Why I posted my pics...

hey, when i fell years ago on my skates..my tailbone took 2 YEARS to get all the way better.  I could not sit long enuf to watch a movie. It sucks..there is not much docs can do!

 

And when people notice my loss, I feel great...tho i have like this tiny part of me that says i'm going to let you down next time you see me.  working with that negativity!

All of what you have said basically sucks.  I can only imagine what it feels like coming down from that high you were on when  you were working out steadily and losing weight BEFORE the WLS.  All I can say is give it time.  Maybe when you get into a better pattern going back to school and all, it will ease that crappy feeling. As far as going back "different" yeah, I know what you are saying.  Back in 2005 when I started this stuff (god it's been 2 years) I started it on July 7.  Being that I work in a school and I do work summers, I didn't see most of the people until they came back in September.  That gave me a solid two months in which time I lost almost 60 pounds.  Sadly it too****il 80 pounds before anyone even noticed at all (big fat hog I was), but some noticed right off.  It was highly uncomfortable.  I think the worst thing is walking down the hall and someone saying "hey skinny."  I don't know, but hey skinny sounds as bad as hey fattie.  I don't know why, perhaps the total focus on looks and labeling.  I dunno, I'm a bit psycho. You went into this with such an amazingly positive attitude and the pity party is definitely appropriate.  Just take it day by day and do what you can, isn't that all we can ask of ourselves in the end?

I hear you, Donna.  When I lost 50 pounds before my last pregnancy I HATED being called skinny because it just wasn't true.  Yes, I was thinner than I had ever been but was by no means skinny.  Women who were thinner than me didn't/don't get called skinny.   I always felt like it was a bad joke like "Little John" in Robin Hood who was far from little.

Shari, I really friggin' suck at comforting people but I just wanted you to know that I really hate it for you. I know how it feels to be disappointed in your results especially when others around you who haven't worked as hard have better results.  It's a difficult burden to bear. I think you're the right person for the job though. I don't believe I've ever met a person as headstrong as you.  To tell you the truth, I didn't see eye to eye with you when you first started posting on this board. As time has progressed I've grown rather fond of reading your posts, your rants, and even now your pity posts. :)  I know you'll hang in there! 

If it would make you feel better I could start whining so you won't have time to?

nah-- I just needed to hone down my whine to one central one: It's a bummer to be in pain AND not losing weight. Once either of those things changes, I'll feel a hell of alot better about what I've done to myself. I'm a "Just Do It" sort of gal, but that's borne of necessity: I was against a hard wall and had very little other choice. You still have wiggle room, so you wiggle. Thing is, one day soon you'll need to make a commitment-- either to change and better yourself or live as you like and pay the consequences. Everyone has their own place where the rubber hits the road: you just haven't really hit yours yet. When you do, the whining will stop, and you'll be all about decisive action.  I know you didn't dig me-- ask Bert-- it's the haircut.  ;)

Nah, it wasn't the haircut, I just thought you were an egotistical, self-centered, dogmatic ***** Lol, just kidding of course. It was really that I was wallowing in my own self-pity and low self-esteem and didn't want to hear that vanity wouldn't bring me prolonged happiness. Nor did I want to hear that I should love myself and that I COULD love myself. So naturally, your honesty about those subject perturbed me because I was really was being a dogmatic ******* :) Just didn't want to hear it yanno? It's all good now.. weez str8 and I really do enjoy your posts!

Don't confuse my lack of self loathing with being egotistical. I just don't hate me because society says I should-- I don't follow orders well. You have to like yourself quite a bit to do for yourself what needs to be done...know what I mean?

Oh I don't anymore. I understand you now... Beforehand your bluntness and no holds barred personality kinda made me throw up my super duper acme forcefield yanno? 

I get that a lot, online. I tend to shoot pretty straight, and that's hard for a lot of people to take. Usually though, once people get what I am about, they figure out I am just another struggling goof ass like everyone else.

Chicky, you had a rough surgery.  The hurting is normal, but annoying and tiresome, I'm sure.  I bet it's frustrating as hell for you to see other people eat whatever they want and you're still struggling with your pureed foods.  Did you talk to your doctor about how slowly you're healing?  Maybe there's something he/she can do?

Regarding the people making their comments, a "thank you" should be enough.  Just repeat "thank you" until they get the hint that you don't want to discuss it.  That works for me.  "You look so great! Have you lost weight??"  "Thank you!" "What have you done, you look fabulous!" "Awww thank you" "Did you diet over the summer?" "Thank you".   They'll feel it.

Regarding your potty time - can't you take a laxative to get things moving? 

In the beginning, it's very discouraging and I'm sorry you're feeling it.  Some people bounce back and it's discouraging that you're not one of them.

Have yourself a pity party whenever you need to.  We're here for you.  ((((BIG HUG))))