I'm a little bummed but I've been really struggling this past week :(
I stayed at 192... which IS better than going UP! But I really wanted BADLY to get to 189 by Friday the 21st. I should have been able to do that but chose to put to much into my mouth
and NONE of that was WATER!
My MIL is back... she went to BIL house for a week but came back here a week ago. It is SO OBVIOUS that she is trying her damndest to sabaotage my WL! Dh sees it BIG time now! In fact, last night my 13 y/o son said: "You and grandma were just about the same size before- maybe she doesn't want to be the fatter one in the family" ............... told dh that this a.m. as we talked about it and he is thinking that MIGHT BE IT!
She made a pineapple upside down cake last weekend. Last night she had me take her shopping...... this is the kicker! ........ we were by the deli and I saw a cheese roll on a shelf and I commented that I use to just LOVE those things but now I really can't have cheese (I can but it wracks up the points) and as we checked out- (I had my own cart she went ahead of me) She picks up... none other than.... a CHEESE BALL!! She looks at me and says: "I'm getting one of these so you're going to have to have a little"........... NOT!!!
We got home and she whips open a package of chewy caramel cookies and sets them in the center of the eating bar for all to enjoy! Right now she has a cake mix on the counter as well as some jello so I know she is up there baking again.
I am doing my best at staying AWAY from her crap but it's HARD! And I can't say I HAVE stayed out of it ALL, but I will NOT NOT NOT let HER see me indulge one crumb! There is a big part of me that is SO ANGRY at her because she has not been the nicest of people to me in the past (i.e., accused me of starving my son because he was so small & wouldn't eat- a month later he was diagnosed with a heart defect- NOT even an apology!) so there is ANGER there, but at the same time- I feel like saying SCREW YOU WOMAN! I will NOT fall apart AGAIN because of YOU! And yet.... she is 84 years old and I do still love her. She has a very nice side- but that nasty side can be VERY nasty :(
Anyhow, didn't mean to cry on your shoulder but she really is ******g me off! Guess I had to get it out!
On a GOOD note... I just went to my dd's kindy Christmas musical (soooo cute!!) and wore a top that was to snug to wear comfortably last summer... it is BIG today!!
That was a GREAT feeling! AND.... as of TOMORROW at 4:30 p.m..... I am on VACATION!!! I don't work again until the 31st! Then I have the 1st off as well :) I am so VERY excited!!