A new kind of challenge

A few of us have been talking today about how our self esteem has taken over how we normally feel about one self and how it affects are daily life.  I personally think how we see ourself is how we eat.  When I feel bad about myself I binge.  I'm a closet eater and an emotional eater.  I know for myself I have been feeling pretty down about myself, how I look, I'm not working, why can't I keep up on bills, why aren't the kids doing better in school, why has my sex life changed just because of our weight, you get the message.

I want to start doing something good for myself once a week.  Wether it be all by myself or together with someone.  It could be a manicure, it could be stripping naked in front of hubby and giving him a show.  Anything that will make myself feel better, like I felt when I was thinner.  

 I use to be one that wouldn't be scared of anything when it came to our sex life.  Now I'm all bottled up and I'm all careful on him not touching my love handles.  I want to be able to act like I did back then.  Not only with him, but my attitude.  

I think one event a week, anything depending on what we need.  We are all different and need different things.  Anyone in??

I'm in!!  Wait.. we aren't sharing pics or anything are we????? hahah! just kidding I think this is a great challenge. Mostly because it really is a challenge to do!  "We people" are such a self-demeaning self-loathing crew.. to do something good for ourselves is difficult to fathom. I can't even begin to think of one good thing I can do for the upcoming week.  I'd get some odd glances if I went in for a mani or a pedi and if I did a strip show for the wife she'd probably have me committed!  What's a guy to do??  I have an idea... I've always found that accomplishment makes me feel good about myself.  I had already planned to do this but tomorrow I plan to fix the mailbox that's been broken since I installed the thing a year ago.  I also plan to pull out the motorcycle and take it for a ride if it's warm enough and then come back and wa**** I'll be taking pictures of it too so that I can sell it. I've decided I no longer want it and I've been meaning to do put it on craigslist for a long time now.  I'll tidy up the yard a bit as well.  I think perhaps the best thing for me to do that is good for myself is to find things to do that I don't feel guilty about.  I feel guilty about sitting in front of the computer or tv all weekend. I'm gonna make the most of my weekends. No more sedentary nothingness. Time to get off my arse and accomplish things!

I know it sounds pathetic and boring compared to say a manicure or a massage (or strippimng naked!) but I really relish 1/2 hr with a good book as many days a week as I can manage it. 

I get absorbed into the plot and don't even think about what is crashing about me in my life.  Great escapism. Especiallu good for the 'waiting for child's extra curricula activity to finish' times.

Em

I love reading when I actually do it.  For the last month or so I've been listening to books on audio while I drive to and from work.  I've gone from doing 75-80 on the interstate to the speed limit. (55-65) It's amazing what happens to you when you get immersed in a book or a story.  I almost get tunnel vision.  I can concentrate on my surroundings but the guy in front of me that's going so slow no longer ****** me off to the point I have to fly past him and flip him off. I simply slow down a bit and follow behind him.  I LOVE having to slow down. Gives me more time with my book! heheh  I find that most of the time now I'm the slow guy that people are passing and flipping off. It's a nice change.  I don't feel rushed or stressed and I have plenty of time to make lane changes...hell I'm usually in the far right lane so there's not even a need to change at all.