life after (or near the end) of weight loss

I have been thin (tho i did not enjoy it, cuz I did not beleive it) and fat and now medium, so i SO appreciate my weight now. I am shocked when i now see pitcures that don't make me retch. I still grab for clothes that are way big for me. It is a weird habit to break. 

First, thank you to everyone for all of your comments.  I do go see a psychologist..once a week.  She's great and has been really helpful at drawing things out that I didn't even know were there...i've become a much more conscious person since talking to her. i just have so many issues with my body image.  i know that most women and men do, but for me to be here, almost 15 pounds away from my goal, and to still feel like that person i was before...it's very disconcerting to me.  it takes a lot for me to get out of my own head sometimes. i know that plastic surgery won't solve all of those problems...i don't have unrealistic expectations.  i am just going to give it all time, continue maintaining, and continue moving forward.  I still drag my azz to the gym six days a week, i still eat ultra-lite meals...i just feel like im still the person i was before.   anyway.  thanks again.  i've never really been a part of a forum where everyone was truly dedicated to the same cause.  it's a great feeling and the support is overwhelming in a very good way:)   lots of love, Julie