I'm astonished

"I'm melting, I'm melting!" Well, the weight is now moving at a big clip.  300 may very well happen within a week. I am so grateful to my trainer for opening my eyes and guiding my efforts and for having patience with my impatience. My trainer and I had a bit of a tiff recently because I was impatient.  So what does fate do?  Hastens the movement on the scale and then when I go to put on a coat to address today's chill, I'm swimming in it like a little girl in her momma's clothes. I am so grateful to be strong, capable, and able to eat and enjoy food. I'm loving this!!!

YAY!!!!

It is terrifying to EAT when one is fat. I am very acquainted with that feeling of fear. Good for you.

Food is not the enemy - it is our abuse of it.  That is very hard to grasp.

I hear ya, though I never abused it in the traditional sense--most people presume an obese person lives on binges.  For me, the binges were very few, what was more constant was undereating and not working out hard enough.  I know my situation is not the stereotype, but I just wanted to comment in case anyone else out there is experiencing the same thing.  I also think what we think abuse is and how to lose weight is as much a root cause of obesity and the difficulty in losing weight.

i certainly don't think getting fat needs to be about binges...one can bite-size snack her way to 300+ pounds no problem, OR....eat more than plenty of healthy food OR gain 12 pounds in a year - for ten years.  I meant that gaining weight = eating too much for the body in question = not constructive behavior = abuse. A calorie is a calorie no matter how it gets there, and at some point, a 300+ person ate too much for body needs. Eating can get not only scary but confusing.  The word binge has become ambiguous too.   The very word has a mental image for most of us that is errr, not charming. I've heard people here call eating a few 100 cal oreo packs a binge.

For me, I basically have been in "starvation mode" where my weight stalled for so many years, that that's where my head goes.  I was maintaining or gaining on very little intake because my metabolism was wrecked by years of dieting. So, yes, in theory, even if 1000 calories was 300 calories too many for my wrecked metabolism, you are right.  I just wasn't sitting there overeating for a normal, healthy body or appetite.  That's my distinction.

Jersey.. congrats to ya!!!  That is a good feeling!!

Congratulations!  Well Done!

Congratulation!!!!   I know it must feel wonderful to put on something that used to fit and now it is too big.  Glad you and your trainer came to terms and he was able to help you. You are to be congratulated for getting a trainer and working out. Keep up the good work.

YEAH...that's great news 

Way to go!