Temporary failure, frustrated, embarassed

Hi Christa, I was thinking about you this weekend b/c I remembered your last post and I know how tough it really can be.  Fast food is my nemesis.  I wi**** wasn't but it is.  Now I see how easy it was, they slowly made the portions bigger over the years (they even added the big kids' meal-my fave).  I just can't go near it b/c I still don't think I could moderate it.  That would be like going into a bar for an alcoholic. The other day I thought I binged b/c everything I had was really good and I enjoyed it so much.  When I look back on it I ate half of my breakfast.  I dealt with one meal at a time and gave up the things that I thought would save me.  Deprivation works the opposite for me.  If I don't give myself a little breathing room at some point I know I will crack and end up having a bigger slip somewhere down the road.  If this to me was an "uhoh" day I look at it as a good thing b/c if I were saying, "eh, it's not that bad"  I could easily turn half a breakfast into three quarters, and spiral from there. Now when it comes to fast food, I still don't trust myself and don't know whether I ever will. Confessing for me has really helped me work on these problems.  Even if I just write it down for myself and look at it and then go back to it.  I think about how it made me feel and whether it was worth it.  It helps me for the next time.  This has been helping me deal with binges.  I haven't had a binge in about 4 weeks.  I've eaten a few extra things some days but all healthier choices like jello, fruit, cool whip, popcorn.  Sometimes I force myself to drink a glass of water fast before I eat anything just to make sure I take a minute to think about it.  The more you try, the better chance you have of stumbling upon something that works for you.  No one way is the right way.  The right way is whatever works for you.  The only guaranteed road to failure is not trying.  You're trying so you are already successful.  And CONGRATULATIONS on your fast food challenge.  Try counting by meals and even snacks.  Each time you make a choice not to have it, that adds to your commitment.  If you fall off, just start another challenge and see if you can beat it by one. Thanks for the pep talk though, I needed it.  It made me go work out.  Did a little hip hop abs and some turbo!

I journal things at night also.  But the others are right, you didn't do that bad!  And I immediately saw you were trying to portion control on alot of things.  It reminded me of yesterday.  I thought forsure I was over the limit of my calorie intake for the day.  But once I sat down and figured it out, I actually had 400 more calories to eat!  If I know I'm going to be eating a bigger portion or bad food that day, I journal it in the morning so I can work around it.  It seems to be working quiet well!  I think you should be proud of yourself that you portion control quite well on some things.

You are not a failure, we all mess up sometimes