After 2 weeks of doing so well

I had a binge last night. Fortunatley it wasnt as bad as it could have been.  There really wasnt much food in the house...  I did manage to shove an unneeded 1200 calories down my gullet.  I felt sick afterwards, mentally and physically, for a while I actually thought I might throw up..

I did write down every thing I ate.  Because all the food in the house is pre-portioned it was easy to calculate the damage. Today is a new day. 

The feeling sick part will probably stop you from wanting to do it again anytime soon.  Yes, today is a new day and your not giving up.  

Brenda

 

Oh unfortunatley the feeling sick part has never been a detterent.  I was suprised at how FAST it came this time.  I wonder if that is because of my changed eating habits over the last few weeks....

My last binge before changing my eating (about a month ago I guess) consisted of enough taco bell for 3 people and 32 ounces of diet soda.... and yes, that my body did reject quite forcefully... If I eat enough I will hurl, and afterwards feel fine.  Last night I managed to gain control before that point and had to suffer a bit.

OH man, at least you can hurl!!  When I do crap like that I have to suffer allll night long.

I hurl easy - way easy... I dont ride in the backseat on roadtrips...  anything on the water....  too much wine...  if food is just a little bit "off"  even nervousness and stress.. I am not sure that is a good thing though

I think a happy medium would be better.   I wouldn't want to hurl unless I did something to really warrant it.. Like devouring 20 chicken wings, celery, and fries or  inhaling a 2lb bag of reese's pieces.

I'm sooo sorry Ms. Liz'beff--- focus on how physically crappy it makes you feel--that always helps me. I don't miss the sluggy carb coma days, they were becoming too frequent and too debilitating.

take it easy, mama.

thanks -

 

I'm back on track and doing pretty well today.  What I am trying to figure out right now is WHY?? was it business stresses?  Was something said at dinner that I responded to?  Is it just the PMS?  I fell, I got up.  That I can deal with.  What I want to know now is WHY I fell and HOW can I prevent it in the future??

Why? In simple terms? 'Cuz yer a junkie, Mom! (Aren't we all?) I think one way to prevent blow outs is to have planned "splurges"...i.e. "August 17th we will go to Outback and I will order whatever I like." Another is to not have tempting things around (easier for me as I live alone.) PMS does go a LONG waaaaayyy towards creating cravemonsters, too. Women's bodies really want to store fat- it's hard-wired.

yep - I'm a junkie...LOL  and I know that I have to avoid dangerous situations until I can handle them.. When I quit smoking (gosh 8 years ago now) I had to avoid anything to do with smoking.  I would not touch an ashtray.  I didnt have a lighter in the house, used wooden matches to light candles!  I simply could not have anything to do with things that triggerd me.

in the early weeks I couldnt even fill my own car with gas.  I would drive to my parents, give my dad a 20 and wait while he went and filled my tank (oh if only 20 would by a tankful!) you see convenience stores were where I bought my cigs.... so I couldnt go there for about a month!  not until I was strong enough.

of course I cannot avoid all food.  But I never avoided all smoking either!  I went places where people smoked.  They would place a pack of MY BRAND on the table and I would refuse to touch it.  I knew if I touched it to pu**** out of the way I would SMOKE 'EM! So I need to figure out what my triggers are so I can avoid them.  The only reason my binge wasnt 5000 calories last night was because there was no food in the house!  LOL here is what I DID eat.  I know that I wanted the carbs and fat.  that is pretty clear.... 

Wasa Wasa Crispbread - Sesame evening snack	1.00	60	2g	0mg	85mg	9g	0g	1g	2g
Quaker Cracker Jack Butter Toffee Rice Cakes with Toffee Pieces evening snack	4.00	240	2g	0mg	280mg	52g	16g	0g	4g
regular butter evening snack	2.00	200	22g	60mg	180mg	0g	0g	0g	0g
Coffeemate Vanilla Caramel Creamer evening snack	3.00	105	5g	0mg	30mg	15g	15g	0g	0g
French Bread Roll evening snack	1.00	125	1g	0mg	0mg	25g	0g	2g	4g
Albertsons 1% Milk evening snack	0.25	33	1g	4mg	40mg	4g	4g	0g	3g
Haagen-Dazs Fat Free Sorbet Strawberry evening snack	1.00	120	0g	0mg	10mg	30g	30g	1g	0g
Kroger Sourdough English Muffin evening snack	1.00	130	1g	0mg	220mg	26g	2g	1g	5g
Phildephia Light Cream Cheese evening snack	4.00	240	18g	60mg	600mg	8g	8g	0g	12g

I have come to the conclusion that this is one of 2 things... It could be that the sprit zer0 that I had with dinner triggered the craving, maybe the white rice I had with dinner too (both foods that I have avoided for the last few weeks).  It may be the PMS too, or a combination of the 3. What I do know is that when PMS comes around again I will not have sweets in the house.  If I want to binge it will have to be on chicken and broccoli.