Checking in

Well, It's about time I checked in... It's been well over 2 months since my last post, and here I am ... I am not going to sugar coat it, in those two months, I have gained back just about all the weight I had lost. How do I feel about that ??? I feel annoyed that I slipped so long, and let two days turn into two months of poor choices, however, I learned that I can not go without grains for extended periods of time, because it sets me up to fail. As many of you may remember,at my doctors request, I started a grain free diet 3 months ago, to see if I could get my insulin intollerance under control. I lost almost 20 pounds, and it worked. My blood sugar was regulated, and I was o my way to a healthier me. Then November came, and al of a sudden, it was like I went into winter storage mode, and went over the edge with grains, making up for what I had not eaten in the past three months and gained back most of all the weight I lost. So, that brings me to today and I am officially holding myself accountable for my behavior, and focusing on moving forward, and not being hard on myself. I recently visited my doctor for a check up, and she upped the dosage on the thyroid medicine, and encouraged me to eat 1 serving of grains a day. So, I am taking the medicine and eating one serving of grains a day. I need to get off my butt and exercise, but I am guilty of not making time for exercise. That needs to change, because I need to get moving. And lastly, last month we started trying to get pregnant. It didn't happen the first time around, and I stressed out about it, but we are trying again, and I hope it works now. I raelized I am never going to be at a perfect weight to do this, and I am not getting any younger, so I need to put my best foot forward, feel good about it, and go for it, and in the meantime, I am sticking to healthy eating to make things easier. Okay, that's it everyone... Wish me luck, as I get back into the groove !! Brenda - How are things going with you?? Christa - I saw your last post, and holy cow you have lost alot in the short time you started the phentermine.. any side effects.... Janina - OMG, girl you look good in your new pics.. you can see that hourglass shape comming out...I bet you could look even skinnier if you got some new clothes.. your pants look so baggy.... I hope everyone else is doing superfantastic !! GLad to be back and accountable.. It feels good to come clean....

Maria!!!!!! I have missed you! You will get back on track I know you will. It will all come back off in no time. :) I am glad you came to post! Ahh the Phentermine. I haven't taken it since Monday due to sickness which today I am feeling good, still sick but good. I am disappointed in myself this week I have made some REALLY bad food choices...but I know I will be back on track next week. :) I love the Phentermine. It is working wonders for me to be honest and also my bad choices this week were alot better than I normally would have done...so I am learning with the Phentermine. Umm side effects.....dry mouth like no other but I have learned to deal with it, it doesn't bug me that much. And also the other one I have is really weird, my face feels tight..you know when like you swell up your skin is tight well that is what it feels like...just when the pill releases it tightens my face for a little while...just uncomfortable but it's fine. And the last side effect if I get too excited or like for example if my boyfriend is going to turn in front of a car and I think it's going to hit us you know how you take that deep breath like omg I am gonna die lol...I can feel my blood pressure go up like my veins are going to pulse out of my neck. I just take a few deep breaths and calm myself down. This has only happened 3 times. But yea it has been good :)

Glad to see you back!!  We've all been there girl.  Probably a million times or more for me alone.  Geez, LIFE!!  The biggest thing is to not give up.  Keep coming back we're behind you 100%. Brenda

Why do you feel no grains sets you up to fail? When I did Atkins years ago, I felt the same, but this time around, I don't.  I truly think the difference is that on Atkins, carbs from fruits and veggies were also limited, whereas now I get the carbs ONLY from fruits and veggies.  Much easier for me to sustain.  I think also it helped to realize that for me, they are the enemy as they stall me.  Seeing them as counterproductive to my goals helped a ton. Going back onto grains, just remember early in the day only and around the time of exercise.   You will find your stride again.  Just remember your motivation.  As long as your motivation reason is strong and true to you, you won't something else take more importance.  Time is but an excuse.  It can be found if you really want to, even at the sacrifice of something else.....

Welcome back!  It sounds like it's been a tough few months for you, BUT your back! :)  That's the important thing.  Ya know, I know that one wants to be thin before getting pregnant and doctors recommend it.  I didn't say anything before because I don't know you well and don't know your medical history.  But I have had all four of my kids over weight.  I never had any problems except for gestational diabetes.  I had it with one, was borderline for three of them.  And get this, NONE of my kids were big babies!  I averaged six to seven pound babies on all of them, all perfectly healthy.  So don't beat yourself up over not losing the weight before hand.  You still have time to lose, eat healthy while even being pregnant does wonders!  One of my pregnancies I only gained about five pounds because I was watching every ounce of food I ate.  On my first pregnancy I gained seventy because I thought it was fun being pregnant.  Foolish eh?  Never did lose all of it. So you'll be fine, and congrats on your decision to start now.  :)

 

Welcome back Maria!  You're not the only one who went crazy for a while.  I just recently came back myself.  I was even more shocked last week when I found out I had done much worse than I thought I had. I'm back up to 305lbs from the 283 or so I was at when I left.  The news of that has sent me back to the food for comfort but I'm slowly trying to pull myself away from it. Just chock it up to another lesson learned about yourself and do like you said and put a foot forward.  I'm glad you're deciding to try and get preggie too!  I know you want that really bad and it's always a great idea (and motivating) to pursue your dreams!