My second fill

AMEN!!!!! 

Awww Girl... I am sorry...  I know you do not feel like hearing any words that you have already.....   Do not beat yourself up...  please... we need you here!!!!     ((((((LOTS of HUGS)))))))

Thanks.  I need hugs.

I'll go you one better! Heres a hug for you (hug icon of your choice) and now--- since I hate hearing about ANYONE trapped, even me, I am putting on my sneakers and GOING FOR A WALK! Now mind you, the Dr. and PT told me to cool my jets and lie low until Friday, but

I AM GOING ON A WAL K-A-THON FOR JANINA! In fact, I am gonna go do it now, in broad daylight, in a goddamn tank top so the world has to contend with every one of my flappy arm movements! Yeah! With my MP3 player blastin'! "Hello, hello--- we're in a place called Vertigo...." Yep! Here I go! No pain meds! Gonna do it for the Neener!  ::::PS It might not be a bad idea to get the paramedics on speed dial, but damn, I gotta point to prove here!:::::

That made me smile :) Thanks Shari

I am gonna join you Shari!   I'll be the one wearing the Biking shorts and sports bra... Also... programming NJ paramedics on speed dial for ya on my cell!

Hey Janina Girl -- Wow -- okay, I'm a little late gettting to the party.  I was lurking over on the main board and missing your melt down over here.  Seems like everything has been said already but has that ever stopped me? I feel your frustration and know I would feel exactly the same way if I was in your shoes.  Hopefully another fill will do the trick.  But, from what I understand, no matter what kind of WLS a person's has, at some point you have to be willing to do the work (exercising and changing eating habits).  With RNY and other forms of gastric bypass you don't really have to work at first.  You loose weight with almost no effort because of the surgery and the diet restrictions.  Therefore most people loose 100+ pounds right away.  But, after that 6 months to a year of rapid weight loss the gastric bypass patient has to start doing the work or she/he can regain some, most or all of the weight.

With the Band it looks likes there is no honeymoon period for a lot of people.  You have to start working with your tool from the beginning and I think that's what you're having such a problem with.  You're thinking that if you went through all the trouble and pain of having the surgery that you should be rewarded with a significant amount of effortless weight loss before you have to really go to work.  But, it appears like that's not going to happen so you're going to have to regroup, change your game plan and resign yourself to the fact that you have to go it alone  -- at least for now.  The next fill just may do the trick.  But, in the meantime, you've got to start working out.  At your age, working out is going to increase your metabolism tremendously and the weight will start coming off so much easier.  I can understand your concerns about the gym and you have already gotten some good suggestions.  The MP3 player suggestion is a good one.  You can just get into a zone with your music and you'll be in your own little world.  The walking idea is good too, and so are workout videos at home.  It really doesn't matter what  you do, you just have to get moving.  Start small and work your way up.  Don't wait for motivation to hit you, cuz it probably never will.  JUST DO IT!!!

Janina, I understand your frustration and hurt, but from experience you got to keep your power, do not give them your power that is what they want. I go to the gym over here in Qatar and all these thin Europeans and other Non-American Ex-Pats always talk about fat Americans and this will make you laugh, I moved into my villa and they approached me and asked if I would like to come to their house for tea, and I went and one of them said oh here is your tea but you cannot have no cookies, and I looked at her and told her no I can have the cookie I just choose not too.  Then she told me how her sister is a Doctor and she can drink and eat all that she wants and I looked at her and said the last time I check obese people are not the only ones getting diabetes and they make coffins for thins people too. She then proceeded to tell me that I need to get my heart pumping, to make a long story short I walk on the treadmill here everynight but Sundays and she came over there did 15 minutes and was out of breath looked at me and asked how long do you walk and I said one hour and she stayed there to see if I did so and she actually got mad because I could!!! The point I am trying to make is that they get some kind of kick out of making fun of overweight people so that they can make theirselves feel better.  I eventually asked her are you that insecure that you have to ridicule my weight when it is really none of your business? She then repied to me and said why are you so stuck up I told her that I was not stuck up I am just selective.  How your head high you are a pretty girl and I wish that I was your size you are going to make it go to that gym and walk to your heat is content that is what gets them the most because you are there if you did not go they would say something about that.  You go girl, and you were brave to have that surgery, and I know that you sepnt a lot to have it so do not give up now it is coming for you. Jenni

dood, it takes a while!  the band lags in results, but they do come. I would not be too regretful until after you've had a few fills. From my prowling on the LB board, it can take a while for restriction to come.  I think you made the right choice, you do not have all that much to lose comparatively.  I know, here i sound sooo patient...NOT my own reaction, god i would be cussing too. I'm telling YOU to be patient. LOL Don't listent o many of those fools over there! c

I'm a little late to the party too, but I just wanted to say HANG IN THERE, Janina. I'd be frustrated too. ((HUGS))