Try again....

Ok...so her we go ONCE AGAIN! Christa is going to try and keep everything on track and lose some weight...who wants to watch the circus of all of this? :) No but really, last night my family and I all went out to dinner for my brothers birthday. Well my other brother turned to me and said you know you have lost ALOT of weight since December....I went uh only 20 pounds. He said I seen the picture that grandpa has at the hospital and now you don't look like that. I'm like great I DO NOT want to see that picture! So I thought to myself...gosh you were doing so good what is your deal! I forgot oh yea I have some kind of wack eating disorder called BINGE ALL THE TIME! That can barely be controlled....because even when I am doing good eating healthy...I am still being bad I always seem to slip in something bad. But I went grocery shopping last night.  Lots of green veggies, and some fruit. And i have some turkey and chicken in the freezer so I didn't need that, oh and some lite-string cheese.  This is odd of me tho, because it is like a week or less before the TOM and cravings are literally unbarable for me. I have been eating out of control...and right now I am drinking a sugar free Red Bull which is only 10 calories, I love energy drinks....but that's besides the point. I have a salad in the fridge downstairs for lunch....all I can think about is like a big cheeseburger or a chicken sandwich omg help me! I just keep telling myself...cheeseburger may taste good but very bad! For dinner I plan on a little stir fry....chicken, broccoli, and pineapple with a little bit of sweet and sour sauce for taste....I used to eat that ALL the time while I was dieting. And I have laundry to do tonight too..that'll keep me a little busy so I don't eat um and I can play with the cat.  You know what! I want to lose a good amount by Halloween...LET ME TELL YOU WHY! :) I freaking LOVE Halloween, and I remember last year, I was kelly Osbourne if you haven't seen it, it is on my myspace page it was the most awsome costume EVER! But I remember the picture that my boss took...omg I looked like a balloon. And this year I want to wear something a little sexy...if i could lose 20 pounds by then that would make me uh 236...which would be uh a size 20 and damnit i remember a size 20 I look pretty good :) So I have like 2 months and a week....here I come Halloween eat your heart out baby!  Thanks for ready kids.

You can do it Christa.....  My hubby met me ... I was 234... and I was brick house......  Whew.. I was fine.... So I here ya...  You can do it.. I know you can!!!! 

That's it Christa PUMP YOURSELF UP!  It's all in your mind.  Maybe you should keep looking at the before and after picture for inspiration.

Brenda

 

Thanks you two! I appreciate it. I changed my ticker...so I would be taking one goal at a time instead of looking a the long run.  So goal is 20 pounds....then when I reach that I will change it to another 20 pounds. :) I think that will make it easier for me.

It's totally doable, Christa! You can do it!

Thanks Shari, it is doable. And it is going to get done!!

you can do it, Christa!! my only advice is to get an accountability buddy. someone who will remind you (even if you hate them doing it!!!) that you really SHOULDN'T eat that piece of fudgey gooey goodness or that enormously wonderful pasta dish... I realize that everyone says you can only be accountable for yourself and blah blah blah...well, BULLS#IT. when you're wanting a carb fix, it's always good to have someone who won't let you find the excuse to actually go for it. OR someone who will not be afraid to tell you they thought it was wrong afterward. is this making any sense? who knows. all I'm saying is you'll def. do this if you want to. Also, I like the idea of having a short-term ticker...I resisted the ticker until i got within the end range because looking at a ticker barely moving SUCKS. I didn't have the foresight to just make a short term ticker. lol

That is a wonderful idea....but.....I don't have anyone that can do that. I live alone by myself, no boyfriend or anything so umm it's just me and my kitten. Basically i am on my own. But I just have to keep it all in mind what my goal is!

You've got a great support person in that kitten there.  Do you realize how much you can "NOT" eat by sharing your plate with him? LOL!  Seriously! try it! i'm sure he/she will love the table scraps!  Not to mention you can sit there and talk to it for hours and it'll never judge you! lol You know you can do this! Stop doubting and kicking the **** out of yourself!

Contrary to popular belief. it's not a bad thing to feed your animal what you'd eat..  i mean.. would you eat cat food?  probably not.. neither does your cat really want it.  anyway.. i digress.

Christa -  first, if you didnt say so last night, call your brother and say thank you for the compliment.   second, I hear ya on the TOM cravings.  I just barely made it through myself.  The one thing I did allow myself was a half cup of chocolate sorbet every night for 4 nights.   It really made it better.  I just brought home the sorbet and divided it into those half cup glad containers and each night I took one out of the freezer.  All day I reminded myself that If I stayed away from the M&M's in the lobby I could have sorbet that night - and it worked! Keep your food journal - one day at a time.  Why not report here to us for a while?