Alli check in

I weighed in this morning at 265.8, for a loss of .6 pounds this week I am glad that I didn't gain, but slightly annoyed that it's only .6 of a pound. All together, I am down 20 pounds since mid June This week I need to focus on exercising, and incorporating more fruit into my meals Overall, I am feeling good about the progress I have made, and I am now 5.8 pounds away from pre-pregnancy goal weight. I haven't gotten the results of my labs back yet - they were going to test the thyroid situation, and then the first week of November I go back for a fasting insulin test... That is the most important test of all... If my insulin is not regulated by then, I have to keep working to loose and get that under control before I get pregnant. In light of all the recent goings on in my life, I haven't really felt like posting or responding, so I will make a concerted effort to share more... Hope everyone has a great weekend..

Snuggle.... Girl where you been?  How you been?  Congrats on you weight loss so far.... We miss you 'round here!!!

Thanks DIVA... you know, ever since my Grandfathers death, I have been struggling with so many feelings, that I feel to overwhealmed to even write about it. I took a huge step this week, by writing a letter to some relatives to clear up my feelings on some family stuff that I was holding in for 15 years. That letter was the catalyst for me to stop blaming myself for their behavior. I haven't heard from any of them yet.. I mailed the letters out on Monday, and I am waiting for them to make the next move. I am slowly getting back to normal...... and I hope to post more often on the weeks to come.. Thanks everyone for your thoughts and support, they mean alot to me to know that somewhere out there, someone is thinking of me, and wishing me well....

  I hope things go well for you with your letters.  At least you got some things off your chest.  You have so much going on lately.

I want to keep my fellow St. Louisan around.    Brenda

 

I'm not going anywhere toots....

(((snugs)))) You are doing well...at the very least you are not flailing and letting your physical health be compromised.

Family stuff can be very hard - it lives at the very center of us. Pretty much all of us have a family story to tell about abandonment, abuse, misunderstanding, secrets, etc. I am glad to hear you are trying to confront some feelings.  I would only advise you to be as loving as is possible, while being strong enough to set boundaries where needed. All of have to get to a place where our childhood/family situations are left behind as part of another life. Somebody else was in control of you the first 18 years...now it's all YOU baby girl. Let your light shine and make your little family the best it can be.

Twenty pounds is awesome and congrats on being so close to your pre-preg weight goal!  You're doing awesome.  Keep up the good work!