Temporary failure, frustrated, embarassed

Part of me is just so ashamed and embarrassed.  I've been doing fairly well with trying to stay the course with a healthy lifestyle.  Well, today was a disaster.  Not as much of a disaster as it could have been-as it WOULD have been before, but it still sucks.  I know tomorrow is a new day and I will try my best to get back to it.  I hope I can put it behind me and not beat myself up too much.  I just hope I didn't set myself back a week (or MORE) b/c of it. I guess I just needed to put it out there and vent.  I know what I did and what I didn't do and how many calories and fat and oh I just can't go on...  Here's the damage 2/3 western omelet 1/4 strip of bacon 1 slice dry rye toast 1/2 cup of sliced potatoes with onions 6 oz fresh squeezed OJ 6 oz grilled chicken breast medium baked potato plain,  no butter or toppings 1 cup of broccoli 1/2 of reeses' brownie ( from a bakery about 2x3") 10 oz nonfat milk I had at least 2 diet cokes (with caffeine) today too! :( I just want to cry about it.  I think my hormones took over, which doesn't make it right.  I'm glad I still have not had any fast food, but I know I could have done better.  Should have done better.  I guess I just needed to confess my "sins" Tomorrow is a new day and I WILL do better. Beth

Hey there!  I think you are being FAR FAR FAR to hard on yourself!!!  Don't you DARE CRY for eating this today!   It is OKAY! For starters- as I read over WHAT you ate... the AMOUNTS you ate... it is SO obvious that you WERE IN CONTROL!  Other wise... do you think you would have eaten HALF the brownie??? I know *I* would have eaten ALL the brownie!  And 1/4 strip of Bacon!?  You were very mu*****ONTROL!   Breakfast seemed like a lot but if you look at how well you really did the rest of the day... breakfast was just FINE!  Pat yourself on the back girl!

I'm not sure what WL program you are following, but I just did a mock day with my WW program and I think you did DAMN GOOD today!  For a day you felt you needed to "slip" a bit... you really did OKAY!   

They have me on 24 points per day (up until Monday I was allowed 25) I am allowed 35 points extra per week- I rarely use ANY of those extra points. So if I go over a bit... these are taken from my extra 35. They are left there FOR that :)

If you were on MY plan... you would have only used up 25.5 points girlfriend!  I look at it this way- even if you are NOT working with WW... they gage their point system with calories/fat and all that considered.... so REALLY, you did NOT DO so BAD! 
This is my mock up meals for the day (your meals- as best as I could pull it up on the tracker): 2/3 western omelet=     7 points 1/4 strip of bacon=        .5 points 1 slice dry rye toast=     1 point 1/2 cup of sliced potatoes with onions=     1.5 points 6 oz fresh squeezed OJ=     1.5 points 6 oz grilled chicken breast=     6 points medium baked potato plain,  no butter or toppings=     3 points 1 cup of broccoli= 0 points 1/2 of reeses' brownie ( from a bakery about 2x3") =     3 points 10 oz nonfat milk =     2 points
I had at least 2 diet cokes (with caffeine) =     0 points

Hey Beth

Chunkymama is right! You did not even go that wrong today! (considering the ww program)
Maybe your program is stricter, it must be if even diet coke is not allowed. But please don't beat yourself up over it.
The best thing is, as Chunkymamka pointed out, you were in control.Before, would you have eaten only 1 half brownie? Or a whole pakcet???

Tip: try to devide the days in parts. So if you mess up, don't say: I'll start over tomorrow, today is gone. Say: I'll start over at the next start of a day part (morning, afternoon, evening) and then start with your normal diet meal. Do NOT skip that meal just start the next part of your day as if nothing happened. A good exercise.

The best thing is, you are not letting it slip for the whole week, you came here and you'll start over. Thin people also have to deal with binges and they just have a quiet week afterwards.

SUCCESSS!!!!!!!

Thank you for the words of encouragement.  I think that since I had PMS (first time since I started eating really good 4 weeks ago) and did not have my safety net (my plan) that I FELT more out of control.  It's different to weigh and measure and cook what you are eating b/c you know everything that was used in making it.  I went into and out of breakfast ok but thought that I would be getting back on track right after.  I wasn't expecting the change in plans afterwards and found myself in dangerous territory. These are all important things to learn from anyway b/c I can't always have the security of making it ourselves and knowing exactly what's in everything so it was probably good to have to tackle something like that and continue to do so along the way to have experience in dealing with the situations again and making decisions I can live with. I think I would have been comfortable with everything I had yesterday except for the brownie.  Sweets ands fast food are big triggers for me and I am probably just afraid of dealing with them. I've gotten a lot from reading others post experiences where they haven't had a good day and thought it would be beneficial and cathartic for me to do that as well.  I know that Violamom had a day not too long ago and it's something I could definitely relate to and I think I learned from it as well. Seeing it in "points" perspective really helped.  Thanks!

first, get out of the shame spiral. not useful at all. remove the word "should' from your vocabulary. it only serves to induce guilt. again, not helpful or useful. secondly, let's reality check a little bit. i don't see anything wrong with this menu at all. could you have made better choices? maybe. SHOULD you have made better choices? i don't see why.  1/4 piece of bacon? a plain potato? skim milk? for shame! what exactly are you upset about? that you didn't follow your plan? that you ate half a brownie? don't be so hard are yourself. both brownies and bacon deserve a place in a well balenced meal plan. this is exactly what the diet mentality is about and why diets nearly always fail. if this makes you ashamed and embarassed, you might have a really difficult time maintaining your diet plan for the rest of your life. breakfast potatoes happen. brownies happen. these are NOT sins. a day like this will not set you back a week. or even a day in my opinion, unless you allow it to. and what is wrong with diet coke???? do you monitor your food? i would encourage you to actually put all this in your journal, computer program whatever you use and see what the calories are. i'm sure you are under 2000 calories, which is fine for a day. man if this is horrible for you, i hesitate to think what you say about my daily intake!

I've actually lost a lot of weight and maintained but eventually gained it back due to a string of life cir****tances.  Also, I am a strong believer that no food should be excluded from the diet.  I think my issue is more that I chose to have a lot of things in one day that I normally would prefer to have eaten.  I probably overreacted b/c maybe I didn't write my food down.  I usually write my food down before I eat it.  I've only really been back on the wagon for a little more than 4 weeks now.  I write all my food down and later enter it in my extrapounds account.  I look at the food now and it doesn't really seem bingy at all to me.  It is more important to me that I was able to moderate everything I had today.  The security of structure was what I didn't have yesterday and when I got to the end of the day there was almost a feeling of panic as to whether I could trust myself to go a whole day without some sort of plan to my eating.  I realize that control is another extreme that i don't want.  Putting it out here for everyone to see, sleeping on it and coming back helped me to go back to balance.  I got up, had special k red berries and a glass of nonfat milk and things were status quo.  I might equate it a little bit with buyer's remorse, when you get that "OMG, what have I done?!" feeling. Diet Coke, my lifeblood.  LOL.  I'm not supposed to have caffeine for medical reasons although I do have a little bit here and there.  It's really the only vice that I have b/c I am not supposed to drink alcohol, I don't smoke and haven't been eating fast food any more.

Sweetie.... You did not do as bad as you think.... you have lots of protein...  Looks as thought you heaviest meal was in the morning.... you done probably burned those calories off already.....  Cheer up... tomorrow is a new day..... We all need at least one cut up day.... 

I write down my food on paper and later input it into the computer.  Obviously, it is an estimate b/c I did eat in restaurants yesterday but I tried to be generous on the portion side to make up for any extra calories.  I got about 1400 calories total.  The only number that came up a little high was the protein. I guess when we're more mindful of portions and what we are consuming it does make a  big difference.  When I really look at everything the I've written down and also thinking about some of the choices I did make like not putting butter on my baked potato or slice of toast-those things really made a difference.  This makes me feel like I have made some progress.  Now for the next challenge.  My mom is bringing home pizza, salad and garlic rolls.  I better make sure I eat a lot salad before I eat anything else!  Wish me luck.

what?  that is not bad at all.  That is pretty typical weekend fare for me.  All I can say to critique it is, perhaps smaller portions at the breakfast sitting. I'm serious...that's about the worst of it.

I feel you did great. Don't be so hard on yourself. I mean you wanna trade meals? lol. I'd take that one over my binge :) If you feel you have failed then keep on kickin you know everyday is a new day! And you're doing great! :) You always inspire me to try and do better because you have not had Fast food, and well I am one day out with no fast food lol. So keep on kickin!