I WILL stay accountable

I know in my heart of hearts that the secret to lasting weight loss is to keep on keepin' on, to not give up, and to operate like a NORMAL PERSON and pick up where you left off if you fall off the wagon. I have lost a semi-significant amount of weight once before in my adult life. Of course, I gained it back and then more. When I started turning things around this year, I PROMISED myself I wouldn't let the bad times get to me. I promised myself that if I slipped, I would keep going. After all, my past gain started with a 10 pound bounce from 185 to 195. Can you imagine if I had just said "So what?" I  would be a very happy girl right now. I must be the most short-sighted person on the planet. I am very bad at processing what I am setting myself up for. So, here it goes. I finally started to really celebrate after reaching the 50 pound mark. 255 to 205. WELL, no sooner than I reached 205, I went on a 4-day mega binge and the scale now reads...are you ready? 219. OH YEAH. I know that is not ALL fat but regardless I feel like sh*t. All I can say is that after 1-2 months of really struggling, I was sick of it, and used some hurtful stuff I read on the internet as an excuse. (Stuff in magazines referring to "fatties," just random bull. But it really made me upset.) I am using this post as a tool to admit my mistakes and realize that I will HARDLY remember they even happened if I get back on the wagon and achieve, say, one of my goals which is wearing a normal size dress to my friend's wedding in July. I cannot let this get to me, man. Hope I didn't make your heads explode. I had to post this somewhere.  Who else would understand? :)

yes, fall down 100 times, get up 101.  Whatever it takes, my friend!!!! I am glad you got it off your chest.   Saaaaay, why don't you post that  insult to fatties that you read so we can blast on it witcha????

WARNING: this is NOT kid-friendly! (It's not porn but it is from a column in New York Magazine called "Sex Diaries." Here. The quotation was "The subway system is chock-full-o' fatties." Honestly, I don't fault anyone, man or woman, for being attracted to a certain body type...but I feel bad for whoever has it in them to write like that and think it's funny. Yeah, I know it's nothing, but I was having a bad day and it really set me off. Interestingly enough, this week's installment is from someone labeled the "Fat-No-Longer Woman." I wonder if they got complaints? Probably just a coincidence.

Okay, this guy is waaay too into himself! omg...he is exactly the kind of guy that i would not give the time of day to. True, he would not give ME the time of day either, so we are on the same page here.  Yeah, I get what you are saying. In this particular example, i'd rather be alone than with this one way jerk.

I'm glad you came to us and got it off your chest.  I sort of did the same thing last week, putting it out there that I was struggling on weekends.  Since I made myself accountable with that post I have been doing better and some of my confidence and determination has returned.  I am hoping by the end of next week I will see a loss.  I hope it does the same thing for you. 

We've all been there and we must always fight even though we slip up and sometimes it takes a while for us to get back on track.  We must learn to try and ignore ignorant people.  Good luck to you! Brenda

you are so right to get the train turned around right now.  You just keep on checking in and being honest.  That will keep you moving in the right direction over all! take care..

Thanks for the post, Sonora.  I'm having a hard time lately, too.

As long as I stay at home in my controlled environment, I do great!  But if I venture out in the world and have to eat out, or if there's sweets around, I'm in trouble and find the temptation too hard not to give in to.

It all started with a church picnic.  Free hamburgers and hot dogs and everyone brought a dessert.  Well, while visiting with people and having fun, sometimes I don't realize how or what I'm eating.  I just wolf it down.  Then when THEY are enjoying dessert, I feel justified to do so, too.  Needless to say, I overate.....BIG TIME!!!  Then, yesterday, my neighbor came over with left over birthday cake.  It was soooo good, I couldn't help it.  I ate way over one piece. My scale is only showing a 1 lb. gain, but it might be more tomorrow.  I'm back on track (cuz I'm back home in my cocoon), and I'm exercising again.  Couldn't last week.  Was out of town taking care of sick parents. So there's my confession.  Hope this post helps me "stay accountable" and back on track. Bren

 

Confessions are a good purge.  It's healthy to purge your system of things that weigh you down.  I think this post was a great tool for you.  I hope it works well.  Best of luck Sonora!!

Thank you guys! Honesty is key. Most of our mistakes are no big deal...it's how we pick up from them that really determines our trajectory. So much easier said than done though, right? It feels good to be honest about where I'm at. Time to pick up and keep going. Once I get this weight off I know I will look back on this and realize it didn't really matter.

Quick update. Thank you guys again for the support! I'm happy I stopped there and didn't continue to do damage. The good news is that I seem to have dropped the water weight portion of my gain and am at 210 now. Knowing that it was probably 5 pounds of fat as opposed to 14 feels much better. I'm still kind of on edge, but once I get back to 205 I will be pretty happy. ONWARDS AND DOWNWARDS! I am going to really keep up the honesty thing from now on. I think it helps.