Biometric Testing Results

Like you, I was really sick.  Just started back on Sunday.  Nothing major going on, but I'll go post a small bit of news, just for ya.

Exercise will continue as is for now. I imagine when spring gets here I'll be upping my mileage though.  The wife and I like to walk at night when it's nice and cool out. We've been known to go walking at like 11pm! heheh Love the crisp night air.  I can't do much more than walking though because of my knees. I tried running last year and thought I was gonna have to go to rehab! For now, I'm walking a mile 5 days a week and taking 1 hour karate classes twice a week.

My cholesterol was 244 last winter-- and was 170 by Spring. It's very easily corrected--- Just DO IT!

I guess I'm just disappointed because I thought I was eating so much more healthy now.  To find it's worse is disheartening.  I'm finding a lot of disheartening things out lately... First it was my stupid scale that lied to me about my actual weight. (No wonder those 44s are still tight) Now it's my bad cholesterol, which was always decent before.  I wonder if all the yo-yoing has an effect on it. I bet it does.

Chris-- I know this is gonna cheese you off to no end...but you have to stop blaming everything around you and love your damn self enough to look yourself square in the eye and set things right. Your scale didn't lie-- it was broken. And I think I remember you saying that you suspected it was broken-- remember? But you liked what it was telling you: who can blame you for keeping it?/? Eventually though, you have to face the reality-- your real size, real weight, and I know it's crushing. I know you're hurting. But there's a lot you can do. A lot. Think of all the ailments and miseries we can't correct or assuage, and you'll see how lucky you really are. Lowering your cholesterol doesn't have to mean losing calories-- just making different choices. If I, at 12 years older than you and 50 pounds heavier and female could do it (and the daughter of a dairy farmer to boot!)- then it *can* be done.  Don't wait until you're shot to hell, Chris. Fix what you can. Live a good life!

 

Not cheesed off at all. You're quite right.  For the longest time I fought with the wife and everyone else that said the scale was accurate. Deep down I knew it wasn't but didn't want to accept that. It took the thing cracking to finally make me believe it was broken and accept that I was wrong. I'm not even sure why I was shocked to find out my true weight. I should've known right?  BDD?  Who knows.. Shari, to be honest, I just don't know where to start to begin loving myself. I feel almost hopeless.. Like there's no way to fix my problems, despite yours and everyones success. I 'know' that it's all fixable and doing so is the right thing to do. I can think all day long that if I do these things I am loving myself. UGH! I guess my problem isn't with a lack of knowledge.. I know exactly what I need to do.. my problem is with just doing it.. (maybe i should get some nikes? )  I do know one thing that I am doing right though.  I keep coming back to the point that "I need to do something."  I'm not just blindly ignoring it. I am at least trying. That has to pay off in the end somehow doesn't it? Some days are better than others. Just have to figure out how to flip the switch and begin taking care of myself properly. I think Paul said it best, "For that which I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate. "

From reading your posts I actually think you have found your path, its just a matter of time now.  Your decision to have WLS is certainly a major step towards your goal.   I have always admired your honesty and determination.  I think you have a great attitude and I just have a good feeling that you will eventually succeed.  You may feel down just now, but I think you are an optomistic person generally and will perservere.  I look forward to your continuing saga.  Best wishes to you.

Thank you so much! That really means a lot to me. When I'm up I'm UP and when I'm down I'm down.  Pretty even mix I guess.  Either way, I do like to think of myself as a mostly optimistic person! :) Oooh I have a saga! hehehehe

Chris--you are allowing yourself to be like a pig in muck and just rolling in the self pity.  That's fine, you're feeling it, but get it out of your system and get pissed off enough that you are ready to plan you're way out of this and take action.   What is your motivation?  If it's I want to be there for my kids, write it out and post it where you'll be reminded.  You wouldn't not do this knowing how important you are to them, you know?

All weight loss is a plan put to action (and we all know what I consider successful weight loss). You know you need to do something.  Choose your poison.  If you're unsure, get educated.  Then just do it!  Nothing happens until action is taken.  Otherwise it's all in the head and if it stays there, you'll just keep wishing and rolling in the self pity.

As for just doing it, it really is that first step.  We all take it, feeling uncertain and very cautious.  And then we just repeat it and soon it no longer feels weird.  I hated the first day at the gym.  The second was better.  And so forth and so on.

Let this be your wake up call: If you do not do something now, you may become ill. You may develop conditions that are irreversible. You may suffer tremedous physical limitations, and pain. You may die. Right now, everything that's wrong with you can be eradicated or diminshed with self-care. If you hesitate, if you wait until it starts to fall apart, you may end up with a body that's so far gone it's irretrievably broken in places you cannot fix. Some of us have to hit that wall-- I did. I honestly believe most people do. Vanity will never be reason enough, and "potential illness" is too abstract to give a **** about. So here's the choices for today-- right here, right now:  1) Do something now, because the potential for worse things later is too great to risk. 2) Do nothing now, and hope that you can live with the potential consequences 3) Do nothing now, in the belief that there will be no consequences. Pick one you can live with.