Biometric Testing Results

((((Chris))))..  I've been searching for words all evening...  It's pretty late and I can't seem to find the "right" things to say.. but I don't want to pass this night without trying.   You obviously see this is about more than your cholesterol, your bp and your weight.  There's a entire person inside the person you're loathing so much right now.. and that inner self needs some TLC.   It isn't hopeless.. oh.. I know it feels that way (boy do I know it).  This can be fixed.. .but maybe from  the inside out, and then the outside in.   When you're feeling like it's hopeless, you might have hit your bottom and that's a pretty good thing actually... cause the only place  you have to go is UP from here.

  Someone once told me:  If you move into a home that needs some TLC, you look around and feel overwhelmed when really all you need to do is start.. pick up a broom and sweep off the porch, then work on the hall, and when that's done, go to the dining room walls...  just pick a place to start and do one thing at a time.  I think we need to do the same things with ourselves.  I don't think I hated myself because I was so fat.... I think I was so fat because I never liked myself to begin with.  I don't know if you can relate that to what you're going through...  but I'm getting some sense of that.   Sometimes it's time for a good, long talk with God... no one else knows as much about you as He does.  Ok.. some call that lame.. but putting my head down and admitting that I was weak brought me out of some serious addiction... yea.. drugs.  I don't like to admit this... not that I went to God for help, but I was that pathetic to begin with. Other than that..which truly comes from my heart, I can only say that everyone has offered something by offering a piece of themselves.  Maybe there's a way you can take away all of the pieces that might fit this puzzle you're trying to put together right now. On the low carb side... wow.. you know how I feel about that.. and the hardest part is the first few days...  after tha****ch the hunger disappear.  Not the way I'm doing it.. but maybe just read over Atkins and see how you feel about it.  It may not be a long term solution, but it might give you that push you need until you make preparations for surgery. I only want for you what you want for yourself. You are in my thoughts and prayers tonight, dear one.. God Bless Lori

 

Thank you for everything!  I'll talk to you more about all this in PM. I need some glue.. I keep putting the pieces together and when I turn around to grab another piece the whole damned thing crumbles!  That's a perfect analogy to how this all feels.

Sounds like you got a lot of good stuff in the other replies.... when I looked up your BMI per weight/height it said your BMI was 47.8 so not to far off as per the mayo clinic calculator. I know how scary it can feel when it hits you all of a sudden!  For some reason when I hit 49... I started freakin out as I looked at 50 just around the corner!  My BP was UP... my weight was UP... my life was DOWN.  I think FEAR of my future (more like the possibility of NO future!) is what really got me super motivated this time... I am SCARED of my children loosing their mother at a young age. I lost mine at 28... that was to young for ME Hang in there... you are AWARE of these issues and you ARE working on you're health. I do believe you WILL get there!  (((((hugs)))))

You're all right.. I just need to cancel my pity party and get out there and just do it..  I have made a little progress since the scale incident. I'm no longer eating myself into oblivion. I have managed at least to stop when I'm full and I haven't gone to bed overstuffed in a couple days. So that's a good first step to getting out of this rut.  Also, LVS was so kind to send me a large amount of Nutrisystem and Medifast meals that she could no longer use.  I have already started incorporating those into my daily plans. Those things are surprisingly good. I love that they have good ingredients and not all of the processed unnatural things out there.  If I'm able to, I may end up purchasing some more when I run out and using those for breakfast and lunch. I don't think I could replace all meals with them. I'd probably end up with TV dinneritis if I did.  Anyways my point is that all is not lost and I am trying to move forward.  Thanks for listening to my sobs and self loathing and for such good advice!

I was thinking about you and wondering if you should try Atkins.  Not the Atkins that people think it is, but the real Atkins per the book.  Not loads of fat and all meat, but protein and veggies and later careful fruits.  I think this would work out well for you.  It would give you satiety, variety, and allow you to pig out yet get results. JMHO.

I had thought about doing that actually.  I did it once before but never could get into ketosis because I kept slipping up.  I am afraid I won't be able to do it this time either.  The amount of time required to enter ketosis is a problem for me. While I am a big meat eater I like to have carbs too.  I dunno, maybe I'm just making excuses. I'm good about that. :)  Point is I guess, if I don't feel like I can do it or I don't feel like it will work for me then I know I will fail at it. Nonetheless, it is a good idea. I may end up going down the Atkins road again soon.

I know this one guy that was quite a bit larger than you that lost a ton of weight on Atkins.  He hasn't gained too much of it back either.  I was talking to his wife and she said that was the only diet he could stick to.  He lost the weight extremely fast too. Brenda

When I did Atkins several years ago- I was doing pretty well when I had my yearly check ups... I was almost afraid to tell my Dr HOW I had been loosing. To my surprise- he was VERY BIG on the low carb way! He referred to the cholesterol levels/heart disease in the colder regions of the world... like where they eat primarily FAT. I mean  like  hardly ANY carbs and very high fat/protein. He said there is very little heart disease/cholesterol problems. I found that interesting! There are a lot of people in my area actually (Alaska Natives) that still eat a lot of seal blubber etc., ... I just found it really interesting.   He just said we should keep an eye on things and make sure we did blood work every so often. Everyone had told me I was going to kill myself with Atkins!  I walked out of that Dr. office feeling much better :)  You're doing well... it's really HARD not to  be down on yourself when you hear news that's not that great. Or seeing a gain etc. I think those around us can see us clearer than we can see ourselves at those times. Cause we are so clouded with self doubt etc. Hang in there!

This is true!  I forgot that til you posted it. Good fat is imperative in blood cholesterol management. In fact, Kriz, go buy some fish oil caps...Drs. Northrup, Edell, Peeke, all suggest those to help manage cholo levels.

Usually when people fail at Atkins, it's that they didn't really eat according to the plan and/or they didn't explore their options with the food.  I'm going to PM you a link.  I steal recipes from there to remain low carb myself.  I think if you research it a bit and cook a tad, you'll feel full, satisfied, and see the weight fly off.  With pure Atkins, people easily lose 100lbs in a year.