but why are you responsible for Jon staying on his diet?  Is this not something he is responsible for.  I know you want to support his health, but we can't make food decisions for other people.  I know that would not have worked for me.  Although a little support would have been nice.  My concern is, how much energy is this costing you emotionally? And I hear you using the term 'lazy'.  Is it possible that the fatigue from your hormone imbalance and depression is robbing you of the energy to do, much less care?  I got the message loud and clear that you ain't interested in no stinking vitamins!  But (OK, I'll slap myself for you) if you only added one, can I suggest one that I've already researched, is Atkins approved, is cheap, and you only have to take once a day?  At Walgreen's they sell Finest Natural, Balanced B-complex, with Vitamin C, Rose Hips, and Rice Bran for around seven bucks.  It helps convert protein to be utilized for energy.  And it helps support your immune system.  I'm just sayin'. I say go to Jersey!   Mary

Oh I'm so glad you didn't do the "get a hobby" thing with me.  LOL   I don't "make" my kid do anything.  I ask, she runs away.. game over.  It's not worth the stress.  No no.. I remember all the screaming and yelling when I was a kid over doing and redoing the floor.  Besides.. my daughter is 21.. if she doesn't have the presence of forethought to understand that I need help sometimes at this stage in her life, she never will.  I just hate finding all the EXTRA.

Why I'm responsible for Jon.. hmm..  yea.. this is getting out of hand.  I told my daughter today that I wanted to go away for a bit and she said "oh, I better hurry up and move out so I don't have to listen to daddy".  I said "hey, kid.. he's my X husband.. you're more related to him than I am.... maybe it's time you cook him a meal or iron a shirt, show a little respect for this nice roof you have over your head".  Yea.. that went over big.. she sprinted to her room. 

I have bunches of vitamins right on the kitchen counter.. bottles lined up in order of size and a list of how many and what to take every day.  It's for Jon.  I got tired of counting out his vitamins 3 x a day, so I made him a list and said "take 'em or don't.. it's up to you".  I guess I got so tired of it that I didn't want to do it for myself anymore either.  I gotta get back to the Chromium picolinate and cinnamon at least.  My immune system sucks too.. so I should hit the C's. Thanks for the tolerance.. 

You sound just like my best friend.  Her ex husband lives with her.  He had a kidney replacement and has really bad diabetes because of it.  He eats anything he wants.  She is waaaay more concerned about his health than he is.  Frankly, it's zapping the life out of her.  She has gained weight, gotten *****y and is slightly depressed.  She's gotten to where she goes to work and goes home.  This from a little social butterfly.  If I were to tell her to get a hobby, she'd tell me to kiss her fat ass!    Mary

HHahhahahha..  Yea.. those are my words exactly!  I do add something though.. "Kiss my big, fat a**, high noon, day before Christmas, Macy's window, 5th avenue side".  

Wow, you need to cheer up girl.  I'm not sure what's going on with your meds, but maybe you need to call the doctor to clear some of your problems up.  Do you normally have three periods in a month?  This seems like a lot.  No wonder your hormones are out of whack!!

I agree with Mary on a few things.  You know, you got to take care of YOUR self because no one else will.  AND will you NOT be able to take care of others without being healthy.  WHich it sounds like your the "key" to the family.  You hold things together and makes sure every one else is happy.  But it sounds like your forgetting about YOU!! 

Take that trip to Jersey, or do whatever you wanna do!!  You need some time for yourself, not only Jon or your kid.  You have a life too!  Heck, I would rent a luxury room and get a full body massage from one of those guys with hairy knuckles you were talking about.  hehe :)  Go for it!!  It sounds like you need it.

Don't worry about the dishes or about Jon getting off his diet.  He's a big boy, he can figure it out on his own.  If he gains a few pounds...oh well!  You'll be back eventually, life will go on without you.  You need to work on YOU and learn to enjoy yourself and realize how important you are!!

Have fun in Jersey. :)   

Thanks for the kind words, Holly. No.. this isn't "normal" for me for periods.  My sister says this is how she started menopause.  Yea... I need this like a hole in the head right now. No problem with meds other than I was out.  I got a rx for low dose xanax and pain pills but my new insurance company is giving me agita and Jon does NOT want to pay full price.  I can't blame him, but I look at it this way.. I'm saving like $700 a month in insulin!  I filled the lasix somewhere else without the insurance today.  I'll fill the mother's little helpers in a few days then take a brain break.  I could have used a qualude the size of a horse's ass today.. lemme tell ya.  I never wanted to see 230 on that scale ever again.  That scale almost got tossed through the bay window. Day started at 234.. went to 236 in a matter of hours... then I took the lasix and went down to 227.  That's a huge fluctuation in one day.  Enough to make anyone crazy I think. Yep.. I feel a road trip coming on..