She discovered I'm insulin resistant by a patch of skin on the back of my neck. From her description, it's what was going on in my calves and that's the sign that body doesn't know what to do with the insulin.
I always thought I was, but hearing it is scary because I'm that close we think to diabetes and this is what makes me really upset--I've been trying to lose the weight since I was 7. I have dieted and exercised most of my life and ate FDA pyramid guidelines the majority of the time, and this is the result.
I guess I should be praising God that I felt inclined to start Atkins (down 4lbs since Saturday) because that I am sure immediately got a hold of my insulin levels.
I'm in a bit of an emotional tailspin because it doesn't stop with the IR diagnosis. She is testing for PCOS, hormone levels, a genetic disorder and a few other things because I am so very reactive to carbs. I explained to her the difference between now and October is that I eat less an English muffin and fruit and the weight moves like crazy (which is a good thing because I need it to move to get out of this diabetes risk.
Anyway, it's very scary.
And it's emotional, very emotional because I have been trying soooo hard for soooo many years. I've always heard move more and exercise more and you know how I've felt about that--how much more could I have moved at 800 calories and exercise? And so in a sense it's just as unsettling to hear someone say, hmm, I think something's really wrong.
She did ask if I'd do RNY and I explained my feeling on WLS. Not knowing what I know.
Upshot for now is two more blood draws next 2 weeks and another meeting with her to review the findings. She is content with me staying on Atkins as the weight has moved. But it really amazes me how a high fat, medium protein, and low carb diet works. I mean, Christa has even tasted those recipes and that's how I've eaten to lose. THat part, at least, is great.