annoyed

so i've had 3 days of good eating and good working out and have not lost an ounce. i'm used to my weight bouncing around, as in "its water weight" from my screwups. so when it doesn't bounce around, i guess that means its really fat. i've weighed exactly the same since sunday morning. i've been using dailyplate, which i find so much more user friendly than fitday, so i'm excited about that. i also finally pulled out my firm infomercial program that i ordered like 2 months ago and did the first video. it was a strength training video and i was sore the next day since its been so long since i did disciplined. and i've been waking up earlier to get a quick 15 minute walk in before i go to work. anyway, i'm discouraged. it doesn't help that yesterday - i'm walking down stairs to go to the kitchen to pop my 100 calorie bag of popcorn and this woman coming up the stairs says "are you from weigh****chers?" what the heck??? i mean i was wearing a freaking plastic nametag that has my name engraved on it! i've been working here for 3 weeks! anyway i walked away feeling confused and mildly insulted, i'm not sure why. i guess the implication is "you look like you should be going to weigh****chers." i dunno. it was still upsetting. 

LOL...are you from WW!  Maybe she thought you were a group leader!  Sounds like you are getting a plan down. I predict you will get addicted to that morning walk...I have long ago de-emphasized its weight loss contributions (and of course I know they are there), but rather have come to love that time alone to plan my day, ponder about stuff.  It is a major stress management tool. These days, not many of us take the time to think anymore. Just think.  And for that scale not budging...stop looking every day. Just keep it up, all what you are doing.  GOOOO Andy!

yeah i should go out for a real thinking walk, but i'm just not able to get up that early. its only like 7 pm and i could go to bed right now. i've just been doing 15 mins on the treadmill first thing just to get the blood moving and help wake me up. today i wore my pajamas when i walked (the pleasure of living on my own - don't tell). i know i should toss my scale. but i'm an addict....

Hey andrea!! I'm hopping on you pity bandwagon.  I've been doing the same stuff, back to protein, upping the cardio, and I am not moving either.  Actually I gained a pound, go figure.  For the past few days I have been wickedly swollen.  I'm 4 months out from LBL but I hadn't had any significant swelling.  I also can't pee for some ungodly reason.  All I do is trickle, even though the urge is there.  I am thinking I may have a UTI but there is no burning during urination.  I know, TMI. LOL

The way I look at it is this is life long, period.  I am trying so hard to just realize that this is my life and that if I just follow my plan I'll be fine. 

Shari asked me the other day what if anything the 30 pounds I want to get off is doing to my life?  Like, why is it so important to me?  I couldn't completely answer her.  For me it's the end of my journey that started 2 years ago.  I guess I saw something that hasn't been completed yet and I focus on that end.  I think we've spoken about this before, that if we stop having something to look forward to, like PS or more weight loss, we won't know what to do.  We are all entirely too OCD!!!! As far as the WW thing, I'm thinking she saw you with the 100 calorie pack thing and associated it with WW???

i know its a life thing - i resigned myself to that long ago. that realzation however does not make it any easier. i just would like to feel more comfortable in my clothes and feel better about myself. feel healthier etc. i know it will never be over and that i will always have to be vigilant. the loser lady couldn't tell i had a 100 cal pack of popcorn - its not packaged like the other 100 cal packs are. whatever. i'm still thinking about it....grr...

I just looked at your before and after pictures and you look amazing!  Hell with the WW comment.  Maybe like Donna said she was just curious because of the popcorn bag.  People are always interested in diets.  I know I look at the scale too often and should wait at least a week due to water weight fluctuations.  You have accomplished so much on your own, don't underestimate that.  You will get the scale moving again.   Good luck! Brenda

 

thanks for the compliments. i do try to remind myself that i'm still 100 lbs down. i just don't want to keep saying that and have it be like "well at least i'm still 90/80/70 lbs down." i know i can do it. i just would like my body to start cooperating. its been so long since i've been where i am comfortable. and i'm not very patient. *sigh*

Honey, I think she meant that you look like you're one of the weigh****cher leaders, not a member, considering you had a name tag on.  My company hosts weigh****chers at work so I think that's what she thought - that you were one of those ladies.  Lord knows you're skinny enough.

Discouragement sucks ass.  Try not to worry about it too much - it's only been 4 days.  Are you close to your TOM? That could be pushing against weight loss.  Keep your weighings down to once a week so you don't go through issues like this.  I bet a week from last Sunday, you'll be down at least a pound.  In the meantime, stick to the great program you've got going for yourself.  You'll do fine!

i've decided i just can't think anymore about the WW thing. i'm sure she is just a flake - i'm trying not to cognitively distort the situation any more than i have.... once a week - HA! i wish. maybe try it one day at a time. i'll try not to weigh tomorrow.... i'm going to go make me some shirataki noodles. then collapse into bed. thanks for your encouraging words.

Sorry you are having a rough time Andy, but it sounds like you have a really good plan in place now that you're a little more settled there. Please try as hard as you can to step away from the scale! I know it's easier said than done, but at least you can try. On a slightly shallower note, can you tell me what you do with shirataki noodles? I could tolerate them a few years ago and recently revisited them....well, I could NOT get the smell off and the meal was terrible. It wasn't just a bad batch either. Feel better! It takes a very strong person to lose the weight you have, which I know I've said before. Anyone who can do that can beat this bump in the road, with a good plan in place.