DESPERATELY needing an answer! RANT RANT

Oh thank you.. I knew I couldn't be the only one....  I just can't for the life of me, understand the gain.  Like many others, I've done this a hundred times and always saw some difference in the scale.. never a gain though.  I did the nutrisystem faithfully for a while so I know I was doing the correct portions.... but again.. it wasn't working with my sugar. I've been getting in some decent work outs considering I've been sedentary for a year and just a few minutes ago, my daughter agreed to take me walking.  This countryside is so beautiful but the last time I tried I couldn't get further than the bottom of the 500' driveway.. with help though, I know I can go further. I haven't broken out a tape measure yet.. I'm sorta afraid.  In fact, I couldn't even tell you what size I've been for 5 years.  If it stretches.. it fits.. that's all I know.  LOL  Right now I'd be happy with a pound a week.. I really would!  For my next doc appointment, I'll be  printing out the log on fit day and bringing it with me.  I don't know how one checks for hormonal things.. but there's gotta be a way..  I'm almost 45 and have been spending a lotta long sweaty nights for the past  year.. so who knows? I sweated through cleaning the house earlier, but I've been sitting here for at least an hour on this computer...   I'm gonna get on the bike right now and keep trying! Thank you

I feel your frustration, too.  I've been "at it" (but not as hard as you have) for 2 months now, and am just now seeing results in my clothes.  The scale fluxuates, so I don't rely on it too much. Keep up the good work, but don't work TOO hard, you'll get burned out and give up.  Just do the "lifestyle change" and the results will come....maybe slowly...BUT surely! Hang in there, and please try to cheer up.   I'll say a prayer that you see results and feel better about yourself. Bren

I did a lot of stretching today.... and got 5.5 miles on the bike at a little higher level.. 45 min total... gooooooooooood sweat. someone suggested I list the food so maybe people will see what's what and make suggestions. breakfast:  3 oz turkey with 2 slice of tomato lunch  3 oz turkey with 2 slice of tomato snack  1 oz turkey

dinner..  4 oz of white meat chicken with a cup and a half of mixed veggies

my sugar dropped dramatically so I went and got another 3 oz of turkey w/tomato.. just had that

I did all the calories on fitday and it came to about 800 and change.. mostly protein.. maybe I was having too much fat before?

that was today's menu

wow! just my opinion, but i definitely don't think that is enough food at all. are you following any sort of diet plan or just doing your own thing? can you get some more variety? a better balence of nurients? i know you said you are tryingto stay away from carbs, but there is a difference between no carb and low carb and good and bad carbs. you have to be giving you body enough to fuel your body and to burn the fat. like your metabolism is a fire and glucose fuels it. not enough food, not much fire. but most of all, you don't need to eat so little. why suffer needlessly? is that sustainable for you in the long run? thats what is really important when we're talking lifestyle change.  yeah i just moved to sc too so i don't know where aiken is. my map is in the car. i'm sort of near greenville...

I agree.  You aren't eating enough.  The worst thing about that is can wreak total havoc with metabolism b/c it forces the body into starvation mode.  If you also exercise at least 5 days a week you need to factor that in to calorie intake.  It's really important to have enough fuel to keep you healthy.  Another recommendation is to consider taking vitamins if you aren't already.  A multi-vitamin is great and also B-complex is great.  It helps with inflammation as well as stress. 

I use fitday software too.  Love it.  And a Tanita Ironman scale to measure weigh****er, BMR, BMI, etc. I'll tell you what my trainer said to me, why sit to workout?  (Bike).  Do the arc. I have to read back and see what you're doing for your core and strength.... Right off the bat, you look to me like you're a) eating too little and b) not working out at the right level. One thing I've learned from personal training is level of intensity. What I did before on my own was a 9 or 10 out of 10, what I do now is like a 15 or 20.  No comparison in effort or results.  I've got a tight build now I love and feel sexy at, even at 310 lbs. How you feel about yourself will change as you change.  Today I'm wearing a fitted top, ready to go down a size in jeans, high heels and I've been getting a lot more male attention and kudos from people...that inspires me to keep going.  Change your mind and you can change your shape.

oh. Bren.... thank you for the prayer.... I'm thinking I need to pass this night in prayer as well.... I think I haven't been praying enough lately... been so wrapped up in trying to lose weight that I'm neglecting my relationship with Jesus... thanks for gentle reminder!

Patience...that is my answer to what you need right now.  I also think you need to eat more.  Why not try to eat like you do all day, the turkey things every couple hours, then have a normal supper, like your lasagna, just a one cup serving and a ton of salad? It has worked for me to do that. I like and appreciate my real meal at the end of my day. Portions are the key. The scale depression thing...just take a reading and go with it. Five weeks is not a long time to change up your life.  I completely understand...I have been friggin angelic for weeks on end and lost zip at times.  We just need to keep on plugging, and keep trying.  No, not roll over and eat whatever we want as some kind of rebellion...keep on and feel the bummer times, but don't use that as a cop out to be a fool and undo everything!

One thing I didn't see you mention is your fluid intake. Are you getting in 6-8 glasses of fluids a day? The reason I ask is some low fat, low calorie foods, especially if you're talking about processed turnkey and chicken, can be high in sodium and that can make your weight go up if you're not taking in enough water or even if it's a certain time of the month. While this is purely water weight gain, I know I don't like to see a gain of any type. Donna

I'm gonna answer a couple of things with this one. 1.  Lasagne:  I'd have to fill a syringe with novolog just to keep my blood sugar to almost 300 for that.. lol..  that was me being sarcastic.  My body reacts pretty violently to certain foods.  3 tortellini spikes me 100 points.  So I avoid everything that will cause me to need more insulin.  I gotta get off of it... Soon I won't be able to pay for it so I'm working hard on cutting it down. 2.  Fluid Intake:  4 - 5  16.9 oz bottles of water w/1whole bottle while I'm on the bike.   At least 4 bottles of Lipton Diet Green Tea... <--nothing in it..I just like the flavor. 3.  The turkey I use is either Deli sliced.. the best that they have or one I've cooked.  I can't work right now so I'm home and I'm doing whatever I can to get better to get back in the work force.  I can't WAIT! 4.. No. I haven't been taking vitamins, but thank you for the reminder.  I have a doctor friend who rx's me KILLER vitamins when I ask for them.  I'll have to ask him for another rx. Ok..  food intake.. yesterday was just one day.  I'm sure you guys don't want to see what's what every single day.. I'm sure you have more important things to do.  It does switch up depending on what's in the house. I'm learning to love the mixed veggies.  Sometimes I get a zucchini out of the garden.  I keep the proteins to chicken or turkey unless I'm doing something with shellfish for everyone then I'll indulge by counting every mussel and shrimp and scallop.  Yesterday it was a low calorie count..... but I do have complete pig out days where I can hit 1300 calories... and I thought it was an improvement over what I was doing for the past several years.  I never ate breakfast, rarely ate lunch unless it was a deli sandwich (turkey and cheese on wheat with let, tom and mayo was my standard) and didn't eat dinner until 10:00pm because I didn't get home from wor****il late... took a swim and then started cooking. My breakfasts now also could be fake eggs!  Just that yesterday I was too tired and had too much to do (the kids left me a lovely mess in the kitchen)...so the turkey was convenient.   I've done very low calorie diets in the past.. 500 ... and I've lost weight.. and I'm fighting the urge to break out the protein shakes and do that again.  I'm REALLY learning things here.  I guess I'm just not there yet!  But I'm scared as hell of those higher calories.  If I can gain on 1200 calories.. how much more will I gain at 1500? Since I have a 700 mile drive to see my doctor, it'll have to wait a bit, but I will insist once and for all that he discuss this with me. OH.. there was another question about me following a particular diet.  I eat like a diabetic.  Smaller portions more often, eliminating carbs that break down too quickly, avoiding anything made with white flour, no breads (I used to eat Ezekial Bread but it's like cardboard).   I got the Nutrisystem for diabetics... but I was going through way too much insulin to keep up on it.  I'm at least 8 years uncontrolled so I'm shooting for control as much as weight loss. My only other worry is the coffee.... the creamer.  I examined that last night and it's 20 calories per tablespoon and I never measure.. so I'm worried I'm taking in a buttload more calories from that.  I hate to give up coffee... but maybe I gotta cut down to 2 cups a day. I also have to reiterate something... I KNOW I can't change my life in 5 weeks.  I thought I could lose 5 lbs in 5 weeks though..  years ago I could lose 20 lbs in 5 weeks.. so that's what's freaking me out big time. I can't thank you enough for helping me here..... I got more help in this forum in such a short time than I've had from trained physicians in YEARS!!!  I thank God for all of you!