DESPERATELY needing an answer! RANT RANT

The trick as I understand it to very low calorie diets is to eat a balance of the right type of food to promote muscle health -- i.e. HIGH PROTEIN. So your body does not cannibalize the muscle mass because the kind of food it needs to keep the muscle running is there, despite the low overall caloric intake. That's where protein shakes help out, they bump up that protein and feed the muscle, without overly inflating your daily caloric intake.

yup..... Or you can eat a menu that is high in good quality, low fat protiens...  I get about 100 g of protein a day.... on 1300 to l500 cals without shakes

Viola the more I read from you the more I think you and I are on the same wavelength on diets!

I just don't have much to say anymore.  I havne't given up, but It's obvious i'm not going to lose any weight either. Yesterday I slacked off on the bike.. only did 25 minutes... did 3.65 miles in that time so I was putting effort into it, I'm  gettng up and leaving he house even to walk round a store blah blah... but.. it's nothing more than a lesson in futility................soooooooooooooo :-x

So quit doing it to lose weight.  Do it to make yourself healthier, more alive, more awake, energetic. Losing weight is overrated and fleeting.  Try measuring your arms..taking your body fat.  Then monitor that instead of the weight if you need something to monitor.   And stop beating the **** out of yourself for not losing.  Look at what youv'e done!  That's progress! That's something to be proud of!

Chris.... I'm trying so hard not to beat myself up.... but I feel like such a freakin' failure..like even my own body is against me   My body does feel better.. my hips don't hurt nearly as bad, my legs are stronger... I'm able to do more around the house and ALL at once too.. not taking 50 breaks in betweeen.... so many positive things...my back is still screaming but I picked up a thigh master to try to strengthen it,  but I'm still OVER 300 LBS.. who the hell would hire me looking like this!  My doctor wrote me off to disability because of my lungs and neuropathic pain, but they say "sorry bout your luck", and now I'm looking around to see what I can sell to get a bottle of insulin.  I HAVE to get back to work.. and I can't do it with this weight on me.  I can't look decent in clothes, I can't stand on my feet for an 8 hour shift, I can't sit for too long behind a desk without having to move around.  I just know I can support myself instead of relying on my x husband if I can lose this weight...  or at least 1/2 of it.  (yes.. he's my x .. we have been divorced for 3 years).  This isn't fair to him and I'm tired of carrying around the guilt like a bag of bricks on my back too for relying on him.  I'm thanking God for him, I really am.... but he deserves a life.. yanno? it's imperative that I get this weight off.  Now I'm even measuring the sugar free creamer I'm putting in my coffee.. can we say "obsessed"?  So.. here I go again... gonna go clean this house within an inch of it's life, get on the bike, and if there's time I'm going to go find a curves so I can do a little strength training.  I'll be back to post if I lose something... if not.. I'm just gonna lose my mind and lurk and read about everyone else's success.

I have to agree with Chris here....  You feel better...  that is a HUGE start.. the weight will come.... but health is the reason to do this.. not looks. FWIW measuring the coffee creamer is not obsessed.  It is CONTROL.  I measure everything.  I know that the minute I stop measuring my portions will creep up and I will start having little bites and snacks. I still think that your biggest issue is that you are not eating often enough - or enough for that matter.  I would love to get a look at your fitday journal.  Is it public?  Can we have a link?  You have been doing a HUGE amount of exercise - if your calories and protien are not adequate you will not lose.

"but I'm still OVER 300 LBS.. who the hell would hire me looking like this! " I interviewed for a new job back in April at ~480 pounds and started working with that company a few weeks later.

I was near 300 lbs when I got a job in a call center.  Got my insurance licenses there... was over 300 lbs when I took a job as support staff in a large Insurance office... was over 300 lbs when I arranged financing and purchased my own agency... it CAN be done

I got laid off back in November of 2006 and the ripe weight of 330lbs. This is the WORST time of year you can get laid off in the IT business.  Most companies are cutting back this time of year. So I found a job in early January at 330lbs.  Weight is not an issue in the job market.  I'm gonna be blunt with this, and I don't mean to offend, there's just no other way to put it. The only person *****ally cares how fat you are is you.  Everyone else is too wrapped up in their own drama they don't have time to worry about how fat you are. In most all of your posts, everything you have said has been negative. I can only recall maybe one or two that were positive.  In my opinion, this mentality is why you are not having success. You need to start believing you will succeed and start noticing the success you've had and count it as such.  In the famous words of mine and many other mothers, "Can't never could!"....  You're never gonna do it sitting there telling yourself you can't. Get up, get out and just get to it! I don't see any reason why you can't do what you say you can't do.  You've got legs and arms that work, you can breathe, and you can think. I mean unless you're 4'1" and 300lbs.. that might be a little difficult..Go look for a job, you'd be surprised what you can do at 300lbs. Quit using your weight as an excuse. Also, Quit expecting the weight to plummet off of you overnight. That's not going to happen. It could be weeks or months.  Weighing is bad for *you* because you obsess over it. If the number doesn't move you chastise and whip yourself. That's not healthy.  And last but definitely not least, have you gone to see a psychologist or psychiatrist?  You've got some emotional issues going on that you could use some help with. If it makes you feel any better.. You remind me of myself only a few months ago.  Every word out of my mouth was "I can't, I'm too fat!", "It's hopeless, I'm always gonna be a fat ass..I can't have surgery because insurance companies are evil.." or "It's not fair! Everyone thinks I'm disgusting!" and any other complaints that you can think of that would make me feel better about being fat. I'm a big complainer. Just ask Neecee...  I've also found that complaining about my problems is not conducive to change.  I've been making a conscience effort to NOT complain.  Hell, I haven't lost any weight in about 3 weeks. It'll come off eventually.. As long as I'm working towards my goal that's all that matters.. doesn't matter how long it takes for me to get there.