Mindgames

I'm shopping online and realizing I'm having a hard time "accepting" that I'm no longer a 3x.  And I still reach in my closet for the 3x stuff and put it on only to realize I need to box it up. My size 18/20 long sleeved tshirts tell my story.  They were my "I hope to get back into them" tops.  Now the sleeves are too long, the bottom's loose, the arm's wide. But strangely, I stop myself from considering ordering a 1x.  Silly me.  It's going to be so "wild" to go to Lane Bryant and reach for a 16 instead of an 18 next time I do shop. Why does my brain hesitate....

i see alot of ppl that had WLS posting this alot. i hope that this doesn't happen to me. i want to be excited as i am able to go down in size. not feel weird about it. but, at the same time, i've always been heavy. so it may be hard to give up feeling heavy even as i am losing.

really,all of this is a mind game. you just learn to play the game better with time.